Yea!!! I made it to my 6 week check. The Dr went over my surgical report. Said there were Fibroids, Cysts, Endometriosis and Adenomyosis. This was t he first time I had heard about having Adenomyosis. But now that I have researched it, I know the worst sypmtoms I was having the past year was that.
My doc says internally I am healing great and that he was still shocked that I went back to work so quick. That considering what a mess was in there he thought I would still be hurting. But I am a super woman! haha! I just heal really quickly! I always have. Which is good.

I am going to start HRT the beginning of October! He gave me 5 weeks worth of Divigel and a script for a year. So that is where we will start.

Cris is leaving for Ecuador in 2 weeks for 3 weeks. While he is gone I will be having my teeth fixed. That will be fun!

I hope everyone is doing well!!
Hugs Ya'll!

Ok, today was just a horrible horrible day. About 3 years ago I had veneers and major gum surgery because I worked for a "cosmetic" dentist and he wanted me to have a better smile.
Today 2 of those teeth broke. Thank God I work for different dentists. And Thank God I was able to go back to work early. The teeth are extremely painful and it is going to be a very expensive thing to fix... Ugh! I am so upset. This was a horrible ordeal when I did it the first time. I don;t know how I will be able to do it again.

So upset! I really can't emptionally deal with this now. It was my front 2 teeth!

The Cheesecake was great! My husband loved it!
I made it through a whole day at work! Yay! I am tired and hope I can sleep tonight. I didn't sleep well last night.
A few hotflashes today, but nothing major.
I wish it were dark already so I could at least try to sleep.

Today was ok, feeling pretty run down but still so much better than before surgery. I have watched so much Food Network lately that I was inspired to make a cheesecake so I went to Super Target today and bought a spring form pan and the ingredients and I baked my very first cheesecake ever! I can't wait to try it..I have about 1 more hour to wait! I bought some big strawberries to put on it. Yay Me!

So I am trying my hand at going to work normal time tomorrow... Oh God 6 am will come early! I will try to work all day but can come home at any point. So, we'll see!
Wish me luck!

Ok Ladies, I am out of here to catch some Drop Dead Diva & Army Wives and have some cheesecake!!!

So I got up early and went in for a half day. Over all didn't do to much there. Got filled in on the drama that unfolded when I wasn't there. Fun fun. I started off strong. Everyone said I looked better than I have in a year. They noticed the weight I have lost. By the end of the 4 hours I was a little sore and very tired. I was originally planning on going in tomorrow, but I will take it off.
Next week I will start back. The Drs have said if I am there and don't feel well taht I can go home. So I will listen to my body every day.

I came home and took a 3 hour nap. And I am still tired.

Oh I am so excited! I get to drive today!!! I have been looking forward to this day for over a week now! I had planned on driving up to the pool to lay by it and read a book and get my tan back... Well mother nature has other plans for today. Now, my lawn has maybe seen 2 inches of rain all summer...and now today it's going to Thunderstorm all day. This seriously stinks! I am going to try going back to work for a few hours tomorrow... more of a social call than work. I will go and do 10-2 with lunch from 1-2 That will be a good first day back. Then Friday, no one is at the office. So I can do another coouple hours. I need to take the dogs to the groomer Friday. That should be fun. Actually they love the groomer and so do I. Gonna go jump in the shower...because I am driving today... even if just around the neighborhood! haha

Ok, So I have been watching Food Network all Day!!!!
I am needing to cook. So tonight I will make my first meal since surgery. And what a meal it will be. My favorite Ribeyes that I will rub with Fresh Garlic and Fresh Rosemary done on the grill. Some Garlic Mashed potatos. A salad I have already made with Tomatos,Cucumber & Red Onion fresh from the garden. I made a sauce for them of Sour cream, vineager, Dill and a few packets of sweet n low. I poored that over the veggies this morning. They are chilling in the fridge. I can't wait for this meal!!!

Still feeling good...been lazy today...laying around just watching the Food Network.

Hope all my friends in Hysterland are doing well!

