Well, Christmas is over and the is this weekend. I don't know where the time went. I've come along way since I was told I needed a hysterectomy and didn't know where to turn, I am so glad I found this site. I can't believe Jan 10th 2012 will be one year since my hyster,physically I feel alot better then having those,mentally I still have up and down days.Today is one of those down days, it usually seems to happen the day before I change my HRT patch, so I am glad I have a place to put my thoughts and not be critized because of them and DH can't read them. There are a few things I would have loved to change during my recovery, more recovery time, less stress. more help but since that did not happen, it took me longer to get back to myself. There are days I'm still so tired, I don't know whether I'm coming or going. Having DH retired and home 24/7 does not help, I never have any alone time anymore{something I really miss}DH is always asking, what am I doing, who am I talking to on the phone,ect..ect..ect..you get the picture, it's useless to tell DH I need alone time, DH just doesn't get it. The only time I really get away from DH is when I am at work, since we only have one car, yes DH drives me to work and picks me up{so no alone time there} and NO DH will not buy me a car nor will DH take me to look at a car for me to buy {sometimes I feel like I'm back living with my parents}.Well since I can't change DH, I muddle through the day and sometimes cry. Yes, I feel sorry for myself at times and this is one of those times,I guess we all go through those times once in awhile. So I guess it's time to put on my Big Girl Pants and hope the future is brighter. I am glad I have my pets to keep me sane.

It's been 10 months since my hysterectomy. Been feeling really good. It has really been nice going on vacation and not have to worry about Aunt Flo and packing lots and lots of pads. DH and I are in Kansas, last of Big Truck Rally, before (hate to say it) winter comes. It has been very windy and chilly. It may be windy and chilly, but atleast I don't have to be at work. Been informed by mythat they are no longer making the Estraderm Patch and is putting me on V-Dot, so we will see how this will work, I did really fine on the Estraderm Patch, never did hear, why they decided not to make the Estraderm Patch no longer. I noticed that I am not on the forum as much as I use to be. This is still the best site, it helped me from pre to post to hormone problems. Thanks for being there for me.Happy Holloween to all.

Well here I am going to complain of the MOSQUITO INVATION!!!! The past 2wks have been terrible, can't even go outside,tried to weed the garden, gave up. Killed a bunch inside the house, the poor dog doesn't even want to go outside. Everyday the ritual is get up, get the bugspray out, spray me, the dog, the cat{ my pets are on herbal spray for animals} and DH. DH and I live in DEET!!! The perfume of choice. I can't wait for it to get cold enough to KILL them!!! I know I'll probably complain of it being too cold then. What purpose does mosquitos, fleas, ticks have? Nothing, except to torture us.
My friend upnorth with MS is doing really well, she is in physical therapy, which she really likes. Went to see her and her DH, she looks really good and getting around pretty well. I hope she keeps up the good work and continues to improve.
DH came down with UTI. According to the Dr. it is rare for men to get it, but if they do get it, it is more painful then when a woman gets it. Of course my DH waited 3 days before seeing anyone{ DH wouldn't listen to me to go and see the Dr next day,}{DH excuse , it'll pass, the one I liked best was, DH didn't want to go to the Dr coz I was doing laundry}, by that time DH was in so much pain and bloated, I took DH to the emergency. Dr. gave DH antibiotics and pain pills. DH got yelled at by the emergency Dr, nurse and when we went to our regular Dr for waiting so long. DH is getting better, it'll take time for DH belly to quit being sore, coz DH waited so long and DH was so bloated. I told DH now you know how us women feel when we get UTI. Now that DH had one DH is prone for reaccurance, it's another thing to keep an eye on. Hopefully DH won't wait next time.Dr also told DH, to lose weight and start a walking program, to walk 1 mile slowly, then when that is easy to do then increase the pace. I said great I'll walk with you' DH said lets do bike riding instead, walking is too hard on my knees, I said Dr said WALKING to build your leg muscles up, when you ride your bike, you coast more then peddling . So we'll see how this will work. Right now the mosquitos are so bad, you can't go for a nice walk. So as soon as the mosquitos are DEAD, I'll see if I can't get DH walking. Wish me luck!!
I'm trying to convince DH to go to the Renaissance Faire this year. I love going to it, it's been a couple of years since DH and I went{,coz the past couple years DH didn't want to go, so we didn't go}. Guess what, there would be alot of walking around. I told DH, if he don't want to go' I'm going without him!!!! I'm tired of wanting to do something and DH doesn't want to, so we don't. I gave up too many things and places I wanted to go to and DH didn't. Having{one vehical} a truck, with a stick shift,{ I know how to drive a stick}the problem is, even with the seat moved all the way, I still have to slouch down to reach the gas and brake peddle and I can't reach the clutch peddle. But now we have a Semi truck to pull the camper, the Semi is automatic and I can drive it. I drove it back and forth to work, when DH couldn't drive coz of his UTI. So if DH doesn't want to go, I'll just take the Semi...
I can't believe it'll be 9 months since my hyster. There are still days where it seems I can't get it together and I'm tired, but I have more better days. Don't miss Aunt Flo and her sister Aunt Cramps. Best thing I've done.

