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Frustrations 07-07-2004 - 10:44 PM
I finally had a stretch of time to catch up on the journal entries this afternoon, a brilliant storm was creeping overhead, blackening the sky. And then... the cable went out! Since we have internet access via cable that meant no hystersisters! Boo hoo . I'm up and running again, but it's late and I'm tired mentally and physically.

My DH is very concerned about my health; specifically, my sloooooow recovery, and it's got me a little down. One of his friends told him that I looked bad (tired, sick) at the barbeque on Sunday, so he (DH) got it in his mind to call his sister-in-law who had a hysterectomy about 10 years ago. Of course, she sent sympathy and said that at 4 1/2 weeks she was feeling a lot better. I know he says he's just concerned, but it's irritating. I was doing okay mentally with my slow recovery and now I feel all of this pressure to get well quicker. I feel like I have to point out to everybody who looks at me like I'm a baby or a drug addict that I have had THREE SURGERIES AND A BABY in three years. Not to mention, that I've been in chronic pain for two years. This are not exactly the ideal situation to go into a major surgery.

My DH contends that we need to have a serious talk with my doctor tomorrow at my pre-6 week checkup (at 5 weeks since I'll be out of town at 6). He thinks we should be sure I don't have anything serious wrong, especially since I'll be flying in an airplane and we'll be out of range of good doctors for the better part of a month. I don't disagree with him, but the aggressive way he's approaching it all has me tense and defensive.

Tonight, one of our good friends and his wife came over for water and a short visit. This is a very sad situation. "B" has been one of my DH's best friends for over 20 years and he was diagnosed in December with an inoperable malignant brain tumor. He underwent aggressive chemotherapy and radiation, which shrank the tumor, but did not get rid of it. "B" has always been on of my favorite of DH's friends (he was the first one I met and told my DH that he'd was crazy if he didn't marry me, so how could he not be my favorite?). He has become a friend of mine, as has his wife. Our children play together. The tumor affects his short term memory, so having meaningful conversations has become difficult. In December it was impossible. Today, however, we all had a nice visit; "B" was lucid and not as repetitive as he has been in the past. But, still, it's a terrible situation and fills us both with feelings of helplessness and great sadness after they leave.

I still hurt. I still have a brownish discharge. I slept all afternoon, and I'm exhausted now. The vicodin isn't strong enough, so I've had to take percocet all day. And now I don't know how I'm going to go on a long vacation in just three days.

~ Clementine


 
heartbear said at 07-08-2004 - 12:06 AM
I am sorry you aren't feeling so well Clementine. You are in my thoughts. At least the discharge is brownish, that's a good sign it's slowing down.
~Floppsy

 


deegeorge said at 07-08-2004 - 01:29 AM
I know your feeling down but try to remember you just had a major surgery.... I know the feeling that everyone is expecting you to feel great by now...my own doctor that did my surgery tried to tell me I shouldnt need anything but tylenol or motrin at 4 days post op.... I AM SEEING ANOTHER DOCTOR NOW lol but just so you know It is hard to feel like everyone is rushing you to be recovered. This is something that you have gone through that is MAJOR. Dont get down about it, or at least try not to. I hope all goes well with your doctor appt . My 2 week post op is next tuesday..wish me luck! Try and also get some rest before you go on vacation... you will be tuckered out if you dont...

Dee

 


Sweety Tweety said at 07-08-2004 - 05:21 AM
Oh Clementine,
I am sending you a big you need it right now. I am sure your DH has only his best intentions and is conserned about you. One thing that I have learned on this site is that everyone heals in a diffrent way and time. My doctor tried to tell me at one week post op that I would be ready to go back to work by 4 weeks. I felt awful at 4 weeks and had a lot of bladder issues. I found myself in his office begging him to give me more time off. He gave me another two weeks, but was not to plesent about it. Needless to say I have sence received a second opion for a URO (which I had strep infection in my bladder GYN never even did a culture) So I have also found me a new GYN.

I think just because we get out of the pj's people think we are fine or expect us to be fine. And it sounds like you have been through a lot in the past 3 yrs and that all plays a toll on one's body. I hope your appointment goes well, please try to relax. As well if you are conserned about having a good doctor to see if something comes up when you are here in WI, ask your GYN if he can refere you to someone this way you will have someone you can see if there is a consern and not just trying to pick someone out of a phone book. Just as there are bad doctors here there are good doctors here as well just have to do some research and maybe your GYN can help which will help sent your's and DH's mind at easy.

I hope you have a good vaccation and enjoy the beuty of WI.
Kim

 


gemsab said at 07-08-2004 - 08:01 AM
Leslie, I agree with your hubby..........please have a serious talk with your doctor especially since you will be traveling.

Emily s

 


PraireLakeLady said at 07-08-2004 - 08:05 AM
Oh, Clementine,
I feel so bad for you. You will heal.

I agree with you hubbie though, have a good talk with your doctor. Are you on HRT or are you not able to do that? My doc said it would make a big difference in how I felt afterwards.

Plus you have a whole family to think about, I am able to heal alone with just DH and no other pressures at all. That makes a big difference, even though you wouldn't trade them for the world!

 


californiagal said at 07-08-2004 - 08:59 AM
Clementine,

I'm so sorry that you aren't feeling up to par. I understand your DH's concern and frustration. I think it is a WONDERFUL idea for the two of you to have a serious talk with your doctor. The chances are that you are healing slowly, but it will be good for you and your hubby to hear those words from your doctor.

Hang in there. Try to be patient and don't compare your recovery with anyone elses. We are all different and, therefore, we heal at different paces.

You're in my thoughts,
Rosanne

 


TxRiss said at 07-08-2004 - 09:24 AM
Hey Hon,

I'm sorry that you feel so awful. As far as feeling pressured, don't. Your DH is just worried about you. Deep down he knows that you've been through a lot and he wants to be supportive. Mostly I think that he wants you to feel well for your sake and no one else's. I think he wants you to stop hurting rather than get better quickly.

Try to do as little as possible. Stay in bed. Drink lots of fluid. Feel those positive vibes coming from Texas!

Lastly, enjoy the heck out of Door County. Enjoy how restful it is. Go sit at the Lake. Enjoy a fire in the fireplace. Go eat dinner at the White Gull. I wish that you had an au pair with you to help with the kids this summer. Take care of yourself and don't worry about a timetable.

Missy

 


Jmac35 said at 07-08-2004 - 10:03 AM
If this help any, my doc said to look out for more bleeding between week 4-6 when the internal stitches were disolving.

Maybe that is what is happening with you? I don't know, but I sure would ask him when you go. Maybe give him or his nurse a call now to see if you need to be worried?

I don't know the answer, but hope you fell better soon.

Much love and many 's,
Joyce

 


empresse said at 07-08-2004 - 10:45 AM
Well-meaning people who have had "a hysterectomy" in the past (10 years ago????) often do more harm than good when they offer opinions on Your (anyone else's) surgery/recovery. Did this person also have 3 surgeries and a baby in 3 years? And did she have the same type of hyst? There could be "something serious wrong" OR you could be recovering from much more than "just" a hysterectomy. We're going to get through this, sister dear! Lots of love, =e

 


 

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