Another Fabulous Day. I went to lunch with a different friend. I am starting to get back into the swing of things. We went to an English Pub. I had Fried Pickles... Oh My..were they yummy...but again 30 minutes later diarrhea for 2 hours!
I guess I can't eat anything fried. Which is probably much better for me anyways. Feeling awesome today. I got a pretty decent night sleep. Still got up a couple times.
No nightsweats though so that was great!
Hotflashes are under control and been feeling pretty happy again. Effexor seems to be agreeing with me.

I am so looking forward to trying working for a few hours Thursday. I miss my crew so much.

Had another pretty good day. went to a friends house for dinner. Got to play a game of corn hole. I didn't over due it. Went grocery store to stock up on more fruits and veggies. Oh and icecream!
Still having issues sleeping and light spotting. Nothing major and no pain!

Hey guys! Well after spending 2 hours on the toilet last night I think I lost another 10 pounds..haha
I am feeling great today. No discomfort at all. I actually slept 6 straight hours!!! And when I woke up this morning I was flat on my belly! Another first since surgery...and probably the reason I slept better. I have always been a stomach sleeper. I have tried to break that habit so many times but have been unsucessful. I turn in my sleep.

My friend Jess is finally coming to see me today. Maybe to go see a movie. That would be nice.

So my Dh was nice enough to take me to Chili's. Normally I LOVE Chili's... I love those southwest eggrolls..
So we went. Fist I could only eat about 1/4 of my foos. I feel so full all the time. Must be the swelling and my swelly belly band.
Side Note- I may wear this band forever if it keeps me from eating alot! haha

I only live 15 minutes from Chili's. Well, I barely made it home before I exploded. I swear I cleared out as much as my bowel prep did! Holy God.

Before I went I noticed I started spotting a bit. I have not had any bleeding prior to this. Nothing heavy. Maybe my sutures are disolving. I have been taking it super easy. Which is not like me. I am normally superwoman. But I am keeping myself low key.

I have a feeling I will be clearing out one more time tonight...phew!

So it is 445am. I have been awake for about 2 hours. I went to bed at 11:00, work up at 12:15,then 1:30 then again at 3:50. This is my first nigh of this. Ugh!
I hope this is not a gllimpse of what is to come.
I want to start back to work the end of next week...but there is no way I am going to if I am not sleeping. I will call my Dr and ask for some Ambien

Tomorrow will be a super long, super lonely day. Cris has to work late .Boohoo!

I am gonna watch some DVR'd So You Think You Can Dance.

Another uneventful day. I seriously can not wait to get back to work. Today I did take a 2 hour nap, which was nice.

Pooping is still a change... I go, when my colon contracts my whole abdomen contracts with it. I swear I cleaned out my whole colon today..haha I know TMI!!!
I am developing some pressure when I have to pee, but not painful. I will watch this to make sure it's not a UTI.

On a happy note... I weight 10 pounds less today than I did this time last week! I don;t think they cut that much out...I have been eating better since the week before surgery so maybe that is doing it! Either way, I will take it!

The Effexor seems to be starting to kick in..no major hotflashes today, just some sweating during my nap.
My mood has been pretty good too.

My biggest thing is being lonely. My husband is gone from 7-6 for work and then he works out for 2+ hours every day. He is participating in a body building competition in September and can't afford to take alot of time out. He has been working for months on this, so I can not ask him to stop. I am really disappointed in one of my friends. I have always been there for. She hasn't stopped by. When I talk to her all she does is complain about her boyfriend. She doesn't even ask me how I am. I think I may phase her out of my life. When I think that I am getting all this unconditional support from women I have never met, it puts things into perspective!
My other friends have been great, but 2 of them travel with their jobs and the others are mommies of lil ones. So I have spent alot of time alone. My docs and staff have been great about calling and sending me messages of facebook.
I just can't wait to get back to real life.

Day 6 post op. Nothing new to report. Resting, drinking water and taking the occasioanl walk.