Well a whole month past by, I don't know how the time went so quickly. Been doing alot of and enjoying myself.
It'll be 8 months {Aug 10} since my hyster, been feeling rather well, just the past couple of days, I'm starting to feel like my old self. I remember being so scared, wondering where to turn,no one to talk to, then I found this wonderful site,{ my mom past away and never talked about her hyster, of course hers was done back in the 70's}. Now I wonder, what I was so worried about.
Don't miss Aunt Flo one bit. It's really nice to be able to go away on vacation and not have to worry about Aunt Flo and her sister Aunt Cramps and tons and tons of maxi pads and tampax. I actually can go site seeing.
Now I mostly go to the HRT/without overies site, since I am on HRT and don't have any overies. That site is just as helpful as the pre and post hyster sites. I have learned so much from all the sites. I couldn't have done it without you!!!
Took alot of time off work, the office manager hasn't complained too much. I don't know, I use to work my *** off and never complained, but after the way the office manager treated me when she found out I had to have surgery and when I went back after recovery and I couldn't what I use to. Well now I don't really care about work, if I want to take off, I do give them notice so someone can cover my hours and if the office manager doesn't,oh well, I tell the manager, I go away and come back and you can be happy or I can go away and not come back your choice.
The new Stevie Nicks CD- In Your Dreams- is great listerning.
My friend who has MS, is in physical therapy now and doing really good and enjoying it, she will be celebrating, she will be 65, she has had MS for 20yrs, so every DH and I make a trip.
Have more trips planned, in Aug, Sept and Oct. So till next time, all of you take care!!!

I can't believe its been so long since I been on my journal. It has been a very busy summer so far, been to Myrtle Beach, worked on the camper and truck, went to work for a couple days, then went to Indiana with friends, came home, went to work for a couple days, got a scarey phone call my BF{who lives up north}who has MS fell and ended up in the hospital, so we packed up and headed to our friends house.{To our relief, she is fine, got a couple stitches on the back of her head} Of course work is mad at me again, coz I called and told them I wouldn't be in, that I had to head up north coz my BF is in the hospital hurt and didn't know how bad it was. My office manager know that my BF has MS and her husband had a pacemaker put in just acouple months ago, I told them along time ago that if anything happens up there I may have to give short notice and head up. Of course it had to happen 4th July weekend, so I bet work thinks I made it up, I would have liked it better to make it up then my BF hurt. In acouple weeks DH and I heading out camping for a week with a couple of our friends, then when we get back I'll go back to work for a couple weeks before we head out again{WHEW}
On a happier note, I DO NOT MISS AUNT FLO, before Aunt Flo always tagged along on our vacations, she was never invited. I got to do more site seeing{not laying in bed with cramps, or could not leave the camper, coz of heavy period}. I still am not up to my old self, I still get tired and I still get swellybelly and gassy, but other then that, I feel really well.
On another noteSEX has been great, the orgasms have been OMG. I've had more SEX since gave the all clear and it is better then ever. Now I'm the one who wants it all the time, DH still doesn't know how to handle the changebut DH is happy to step up to the challenge.

Hope everyone has a happy and safe 4th!!!
Till next time.

Back from vacation, now I'm catching up on all the laundry and have to clean the camper and the house and still go to work. After 4 months I thought I would have more energy back, I am still exhausted. I go to bed tired and wake up tired. AT least I have this weekend off from work and Mon is a holiday so work is closed. I thought I could get more rest and work on getting things done around the house, but that is not going to happen now, to my surprise we have uninvited guest that showed up out of the blue and spending the weekend here, staying at my house and sleeping in my camper that I have to clean and now I'll have more work to do , coz now I'll have to cook more, which means more dishes , more laundry and now I have to entertain our guests. So it looks like my 3 day weekend plans went up in smoke, so I guess I"ll have to work on cleaning the camper and house after Tues before I go to work. Because you know I really want to get up early and start cleaning the camper and house before work, go to work, come home and clean somemore. I was hoping to get it done this weekend, that is why DH and I didn't go anywhere. So today I got up at 5 AM, so I can get the dog fed and hopefully get the laundry done before the guest get up and I have to cook breakfast for everyone. I had to get the dog fed before everyone gets up, because then she forgets to eat or eats to fast and then gets sick , because she is more interested in playing and over does it, I try to tell our guest she can't play like that, she is an older dog {9yrs} not a puppy, but it seems like it goes in one ear and out the other. So here it is 7AM and everyone is still sleeping but me, how is this fair to me, it suppose to be my weekend to relax too! Well at least the dog is fed and hopefully her food is digested by now so she won't get sick by getting over excited. I would like one day of not having to do anything but SLEEP!!! I would like one day to myself and my pets, just to curl up on the couch and do nothing. I sometimes dream of spending a day at a spa and have other people cater to me {not in the budget}!!! I'm just B***** coz I'm so tired. Well gotta finish the laundry and put the dishes away from last night and take the dog out and see what else I can get done before everyone gets up.

