I did not realize people read these; I found comments on my last entry and answered the questions. Migraines are miserable, I am fighting one off today trying to relax and breathe. My surgery guided imagery MP3's help and I already listened to it once today, the migraine is coming and going and I feel like I won the battle this time.

I hope the ongoing migraines are a part of what this surgery will get rid of. I know there are many things I have been living with for the past ?? years which are fibroid related.

Ten days to go, yes I am counting down to the minute and blocking off time such as last Friday I thought ‘at this time in two weeks I will be getting ready to go’ etc.
Almost down to the single digit number of days…

I have met many sisters on this site whom are in surgery now, having it done in the next few days or are having theirs soon after mine. We have formed a support group and I am so thankful for this site and my sisters.

For some reason this surgery releases so much stress in my life. I am not worried about work, or school or anything else. I am taking care of myself (aside from the impact of stress on my body) and trying to be gentle to myself not only because it helps my migraines but also because stressing about work/school/life does not help one bit. Nothing has changed but my attitude and life is so much easier when I flow instead of fighting every step of the way. I am sure those around me appreciate it as well.

Like my sisters I am running around getting all the things ready for surgery, yet I am so tired from the fibroids. My boyfriend stepped out of the house for a minute and I went off full steam, moved the couch vacuumed etc. He understands my situation yet it is sort of embarrassing when I am almost obsessive about cleaning and getting ready for this. Plus I wanted to do it myself, it is not so satisfying when he helps me for some reason…? I just joke about it as I run around the house with a q-tip cleaning the corners of running boards, etc. I am laughing at myself now …. I heard it is a nesting thing which is sort of reverse psychology …?

Anyway I feel so bad lately because I do not have the energy for my puppy like I used to. In the mornings I would take him out for a walk/run and then play with him a bit after work. I am trying to teach him to fetch so I can sit while he runs.. We need to work on it. I throw the ball he looks back at me like 'yeah you threw it go get it!' then is all over me when I go get the ball. I am not the plaything the BALL is!!!
These days I am lucky to get to work, I do not do normal duties anymore too physical, I sit around and do all the things no one else wants to do, cleanup and stuff like that which is fine with me I can listen to good music and make people laugh as they walk by and I am jamming to music they cannot hear.


I will read this after and remember how stressed I was, after I will be so happy to be free of this burden.

Day One for this journal
21 days until TAH/possible BSO
I am nervous and excited. Nervous about the obvious, excited to get over the constant preparation, doing and recovery of my period every month.
I am listening to Belleruth Naparstek’s Surgery affirmations and guided imagery every day at least once a day. It is hard to concentrate sometimes because of my tendency towards anxiety but if nothing else, the daily meditation sessions are good. :smile2:
I was stressing recovery and starting school in August but situations caused me to push my start date to the spring semester, which relieves so much stress. Now I can recover at my own pace, go back to work, maintain medical coverage, and quit in December or January to start school.
I am doing a pretty good job at eating healthy. I am drinking a protein shake in the morning with flax seed and bran in it. During the day I will make mostly good choices and leave a small percentage of my choices open for junk. Now in the evening I am drinking a fruit smoothie, a blender full of strawberries, blueberries and blackberries. Very good!
I am also taking cranberry tablets to ward off the possibility of a urinary tract infection, I read blueberries also help. I found some blueberry green tea at Trader Joe’s the green tea will also help as well for recovery (antioxidants).
I stopped taking feverfew on advice of my Feverfew thins the blood which is not good for surgery. Feverfew was saving my life for the last ½ year. I used to get terrible migraines until I started taking feverfew with a multi-vitamin. Now that I stopped I had the worst migraine ever. I could not stand up without throwing up, I never threw up from a migraine before. I think the migraine was angry at me for finding a working solution and keeping it away.