Later that day... Pain has been under control with Motrin. Except for when I laugh really hard. I am going stir crazy. But I am forcing myself to rest. I am a Type A person who multi task all day. This is driving me nuts!

The incision is starting to itch like crazy.

Well, my parents went home today. My day consisted of a bowl of raisin bran 2 Life Time Movies in the morning lunch of 1/2 a left over peice of chicken breast and coleslaw, a 3 hour nap and now another Life Time Movie...haha Woke up from my nap with some stellar gas. Pain is still under control wit Motrin. I am going nuts staring at the dishes in the sink that were left from today...biut the dishwasher is full of dirty dishes and I know if I empty it I will hurt myself...so it sits there and my OCD goes crazy.

I POOPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea!!!
What a great day! I had a decent sleep last night. Only woke up a few times to pee and sweat. I have not taken a pain killer since 2:00 am. And mid morninng I pooped. I am so excited about that. After having the bowel resection, I have been so worried that there would be issues from this.
Well, I am going to spend soome time with my folks. They leave tomorrow.

So, I wrote this 2 page rant about everything and the my internet connection dropped...figures! Anyways...the short of the story is I am having hot flashes and super sensitive so I have decided to start the Effexor...hopefully I can get back to my old self! I miss bieng the funny me!

They let me come home late yesterday afternoon. Overall doing ok. I slept in my guest bed last night. we rigged up a rope to the foot board so I can get myself out of bed. That works good. Still tired, but only taking 1 Darvocet every 5 hours. Trying to move that to every 6 hours. Ok, getting tired. So I will write more later.

Although my trip to the castle has been ok, I am seriously ready t go home! I haven't slept in 2 nights.Since I am passing gas, if I can tolerate eating the nurse says they would let me go home. I am going to beg and plead with my doc to let me go. Hopefully I can keep down what ever they bring me for breakfast.
I have been able to get and out of bedwithout help...it is a challenge, but I can do it. The meds still aren't doing much. They are only giving me 1 Darvocet every 4 hours...my script for home let me take 2 every 6 hours. The pain is not much worse than the pain I was having before. The gas pain is pretty intense, but I am passing it. Yay! I will update if anything changes.

Alright ladies...I made to the other side. My Dr could not even get through my muscles So he did have to do the TAH. He found that my ovaries were attached the bottom side of my uterus as well as uterus was fused to the bowel. He said it was not pretty. My hospital experience has over all been good...except for pain management. We haven't been able to find anything that will work on or that I am not allergic to. I still have not spept since the night of my bowel prep.
I wokr up in night sweats already. Ny doc is gonna see thow they go for a couple days and then he will put me on Effexor ybtil we can start with HRT.

Well, m eyes are having a hard time focusing...I will write more tomorrow!

Well, it is here! I think I slept a whole 45 minutes last night! I am still going... I hope I don't go on the table... haha That would be a mess for the nurses having to clean up my 200 lb bum! So, the more nervous my family and I get the funnier with get. The nurses usually have fun with us. My dad mostly... He looks like Santa Clause gone hunting...haha Seriously ya'll he does. He is like 6'2" and weights a good 300 lb and it is all in his Belly! And next to my mom's peteite 5'1" 120lb..He looks like a big burly guy with a whiel beard! So I call him Santa. Well, ready to go off to the castle to see prince Charming () to become a princess! I call him prince charming because he looks like one. It is always nice when the man who you are going to visit looks nice...Tall, Tan,Blonde and blue eyes mmmmmmMmmmm. It's funny I married a shorter Latin Man with Black hair and eyes. I adore Cris my DH. I am only suppose to bring one person, but my folks came down to take care of me. And with Cris' launguage barrier it would be hard for him to get the details. I am sending him to work and bringing my folks. Cris has been here from Ecuador for 8 years. His English is Great for conversation and every day life or his job... but say the word ovary and he is like "What's that" So it is easier to have my parents there who already know my history in full and know what questions to ask and know my wishes,
Again, I think of how grateful I am to all my new sisters! What a fabulous community of STELLAR women! I am glad to be a part of this! Thank you for welcoming me with no reservations and open arms! If only everyone were that accepting in real life!