We were all ready to leave this morning to head back home, we didn't even make it out of the park{which is good} and the truck started acting up, so we pulled around the corner and went back to our campsite and now the truck won't go into any gears, so DH called a truck macanic in the area, so now we are just waiting for him to show up with some parts{DH thinks he knows what is wrong and told the macanic what part is needed, I hope so} If it is not the right part, we will be here till Mon, when the Volvo service people can come and tow it and however long it will take to fix it. Boy if that happens, my work manager will be really mad, but there is nothing I can do to make the truck work. I guess it won't be so bad to spend acouple more days in the Smokie Mts.

It's been a great 3 weeks. Had a few bumps and wrong turns along the way, but it turned out OK. The days are winding down, DH and I will be heading back home this weekend and I'll be back to work Monday{BOO-HOO}. DH and I have been to Washington DC, North Carolina, South Carolina, Myrtle Beach, Tenn.{Smokie Mountains} and heading back home, probably stop somewhere for the night and be home by Sunday. Then have the joyunpacking the camper and cleaning it so it's ready for the next trip.

:estrogen DH and I stopped in Washington DC for acouple of days, went to the smithsonian galleries, the indian display was ok, the air and space was BORING, by the time we took the bus and subway we spent $40.00 and the galleries were free. Thurs. we headed toward South Carolina, Myrtle Beach, got here and set up before the rain came. DH is out visiting men friends standing in the rain. All of the women, including me are inside the warm trailer. It suppose to be very nice tommorrow and the rest of the week. It's nice going to these rallies, coz DH goes and visits all day long and I have the trailer to myself and my pets.

DH and I are on VACATION. Plans have changed, got on the freeway going past where we were to get off, so we never went to the Fairy Festival, headed to Washington DC to catch some of the sites.Met alot of nice people on our way, our camper was to big to fit at the campground so the campground let us stay in the parking lot for the night with no charge, told where to eat with great food and cheaper price, told what subway to take and directions on how to get there So far DH and I made a few wrong turns, but it turned out right. Then DH and I are heading to Myrtle Beach to meet up with some friends. So far I am having a great time.::vacatio n2

Hopefully DH and I will be on our way to VACATION LAND.It's been hard getting ready to go with all this rain.
Not long ago I was complaining of all the cold freezing weather and snow, now it's raining and damp and cold. We did have nice warm days here and there. I do feel sorry for all those people that have been hit hard by tornados and lost everything and here I am complaining about rain,cold,windy and damp weather. Do I have the right to complain, while others lost everything, some even their lives. May Mother Nature show everyone some mercy.:cathugs:

Well here it is, went to the last week for papsmear, mamogram and a bone density test. Got the results back, losing some density in both hips, have to up my calcium supplement and do more walking and stretching exercise, got a phone call and letter from the mamogram nurse, the report said that there may be a mass, had to go and do more xrays. Talk about another thing to worry about till that appointment{ I think DH was more worried then I was.} What a relief that the xray didn't find anything and I was alright, so I still really don't know what they think or thought they may have found.
On a better note, the camper is packed and ready to go, we'll be leaving in a couple of days, work{office manager} is not happy, but after all I've gone through the past couple of months, I really don't care what work{office manager} thinks. I keep telling the office manager, I work because I want to, not because I have to.
Oh yeah, SEX has been great, it's been along time since it has been this good. DH and I have more SEX now then ever before.:ywelcome8

