I went to lunch with Carole today. Didn't eat much but it was nice to get out. Then had to go with dh to sign some papers, he just bought a truck. I made the schedule out while he did that. Went and picked up the kids, he was driving, not me yet. Went by walmart for the kennel, the mall for school shoes for them, they start monday. Got them something to eat, did a few things in the kennel and drug my swollen tummy back to this apartment. Its now four am, I need to be sleeping, but it just doesn't come. I have dh in the kids room, both kids in my bed, all the dogs, fun fun. Dylan actually just went to sleep, he stayed up with me for awhile. Had two cups of hot tea tonight. Needed it. Well, tomorrow is another day. I am going to sleep until noon as long as the phone doesn't ring off the hook about this storm we are supposed to get. Everyone in Pinellas county is going to bring their dog in if it really comes close.
Well, I am going to get off the comp. Been on it toooooooo long...lollollol
Till tomorrow just breathe

Well, not much happened today. Pretty boring. I went up front in the kennel for a little while, talked to one of my coworkers for awhile. My husband went to get his haircut tonight, so I tagged along, got mine cut and then went and got some make up. I felt a little better afterwards. The pain in my ovaries is still bad and my back is awful. I feel like by the end of the week I won't be able to walk. It is so sore. The pain pills help but when they wear off..
Anyway, I am going out to lunch tomorrow, not driving. I guess I will be exhausted afterwards. Children will be coming over to spend the night. I have missed them so much. Well, I will write again tomorrow night. Everyone has been so supportive. I love this site. It is like a lifeline.

Well, it's been a full week and a day now, I feel worse now than I did last week. I have a pain in my ovaries that goes through to my back. It aches like there is no tomorrow. I haven't found anything to stop it. I got more Vicodin 7's today, still taking the demerol/phenerghan combo pill at night. The swelling is awful, I look about four months pregnant. Feel like I have the worlds worst period, neverending. It's all making me crabby. My husband seems to think I shouldn't overdo it, yet he doesn't lift a finger to help. His life is golf, nascar and now video games. I just don't fit in anywhere, neither does my kennel. I wound up cleaning the rooms, letting the dogs out, etc tonight. And he just keeps saying not to do anything. Am I supposed to just let the dogs suffer because he is too lazy to let them out anymore. I have always taken pride in my company and it's hard to see things not being done because I can't do it. Then I feel guilty because if I hadn't had this surgery, I would still be working as normal. I just wish he wasn't so selfish. He really only thinks of himself. Saturday and Sunday, he was gone all day, till five or six at night playing golf. I sat looking at four walls all day. Couldn't he have spent a little time with me?? Am I being really unreasonable?? Then he does have dinner with me, but afterwards plays a video game alone until he goes to bed. If I didn't have this website I would go stark raving mad. I have met some friends and love the support of the other women. It really helps to hear other stories and know others are going through the same things. Well, I guess I have vented enough for one evening. This journal is a great idea. I guess I am going to try to read some of the other girls. I have only been to the post op message boards.
I read something today that really touched me, it read " Life is not measured by how many breaths you take, but by how many moments take your breath away."And my thoughts are always Just Breathe................................

Not that I will ever have to have one again, but I guess it would be nice to see the recovery as it happens. I have been doing nothing, laying around, sheer boredom. I tried to go up to work two days ago, wound up doing too much and have paid for it dearly. I am guessing I will be down another week or maybe even two. Things at the kennel are awful, can't seem to get and keep any employees, and I am no help right now. Hope it starts getting better soon, someone has to take care of these dogs!! Running an ad in the paper tomorrow, should come up with something.
Bye for now.