LOVE YA'LL and I am sure over the next few weeks I will love ya even more!

So at 11:00am I took my pills for the prep. First small bm around 1:00pm I am now 3 8oz glasses of Halflytely. I am in full swing now. But the halflytely is not settling well with me. I am wanting to vomit. I am not one to drink alot of liquid in one sitting. MY goal will be to get half tohe bottle down. If I am pooing clear by then I am stopping. I really hate vomitting more than anything.

Update 350pm... peeing out the bumm... fun! haha I have only been able to get down 5 of the 8 glasses of crap I have to drink. I am gonna call that good. As long as I am pooing clear. I will keep pushing water to keep things going~

1025pm... I am like the energizer bunny and still going...and going...and going! Thank God that I started so early and that I only did the 5 glasses. I now understand the turn going clear! Everyone is asleep except for me and my pups...They are keeping me company. I know they can sense something is going on. They have been with me every step of the way. I love them. My parents are here. Which is nice. I am so so hungry!

My last surgery they say in recobvery I was talking about wanting KFC when I was coming to! Tomorrow I think I want steak instead... I am getting super silly...

I can't believe this day is here. What a rollercoaster ride...that I am so ready to get off.
I am sure I will be online from my throne. Ya'll would laugh if you could see my bathroom. I am just a bit OCD...so I have a card table for a book, my computer and cellphone right in front of the toilet.(With all the wires plugged in). I have 8 rolls of toilet paper with aloe and a box of baby wipes in a magazine rack neck to the toilet. Oh and a small throw pillow for my back! I figure if I am spending the day on my throne I might as well be entertained.
Well, I will be heading off for my massage. I swear that is what has made the difference in my attitude. Knowing I have this treat coming. When I get back I will be a relaxed blob and hopefully that will get me through the rest of the day.
So, I am off to see Nancy for that massage!

Last day of work before the fun begins! Work was crazy, so many things last minute... we had some new intra oral cameras hooked up in all our operatories on Friday. Then today they all froze up the computers. I somehow managed top get everything done and only had to stay 15 minutes late to do it! Now it is time to
Massage tomorrow followed by fun bowel prep! Oh yeah!
I am sure I will post more tomorrow from the toilet! haha Thank God for wireless internet! My thoughts and prayers are with all my sisters taking the journey to the castle tomorrow!

Ok, so my body is being really freaky the last two days.
I have not had once single twinge or pain. For the first time in like 4 months I have not taken a single Advil or Darvocet.
It's like it knows, I'm gonna to be removing it so it is behaving so I change my mind..but I won't. Going for a big fat juicy hamburger at our favorite hamburger joint...then it is salad for me tomorrow and clears the next day!

Taking a break from cleaning! Kitchen is done, living room vacumed and dusted. Spare bedroom all set up for my folks. Laundry going. Next onto my bedroom & bathrooms... fun times!
Gonna have some steaks on the grill tonight and then out with sooe friends.Nothing too exciting. The guys want to see a UFC fight and us girls get dragged along.
Trying to figure where I want to go have my last heavy meal tomorrow night. I figured I would eat lightly on Monday, that way the bowel prep on Tuesday won;t be so bad.

I have a bit of a yellow jacket situation in my garden. I think they are yellow jackets. They are about an inch long and shiney yellow and black. They fly around crazy, bumping into things and fighting each other. I have about 10 that have been circling around my garden... I can't figure out where their nest is. I hate Bee's and Wasp of any kind. A couple years ago I stepped into a nest of somekind and got stung 24 times... it really sucked. So now I completely flip everytime I see a bee or wasp.My husband laughs at me.

I am starting to loose my motivation to clean, but I have to finish... maybe I will save the rest for tomorrow. I have no plans, so that might be a good idea.

Hope everyone is having a splendid day!!