It's been a heck, the past 2 weeks. DH and I had SEX and it was great, after 12wks it was worth waiting for, can't get enough, I hope DH can keep up.
Work has been very busy, it's Heart Worm Prevention month, so alot of people have been bringing their dog in for heartworm check, sadly to say we have had a couple POSITIVE results from people not giving their dog the heartworm pill, now instead of $8.00 for a pill to prevent heartworm{that price is for a lrg dog, the price of the pill goes by the dogs weight, the smaller the dog the less it costs}, they have to spent $1000.00 to cure their dog from the heartworm. Like the one vet said, the prevention is cheaper then the cure. What really bugs me, are the people that come to the clinic, whining they don't have any money to buy the pill, but they have their hair done,they have their nails done,they have rings on every finger, a new tatoo, they reek of cigarettes{yes, I use to smoke, this is not to put anyone down who does smoke, I feel it is your choice, but do you buy a pack of cigarettes or take care of your animal or child}. Well enough about that subject.
DH bought a new printer,so DH was going to hook it up to my computer, got out my computer and turned it on and nothing happened. The blank screen just kept staring at us, and I used it the night before and it was fine. So off we go to the computer store, told them the problem, they said my motherboard was fried, gone, kaput. Asked how much for a new motherboard,{ my computer was only 2yrs old} they said $380.00, DH said for $400.00 we could buy a new computer. So off to Costco we went, got a new computer, good thing DH knows how to get the other stuff off my old computer and get it on the new one, it took a week to get it all downloaded, but it's done and all my stuff was saved. It's alittle bigger then my old one and the keys are different, it'll take alittle to get use to, but I like it.
DH and I are going on VACATION, begining of May, so we have 3 wks to get the camper ready to go. I have most of it done, now it's just the little stuff to get done, and DH part to get done and I can't do any more till DH gets done. We are stopping in Glen Rock, PA for the Faery Festival at Spoutwood Farm, they been having Faery Festivals for the past 20yrs, we never have been, always wanted to go and it just so happens to fit in with our plans, I am very excited. From there DH and I are heading to South Carolina, we're meeting with other campers at Mertyle Beach. On they way back home we're going to stop at the Biltmoore Estates. DH and I are going to take our time and enjoy ourselves.
I am surprised the office manager has not said one word to me about all the time I am taking off for VACATION, I'm taking off 3wks in May, 1wk in June, 1wk in July, 1wk in Aug, 1 wk in Sept and 2wks in Oct.{I'm not going to get paid for all that time off}. The girl I work with told me the other day that the Equine Dr{he is the owner} told her that she was going to be riding with him this summer, coz the girl{who is his girlfriend} that rides with him wants the whole summer off {she will get paid, she's salary and the owners girlfriend}. I said that's fine, but I'm not changing my VACATION DAYS, so they will have to figure out who is going to cover for me, coz I am not going to worry about it. I put notes on the lab calendar, the office manager has a note taped on her computer on all the days I'm taking off and I told them, so it's not like they don't know.
Well that's about it for now, time to feed the pets and DH, get some more stuff done in the camper before I head for bed. Best to all.

Well here it is cold again, but atleast there is sunshine. Went to another funeral Fri. March 25th, one of our vets mom past away, it was a nice ceremony, had an awesome lunchen, just the way she would have wanted it.
This is my second week back to work, it has gotten alittle easier, getting back in the swing of things, still taking it easy, not lifting anything heavy.Everyone at work has been helping out, so I don't do anything strenuous, I still get tired at the end of the day, told DH and work that I'm taking Saturdays off from now on, I work Mon threw Fri. I'll work a Sat once in awhile,I like the weekends off.
I go to bed tired and I wake up tired, I get up and try to do all the things that need to be done before work, go to work already tired get home have dinner, clean up the mess and before you know it, its 10PM and I'm exhausted. DH doesn't help out anymore,DH sits at the computer day and night and watches me run around getting things done, its to the point if I don't do it , it don't get done, DH thinks that after 10wks, I should be back to my normal self. I would be if I wasn't so tired all the time. Not only that, DH and I are going to Myrtle Beach beginning of May,{ I've got 5wks to loose some weight , so I can fit into my shorts and bathing suit. wish me luck} so I also need to get the camper ready to go, its hard to want to go and get the camper ready, when it's only 15 degrees outside and the camper is just as cold. I am packing some stuff up, so all I'll have to do is carry it out to the camper and put it away. If I do alittle every day I won't have to rush and try to get it done all in one day. Hopefully next week it will get warmer. So much to do so little time.
The frustrating thing is that I still have yellow discharge, The Dr said that it was normal, that I'm still healing, that's fine and dandy, but how much longer will I have this yellow discharge. I have a drawer full of pretty underware that I don't dare to wear for fear of staining them. I have been wearing my old cotton underware and a pantiliner, and it will still leak enough that it runs off the pantiliner onto my underware and stains it. Some days there is more discharge then other days. Sure doesn't make one feel pretty or sexy. Next weekend I'll be all cleared for sex and I would like to make it a special night and wear something sexy, but how with this stupid discharge.:::

