Well I am home from the castle again from surgery #2. I never got to feeling better since my last entry and now I know why. I had appendicitis and at 10 days post op from the TVH none the less. What a nightmare. I had to stay in the castle longer for the appendectomy than I did for the hyst. So now instead of being at the 2 week po mark and close to half-way to recovery I am starting over. I will have to say that this pain is much worse than the hyst. I knew that things were going too easy for me. My Dr. couldn't believe it. I do know that as of last Thursday, I was healing well. All of the stitches were fine and he said that the tissue looked good. I also know that my ovaries have good blood flow to them and that they are functioning like they should. I found that out from the ultrasound that they did trying to make sure that it was my appendix and not my ovaries. I go back to the dr. for my two week check up tomorrow so hopefully the news will still be good. I am very tired so I will close this for now. Maybe I will try to get back on later, but no promises!

I swear that I did NOT over do it today. I stayed off of my feet for most of the day. The only thing that I did was sit on a barstool and peel potatoes while my DH cooked dinner (what an angel he is). He is really stressing the point that I don't over do it. He went to work (night shift) and I started feeling dizzy and really weak. I attributed it to not being able to eat a whole lot since the surgery. I don't really feel like eating and besides that it makes my tummy hurt. Anyway, my neck and hips started hurting and I got the chills (what a difference from last night with the night sweats). When DH called to check on me he said that I didn't sound right so I told him what was going on. He asked had I checked my temperature and duh, I had not. Well it is 101.2 even with taking 600mg of Motrin every 6 hours. It was time to take my next dose so I have taken it and will see if it helps. I am not having any trouble going to the bathroom and I am not really experiencing any more pain than I have the past couple of days-well maybe a little more when I walk. If I am not better in the a.m. I guess I will call the doctor. I can't have a set back now my girls are coming home in a few days!!!

Well here it is 3:00 in the am and I am up with another little "sweat session". I have read a lot of posts about ovaries taking awhile to wake up after the surgery so I do feel better about it now. I guess it is a good thing that this one happened because when I got up to get a drink I realized that two of the horses were out of the pasture. Of course this is my DH first night back to work and bless his heart he had to use his lunch break to come home and put them up. I am just glad that I realized they were out and that they didn't go very far! I did feel a little useless and have to admit that for a minute I was tempted to go out there and catch them myself. My common sense kicked in ( not to mention the fact that he told me I better not) and I didn't do it. I will try to go back to sleep now since the sweating has stopped!

Well here is a new developement - hot flashes. I just got out of a cool shower and I am burning up! I didn't think this would happen since I decided to keep both of my ovaries. I hope that this is a very temporary thing or I am going to be sorry that I kept them. Two good things though- I did finally have a BM and that weird odor is gone! Who would have thought that those two things would qualify as a good day!!!

Okay here it is po day 6 and I am finally able to sit at the computer again. I must have really over done it on day 2 because I was in bed days 3,4 and 5. Today I felt much better though. I won't make that mistake again. To think of setting my recovery back any longer just makes me ill! I really should have listened to everyone! It is very important that I take it easy for the next few days because my girls are coming home Saturday!!! I can't wait. I have missed them so much the past few days. I hope that everyone else it doing well and is following the recovery rules better than I did! I will be a good girl from now on and even only spend a little while on the computer.

PO day three and I am not feeling as great as I have the past two days. I am sore, tired and now have a weird odor when I go to the restroom. Not a terrible odor and not particularly strong, but strange just the same. I am only have a slight pink and sometimes clear discharge so that is good. I will wait awhile and hope that it doesn't get worse. Maybe I overdid it yesterday since I was feeling so great.

I can't believe that it is actually over and I am home! Well, I got home yesterday, but had a house full of people so couldn't get on here until now!.

When my Dr. first told me that I would only have to spend one night in the Castle I was glad, but I must say I did think that he was a little crazy! One day - that seemed like an awfully short time. I went in for the TVH at 4:00pm Tuesday and was on my way home by 9:00am Wednesday! Once I got fully awake and was able to start urinating for real ( about 3:30 am) I was ready to come home! I didn't even need a catheter at all! Not that I didn't have some discomfort and even some actual pain for about 6 hours, but it was not nearly as bad as I had anticipated.

I have been home since yesterday and I have had to rest a lot, (even slept for 4 hours this afternoon) but it has been hard for me to stay off of my feet. My body is letting me know that I am overdoing it though and I am determined to listen! I don't want to delay my recovery at all.

I hope and pray that everyone who had their Castle day this week is doing well and I will continue to pray for those who are recovering and the LIW (bless their hearts). The waiting is the worst part (REALLY). We ran two hours late and I thought that I would go crazy and that my DH was going to blow a gasket!

A little note on all of our DH and the rest of our wonderful families: Even if they don't sit down and cry with you or even talk about how this is affecting them - they do still care. Sometimes it is hard for them because they don't want us to worry about them and want us to concentrate on ourselves. My DH didn't show how worried he really was until they told us that the surgery was being delayed for 2 hours. That is when the pacing and jitters started to show on him. When they finally came to take me to the OR I didn't think that he was going to let go of my hand. Afterwards he was right there holding my hand when I woke up with tears in his eyes and a smile on his face. He is a very strong man and I thank God that he was there to be the strong one the week before the "big day" when I was falling apart. At the time I was beginning to think that he didn't care, now I realize it was just the opposite, he was doing what I needed him to do. The rest of my family was also great. I had my mom to tell me that it I was going to be so glad that I made the decision to have to surgery and that every day that passed was one day that I was closer to being completely well. I had my sister to lean on and be able to cry with when my emotions got the best of me (like now). My daddy was there with not much to say, but he knows that him just being there gave me strength. My two girls (12 and 9) even helped out by not fighting for two whole days!!! I don't know what I would have done without any of them and I hope that they realize just how much every one of them means to me. Maybe I should have them log on and read this. No, they will get mad at me for being up!

Thanks to all everyone on this website for their encouragement and support! I have taken up enough time and space for now and besides I am getting a little tired.

s to everyone!

The weekend away was the best idea that my DH has ever had! We had two and a half days of no TV, no phone and I had his total, undivided attention! He did a wonderful job of taking my mind off of everything. Of course, he has gone to work now and the panic is starting to set in again. That's why I am here now. I start my bowel prep in an hour and a half so I am drinking me last Diet Coke for the next two day (at least). My parents and my sister will get here tomorrow with my girls so I am looking forward to that! I will try to get some sleep so I can be half way with it when they get here!

Well here it is another day and I am trying to pack for my long weekend away before the surgery. I do feel a little better about things today than I did yesterday. Maybe because I have something else to concentrate on now. Hopefully tonight when my DH goes to work and I am here alone I won't start freaking out again. The hardest times are when I am alone. My girls have been in Houston with my mom for a week and the peace and quiet is driving me crazy! I am going to try my best not to let my emotions get the best of me for the next three days and concentrate on my DH!

Well, here I am with five days to go and I am a nervous wreck. I haven't really slept in 3 days and it is starting to take it's toll. It seems that all I want to do is clean, cry and have sex. Must be the realization that I won't be able to do two of those three things for awhile! We are going away for the weekend so that we can celebrate our anniversary and maybe get my mind on something else (yeah right). We will see, maybe tomorrow will be better.