Well the Anesthesia Appointment went well. I am so impressed with the hospital. The nurses in pre-surgical services were awesome. They had lots of information and really raved about my doctor. The one had a TAH-BSO about 3 years ago and her Dr was having difficulty so they called my Dr into help him out. That was cool. She also said that the staff in the OR love him. I know from working in the medical field if a staff loves their doctor they perform better which is always better for the patient. I gained alot of comfort from todays visit. The hospital is so thorough with my medical history and instructions. They even gave me Hibiclens to shower with the 2 days before my surgery with instructions. They told me this would cut down on any secondary infections...So now I will be clean inside and out!
Also they are going to put some patch behind my ear to help with nausea and vomitting post surgery. I have never heard of that.

Grocery shopping done! Bowel Prep picked up...as well as a years supply of toilet paper with aloe and Huggies wipes..Pina Colada flavored Jello and flavored water all ready to go! I will be a domestic goddess all weekend! I would like to catch a movie this weekend too.

Six days to go and I am having a peace about the surgery (for now..hehe). Actually once I got my appointment for my massage set up for Tuesday I startedto feel better... I will pretend the Halflytely is fancy spa treatment...haha A Colon Cleanse! Hell at $50 for the perscription, it might as well be a spa treatment! I go to the castle tomorrow to see the anesthesiologist for a 2 hour appointment. The hospital I am going to is super conservative and takes alot of precautions, I have not had done before. I guess that is good. In the past, I didn't meet the anesthesiologist until, I was in the castle half naked and he was giving me the magic potion to make me happy. I get to do bloodwork tomorrow and just talk to him/her. I am going to ask if I can get a PCA pump for post op. After that I have to go into work for a little while. My office ordered several intra oral cameras, they need to get installed. So, I get to go in and watch the tech install them..fun fun. Just one more day of work after that! Now I am off to read some more post, cuddle with my pups and watch So You Think You Can Dance.

1 week from today it will all be over with and I will be recovering! Yea!!
I had a good day, but very long! I just got home from work.
-Staff Meeting at 7am, phone call with a consultant at lunch and 3 hour meeting with my docs this evening talking them through everything they need to do while I am gone.

The odctors have decided to give me the whole day off the day before surgery paid so I can relax and do my bowel prep. I scheduled a message with my friend Nancy so I can destress and then come home and start my prep at 12:00.

My parents will arrive around 4:00 from NY then off to the hospital for 5:30am

Nerves have been in check to day. Being so busy at work helps! I am sure i will be super busy at work tomorrow also. then Friday I have my anesthesia appt and bloodwork.

I will be cleaning and getting meals prepared this weekend!

Not a good time today at my pre-op. First order of good news... I get to do bowel prep! Woohoo...not really. I get to do the Halflytely & Bisacodyl tablets the day before.
The Dr said he would try to do laproscopic, but I needed to anticipate that this very well could turn into abdominally.
He is also going to try to save my right ovary if possible. He really worries about taking both. So, we will see. So, one appointment down and testing to go...

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Major Anxiety right now... everything is bothering me!

I am going to take a bath and try to relax!

So this is the beginning of the craziness..
While the rest of my staff is enjoying the day off for the 4th, I am at the office trying to get everything ready for my leave. I am trying to think of anything that could potentially need to be done and have it ready.

This is the first day I woke up with that awful nervous gut feeling. I hate that feeling.

Tomorrow afternoon I have my pre-op appt. I will find out about the bowel prep. I swear I am more worried about that, than the surgery itself. Haha

Just some general anxiety going on, but doin ok... had a rough evening...even taking 2 Darvocet the pain was so bad, I couldn't concentrate. I pray that I am one of those women who can say the pain before the surgery was so much worse than after.

Well, I better get some work done.