:luvpets Our friends, DH and I went to theparty. There was a DJ and 2 young guys, who were the DJ helpers. They were alot of fun, they also danced with us older women, coz our DH didn't want to dance. All my DH did was complain that his knee hurts{DH is very overweight and not active} I did get DH up to dance 3 X's. The first dance the complaining started, then during the 2nd dance he started whinning, MY KNEE HURTS, I 'm going to be in real pain tommorrow{it wasn't like we danced right after the first dance, there was an hour between dances}and DH went to the bathroom limping{what a show DH put on, I thought I was the one that had surgery}. SO I got honkerblonkED OFF and got the one young DJ to dance with me. I figure DH can sit there if he wants, he's not going to spoil my fun. So the rest of the night I danced with the 2 young guys.{ AND YEAH MAMA STILL GOT IT!!!!}If I ever doubted that I was no longer a woman after the hysterectomy, last night erased all doubts. Surprise it was DH idea to dance the last song, maybe he got tired of watching me dance with the other guys. All the dancing I did and I'm not even sore. Today Well surprisingly DH is not limping or acts like his knee hurts at all, and is being very very nice to me. Maybe DH realized that I can still turn guys heads and desireable, from different age groups.Oh yeah, before the party I gavea bath, so you would think I'd be the one sore, today I got up early and brushed.Now I'm listening to Stevie Nicks and on the computer, I hope my good feeling lasts awhile. Well tommorrow another work day.

Well it's been along week. Went to work Mon. the one vet went home with the stomache flu, so the relief vet was double booked, but I got out at the regular time. I also gave my office manager my vacation days I want off, to my surprise she hasn't said anything about it,{ DH and I are going to the Carolina's for a month} and basically taking off a week every month till Nov, especially after having 2 months off after surgery. Tues, found out our other vet's mom had a 2 strokes in a weeks time and is not doing good, we were very busy that day and she was the only small animal vet there, coz the one vet was still out sick, so she said, but she was well enough to bring in the browny troops for a tour, and the equine vet is also sick, but working. Wed. we were booked again and only had one small animal vet and the equine vet,{ who is still sick and working} I just kept thinking , OH Great< everyone is sick now that I'm back to work and I bet my immune system is not up to parr. >Thurs. HAPPY ST. PATRICK DAY- the relief vet worked for the other vet whose mom had the strokes, they were taking her home, the Dr.s don't think that she will make it over the weekend. My prayers goes out to her, I know what's it like to lose a mother and father. Fri. OH MY WHAT A FRIDAY!!!! BAD, VERY BAD!!! If the animals were sick they were coming in. I got to work and it was a mess. We were so busy I didn't even have time to pee. The day vet tech got so far behind, she was stuck in the lab checking horse fecals for parasites. The one receptionist got stuck in the back helping the relief vet{ she was the only small animal vet there}. There were cages to be cleaned, sick animals to be taken care of, laundry to do, xrays to be taken, blood to be drawn and run, rooms to be cleaned, I wasn't even at work 10 min. and I got peed on and pooped on.ect..ect...ect...then the afternoon girl came in and helped hold,draw blood and clean whatever needed to be cleaned or taken care of, she was a god send and we were thankful when she came in. It was one of those days, when S***hits the fan. As busy as we were and the mess we had, we got done at closing time, I don't know how, but it did. Got home had dinner and a glass or two of wine, I am tired and sore, but thankful IT WAS PAYDAY, I GOT A PAYCHECK!!!! I do have the weekend off. So tommorrow I plan on giving my dog a bath{she has allergys and is getting hotspots} and cat a bath, I don't know what else I will do during the day, depends on how I feel. DH and I and our other friends are going to a birthday party, one of our other friends is turing 50 and is having a big party. I'm really tired now, so I'm going to have one more glass of wine and watch some TV and go to bed, till next time. Now that I'm back to work I don't have as much time to be on the computer. GOOD NIGHT!!!!wit ch:

Went for my 8wk post-op appt. said everything was healing and looked great, still have some stitches. Got the all clear to return to work, still have weight lifting restrictions, no more then 20pds for atleast another 3wks. NO SEX for another 3wks{so much for having a romantic night, after the appt}said by then all the stitches should be gone and compleatly healed.{Maybe DH and I will have a romantic night then} So Mon. I get to return to the work force. After having all this time off, the one thing I keep thinking, is how am I going to get it all done. Yeah, I use to do it all before I had the surgery, but I was never this tired all the time.I use to be an early riser {6:30 AM} and stayed up till 10:00PM. Now I sleep 10hrs a day,wake up still tired and ready for bed by 8:00PM.My next appt is April 5th, that should by last appt for the year, if everything is healed will do a papsmear at that time.
On a better note, DH bought me a Color Nook ebook, I didn't think I would like it as much as I do, DH and I even went to a class on how to use it, I'm getting pretty good at it. Our friends, DH and I went to JOE"S CRAB SHACK, the crab steamer pots was very good, I wouldn't mind going again, I could eat crab, shrimp, lobster, clams, scallops or any other type of seafood all the time, especially with a good glass of wine or a beer, I would be in heaven.
Even on a better note, the snow is almost gone, the weather is getting warmer, it suppose to be in the 50's this week, with sunshine. YIPPEE!!!! My dog and cat are starting to shed clumps of hair, which is usually a sign that SPRING is coming!!!
However, DH got a call from our friends from upnorth, that our male friend may need a pacemaker, the are still running tests, his wife has MS and falls all the time. So, if he has to have surgery, DH and I may be making a trip upnorth to stay with the wife while her DH is in the hospital, or however long it takes. They have no family up there and I wouldn't count on their children to help out, they would come up with some excuse, like they always do, so DH and I go up there and help them as much as we can,we worry about them. I just can picture, me telling work I have to take off again and don't know when I'll be back, after having 8wks off to recover from my surgery. Oh well, our friends are more important then any job, they would be the first ones here if I ever needed help, they would be the ones that would give you their last dollar if you needed it. Ieverything will be alright.
Well it's that time, what to make for dinner. Ask DH and I always get the same answer, I don't know, what do you have a flavor for, and I tell DH, if I knew I wouldn't be asking, would I? I love how I have to come up with something for dinner 365 days, unless we go out for dinner.
Gotta go for now. We'll see how tommorrow goes, being back to work.The pampering is over.:ins omnia:

:It is getting really frustrating, but I'm hanging in there. Dr said nothing in the vagina for 8wks. My Dr appt is March 10th, so I hope I get the OK to have SEX!!! Been taking alot of cold showers, SEX is the only thing I've been thinking about. The closer my Dr appt is getting, the more I think about SEX!!! Having SEX dreams is not helping the matter!!! It's like I'm a ***** in heat. LOL Try to do other things, to get it off my mind, but that's not working either. : At this time all I can think of is, DH in the other room and what I want to do DH.

Yesterday I did the complete pilates video and didn't die, I was really sore. I noticed how much muscle I lost since surgery, it was difficult, eventhough I only used 1pd weights, guess I'll have to build myself again, I was up to 8pds weights. I also did some dancing around the house, which was fun,I do miss going out dancing, {DH don't want to go anymore, we use to go all the time, DH complains his legs hurt, DH is overweight now that DH is retired and sits infront of the computer eating junk food}. I had the house to myself{ YIPPEE-YAHOO} DH had a day with the boys, so I danced around the house and belted out afew songs. Had a great time bymyself and my pets. I feel great today, maybe that is what I needed, some exercise, dancing, singing and of course HAD THE HOUSE ALL TO MYSELF. Did some of the same today, even though DH is home. I don't CARE, I'm gonna have some FUN, even if it's bymyself!!!!

It's another gloomy day, suppose to rain this afternoon, then freezing rain, then snow. Can you say YUCK AGAIN!!!! It was a nice and different funeral, it was scottish, her DH played the bagpipes at the funeral home and at the cemetary and wore his scottish attire. On another note, I looked in the mirror and did not like what I saw, I have got to start really disiplining myself and get stubborn, I need to loose weight and exercise more, I let it slip too long. I think it's because I'm stuck in the house and I'm with DH 24/7 {DH is retired and overweight and buys the junk food} and when I'm stressed I reach for the junk food, coz it's there. It's amazing how much the stomache controls the situation. Well NO MORE I SAY!!! My next post-op appt is Mar. 10th, I hope Dr. gives the all clear, and if Dr. does, WATCH OUT!!! I'll be able to work my way back to weight lifting, arobics, bellydancing, pilates and doing what I did pre-surgery and back to work.

Just waiting for our other friends to come down from Grayling, so we can go to the funeral home together. Our friends wife died in her sleep Sun. Feb 20th, they did an autopsy,{ to clear the husband of any wrong doing}. I can't believe that the husband had to go through that. According to med. examiner, they don't know why she died. She will be buried tommorrow.It'll be a ruff couple of days, our friends wife has MS and doesn't do stress very well. Like I told my DH, that is the way to go in your sleep.