In trying to stay positive about this upcoming surgery, I searched the site to find what would be the top 10 best things for me about having surgery. This is what I came up with:

Top Ten Best things about having hysterectomy!
10. No more bowel problems
9. Getting to wear white pants again
8. Not worrying about laughing so hard you pee
7. Never having to purchase another box of super soaker tampons again
6. The waiting is over
5. Family coming to take care of me
4.No more pain
3.Meeting some great ladies on HysterSisters!
2.No Work for a few weeks
1. No house work!!!! ( I am gonna stretch this out as long as I can..hehe)

I am so looking forward to all of these!

No major plans today..thought baout the pool thing again, but I am way too burnt to see sunlight for a while.
Not much else going on. Hope everyone had a safe holiday.

Ok, Cramps under control, waiting for my friend Shelli to get her to hang out at the pool.
Then off to Target to buy some PJ's and look for a bed tray.
This evening I am having a small get together. I am doing Ribeyes that have been rubbed with olive oil, fresh garlic & Fresh chopped rosemary. I will make shrimp kaboobs of shrimp that have beem marinated in fresh lime juice and fresh chopped basil. Loaded Baked Potatos and fresh corn on the cob! This will be so yummy!! I can't wait. I love being a good cook, but it does make it hard on keeping weight down.
I am praying I can keep the cramps down today with pain killers...I so want to enjoy today. After this weekend it is all serious for a while so I really am planning on a nice weekend.


****Later that night. Overall a great day. I got way too much sun today. Has a bit of cramps at the pool so I took some more Darvocet and laid out... Even with 50 SPF my lovely Irish skin is the color of rare steak! Speaking off steak...the Ribeyes & Shrimp turned out perfect! We finished the night by taking the motorcycle down and watching fireowrks over the lake. That was a great ened to a pretty good day! I guess the stinging of my legs will take my mind off cramps! hehe

So, it's Friday and I am at work for 4 hours to tie up loose ends from the week. I am the only one here so I blare my music and just work at a slower pace. It's nice. I got to sleep in this am...Yay! The pups let me sleep until 7:30! That was so nice...but then little Darling( my white schnauzer) crawls up my back and starts to sit on my head and lick my lose...kinds sweet yet very annoying when you are trying to sleep...but I could not think of a better way to be woken up! I wonder if my DH could sneak her into the hospital? hehe. Cris got a call from his boss first saying they have enough work for next week, and then called him back and said he wanted t o take him to lunch at 12 and talk. I am not sure if that is good or bad... the bad could be that he's permanently fired...which I doubt. The other alternantive could be that they fired the Warehouse Manager and promoted him from Supervisor up... I am praying for the second. OR they may just want to take him to let him know it will be ok for him. I know they love him there. He is such a hard worker and never says no.

No cramps so far today, so when I get out Cris and I are gonna take the motorcycle out for a nice ride and if I am still feeling up to it going hiking around a big lake here. We may go to the movies tonight to see either The Proposal or Hangover. We love the movies and go at least 2 times a month if not more. It still amazes me that Cris learned to speak English by watching movies. He movied here 9 years ago from Ecuador. Since he learned English from movies you can o,magine the romantic lines I heard at the beginning... he would say something and I would think...Oh he is so sweet and then a few weeks later I could be watching a movie and hear the same line...Hilarious!
He is being so good with me. I had another mini meltdown last night... the never having children thing is really weighing heavy on my heart. After I calmed down we talked about it and Cris agreed that after I am all back to being myself and his job situation stabilizes we could look into adopting. I really feel in my heart that adopting an older child is what we should do. There are so many children who have been abandoned right here in NC. I know there would be issues, but I know that I could love an older child as much as a baby. Especially if their parents have passed. I can understand that. My biological mother committed suicide when I was 5 and my poor father (who was a prison guard) had no concept of how to raise 2 small children so my little brother & I went to live with various family members for a year at a time. When I was 12 and my father finally remarried, We went to live with him and the woman I now refer to as mom. She really is a fabulous mom too. Her 4 children were already grown and out of the house. She created such a wonderful supportive environment for us. She has been there through all of my various surgeries. ANd for all intent purposes she is my mom. I would love to do that for someone else. And know I could. Well, since I am at work I should probably work!
I hope the rest of the day goes as good as the morning!