It began with my surgery date, the office manager at work was very mad that I had to take off work, threatened to fire me{ I said GO AHEAD}. Then I get home from the hospital, my dog had a very bad skin allergy attack, so I had to bathe and put salve on her sores for a week,{coz DH wouldn't}. Then DS got in a car accident, messed up his car, so it had to be fixed, {the only good thing about that is our friend came by everyday, even in the cold and snow to help get DS car running} Then DH got the stomache flu, so DH was laid up for 3 days, I had to take care of him. DH decided to put a new program on my computer and messed up my computer, where it wouldn't do anything and froze up{that was fun}.Now DS is in trouble and I am at my WITS END, I don't have the means to help DS!!! I tell DH that I am tired and my belly hurts and he says, YOU NEED TO EXERCISE MORE!!! I still have acouple of weeks before my next DR. appt. I can't wait till I can go back to work and get away for awhile. With all this going on,{ Mon. will be 7week post-op}, I don't know how I ever recooperated or got any rest, sometimes I wonder if it would have been better, if I never had the hyster and just kept living my life like before. I may have been miserable, but atleast I would have had a paycheck coming in. It seems like every time I turn around, something else BAD happens, I just want all the BAD stuff to go away. I am tired of worrying and crying myself to sleep everynight. Good thing I haveand hystersisters journal to write and on the forum to write to. Today I brushed theand laundry. Another snowstorm is to hit us again YIPPIE!!!

Well I think I over did it today. I gave mya bath. I could have put it off longer, but they were getting yucky. I gave them a bath before I went to the hospital in Jan. so its been over a month. I'm tired and sore now, but boy mysmell good, I think it was worth it. Good thing DH and I are going to our friends house for dinner, coz I sure don't feel like cooking tonight. That is all I did today.

Well here we are once again, got 10 inches of snow, poor DH had to out shovel and plow. I tried to help brush snow off the porch, BAD mistake, it was only alittle bit of snow on the porch and I couldn't do it. Talk about your abdomen muscles weak, you got it. I hate feeling like a helpless little girl. I am so BORED,DID I SAY BORED!!! Did exercise , played with the did stuff on thenow its time to feed theand DH. What to make forThen I get toWhat a day!!! Nothing more to say!!!

teapot:Well the storm is here, been snowing all afternoon YUCK. I can't wait for SPRING. Yesterday I did theDH the house, cleaned up the doo-doo. Today not much to do, so I thought I would play with the journal, took a long hot, been drinking alot of to keep warm, did some. DH went out to shovel some snow off the porch, so DH can take out. Today I feel like my old self, theis gone,I don't know what came over me, but I didn't like the way I felt the past 2 days, I am glad it is gone. Well it's getting dinner time, got to feed the and DH, we're having leftovers from the restrant DH is having steak and I am having crab stuffed salmon. Guess I'll watch some TV till bedtime and get some Till next time.

OK, enough with the snow!!!! Another storm is to hit us tommorrow {Sun} afternoon and last till Mon. morning. Why couldn't it stay warm and sunny like the past few days, it melted most of the snow and dryed most of the mud. Maybe that's why I feel a little off, knowing another round of storms is coming. YUCK!!~! Everything has been going great, been feeling great, starting to do more things around the house, been taking the dog out for short walks, went to the camper show with our friends and had a great time, been getting out of the house more and going places, starting to slowly ease back into my exercise routine, only doing the exercises I am capable of doing at this time, been doing great on the HRT patchbeen getting a good night so with everything that has been going right why do I feel this way the past 2 days, and those 2 days DH is getting on my LAST NERVE and DH hasn't really done anything to get on my LAST NERVE, except be here, maybe I just need some time alone.

It's hard to believe that Mon.Feb 14th-Valentines Day will be 5wks post-op. I have been feeling greatstill getting a great night is slowly going away. The best news tried on my old jeans, got them up over my butt,I got so excited, but could not zip or button them,I haven't been able to get them over my butt in months. However I am back into my regular size panties. So it won't be too long before I am in my regular size jeans
I can't wait to get the OK to do more exercises, told DH that I will be in my bikini body by summer. This is the new ME- taking control and getting back into shapeNO MORE eating stupid junk food, coz it's there! Cut down on portions, use a small plate instead. If we go out to eat, bring 1/2 of it home, you don't have to clean your plate. I am determined to get back my body shape before those fibroids took over. I am no longer thebut a QUEEN!!!

I am going bonkers, I am so tired of all this below zero weather and snow, at least the sun is out today. Stopped by my work yesterday and got my last sickpay. Everyone was glad to see me, want to know when I can come back. I do miss working, but I know what will be required of me and I am not ready to do all the physical stuff that is required or babysit their animals all weekend, {the bosses mom dog, the bosses girlfriend 2 dogs, the bosses sister dog and whoever elses dog or cat they decide to leave at work}, don't get me wrong I love animals, its the owners I have trouble with, they take advantage of the situation and your suppose to change your plans to accomodate them. ::After my hyster and recovery, I realized my life is more important then trying to please the people at work, {you'll never be able to please them anyway}, and let the turmoil of life go on without me!

It seems the past couple of days, I would be fine for 2days then day 3, I just feel pooky. Maybe I am doing too much those 2 days and pay for it on the 3rd day, or maybe it's just the weather, on the sunny days I feel better, on the snowy, gloomy, windy days I just feel blah. Still been getting a good night so the HRT patch and the chillow is working. No hotflashes/nightsweats, crying spells or moodiness. I do feel that I am slowly getting back to my regular self. DH and I didn't go to Texas,{ which is fine by me} between the nasty weather from here to Texas it was better to just stay home.

Well today I turn 56. Been feeling rather well, did alittle too much bending over yesterday and was alittle sore. Still been gettting alot of so maybe the combination of the HRT and the chillow pillow is working. Getting alittle stir crazy, staying at home with DH being sick all weekend. DH is feeling better so we are going to go and visit friends today and do some shopping, another snowstorm is to hit us starting tonight till sometime Wed. hopefully it won't be as bad as the weather people say.

:hello3 I don't know if it was the HRT patch or the chillow pillow or the combination of both, I got a good night sleep slept 6hrs straight, got up to pee, went back to bed and slept another 5hrs. I feel well rested. DH got DSworking. I also called work and told them it'll be another 6wks off, they did not sound too happy I'm just waiting for the office manager to call and give me griefcoz they keep me sane!

Went to Dr. on Tues. Jan 25, she said everything is looking good, put me on Estraderm patch 0.05mg. to help with the hotflashes, I also got the chillow pillow and used it last night and it seemed to help. :: Did not give me the OK to go back to workShe asked what I did at work and I told her, I did not sugar cote it. She said I did great during surgery and she did not want me to push myself to where I would rip my stitches, we'll see in 4wks. Work is going to be MAD:{:I am worrried I may get fired for taking so much time off, I need my paycheck}.DH said, Well so what, let them fire you, don't worry about it. DH asked the if we could make it a 6wk checkup, she said that would be fine. DH decidedfor us to take a trip to Texas, coz it's warmer there. DH and friend have been out in the cold working on DS it is almost done.Not working on thetoday DH was sick last night and today, so I'm letting DH besides it's snowing.coz they keep me sane!

Well it is Sun. Jan23. Been doing rather well, if it wasn't for the hotflash/nightsweat and the itching where the incisions are, and not being able to fit in my clothes yet. I would not think I had surgery on Jan 10. Went out to dinner with friends Sat. had a good time, got alittle uncomfortable, pants got tight as the night approched. Was having a good time, then the dreaded phone call came.I'm alittle sad today;{ I know this doesn't have anything to do with my surgery, but I had to share it somewhere} yesterday {Sat} we had abit of snow and cold and the roads were icy and my son was going home from his meeting and slid in the ditch and messed up his car. I feel bad coz he doesn't have the money to fix it and we don't have the money to help him. Just when he started to get back on his feet this happens. How am I suppose to heal and relax now that I have this to worry about and DH is mad coz sons car is at our house in the driveway. Hopefully tommorrow will bring a brighter day.

Well the past two days have been very good to me. Wed. I actually got 5hrs of uninteruped sleep, felt good allday. Thurs. went out for dinner, also had a good day, didn't get much sleep from hotflashes. Fri. doing rather well today, alittle tired. Going to venture out and walk the mall, I do hate to go out in 6 below, but its better then sitting in the house. Haven't had a pain pill in three days. Still taking stoolsoftener though.

Well feeling better today, I don't know why concidering I didn't get any sleep last night. Got alot of exercise during the night, tossing and turning, throwing covers off and on {hotflash/nightsweats}.I don't know why they call them nightsweats, when it also hits you during the day.The past two days my emotions were on high kilter. but now they seem to be OK today maybe my emotions decided to give me a day off. Do have a headache, maybe from lack of sleep and too much exercise

Feeling better since I went on line and got things off my chest. I love this site,everyone is so helpful and understanding, otherwise I probably would have gone nuts. Just updated my membership alot of things included in the upgrade. Well worth it. Well feeling alitttle tired now. Even with all the ups and downs I"m glad I had it done.
LAVH- Jan 10- uterus/overies removed, took a week to even get motivated, hard to do walking{ small house only can walk in circles, too cold and snowy to go outside}. Didn't take a nap today so maybe I can get a goodnight sleep.