So I was able to keep the cramps at a comfortable level all day. We were able to take the motorcycle over to the movies, where we saw The Hangover: That was one of the Crudest,Ludest,Funniest movies I have ever seen! I laughed so hard at the end of teh movie that I pee'd myself..good thing I was prepared and wore a pad! I heard it was hilarious, so I prepared for it! And thank God for that! The little aliens are really pushing down on my bladder lately.

I am so grateful for a fabulous day! Tomorrow my best friend Shelli is coming to hang at the pool then have some Ribeyes on the grill, Shrimp kabobs that have been marinated in Lime Juice & fresh Basil, Baked potatoes and Corn on the cob! Yummy! Then Fireworks! So excited for a fun weekend! Really trying to enjoy this one. Next weekend I will be a Domestic Goddess all weekend and scubbing everything!

So, today was the first day I had a breakdown... The pain has gotten so bad to were I am taking pain meds every day.
This morning my Doctor(my employer) made a stupid comment and I just started balling. Between the pain and the stress, I am really having a hard time. This is so unlike me. I am the strong and composed one. God, I can only imagine how I will be when the lack of hormones kicks in.

Half my staff was went home sick... 3 diagnosed with Sinus Infections. Noone has been allowed to step in my office at all. I have become completely paranoid of getting sick! I seriously could not handle it if my surgery got postponed.
Enough Whining for toonight!
Waiting for the Darvocet to kick in.
Wishing I wasn't so cranky.

Not the best of days. The shower went ok. That wasn't the issue. Normal Day of Cramps and Darvocet. The bad part was coming home to my DH telling me his company is inforcing temporary layoffs. He doesn't go back until Tuesday, but then they will see what work they will have and it will continue like that until business picks up.
Seriously??

My husband has been talking for a couple months about joining the National Guard. He is really thinking of doing that now.

I am not gonna ramble on... gonna go read some journals and try to cheer up!

Better day today! Finally got through to Pre-Surgical Services Yay!!!
So I have my appt with my Dr next Tuesday and then My Anesthesia Appt Friday of next week.
I am a bit anxious about Tuesdays appoinment. I find out if I have to the bowel prep...
I have to see what he says about post-op pain medication as well as maybe some Lexapro or Sleeping pills for after, since I can't take HRT for 6 months.

So, tomorrow at work we are throwing a baby shower for one of my girls. It is bitter sweet. I am so happy for my friend. She went through IVF and has been through so much. But I am sad for me. She is so good about everything with me. The timing just sucks. She is due a week or two after my surgery. Guess we will see how that goes. I bought a real cute cake for the party... actually it is cupcake cake... it;s neat. The cupcakes are put together and then the froasting is applied to all of them together so the top looks like a solid cake. Real Neat!

I am almost done with the "Jen's Brain" Binder at work. That has everything that needs to be done, by the day for every day that I plan on being done. I literally have already figured out what payroll should be and everything, all they have to do is pull out the day and do what it says. If they follow this, I should not have huge piles when I get back.

Well, I am gonna go check out what else is going on in Hysterland! Hope ya'll are doing well!

So, I am really really trying to be my positive happy self through this, but today was trying. I spent the whole day trying to get through to the hospital's pre-surgical department to schedule my pre-op visit. I never was able top reach anyone. My doctor tolod me this pre-surgical appt should be next week. I also have to see him next Tuesday to do my final pap-smear. I surprised that he wanted to do that, but he said he wanted to make sure that there are no pre-cancerous cells. I am like what ever. Just wish I could get this scheduled. I hate to keep taking time out of work.

On a different note, I am really getting aggrevated withsome of my staff.. they can be so inconsiderate.
I spent alot of time outside this past weekend and got a great tan! (Yay) Well one of the girls says Oh you glow like you are pregnant... I said "Seriously? Did you Seriously Just say that?" She didn't see what was wrong with that comment. Of course she doesn't get it. She went off the pill and was pregnant a month later.
I am normally a very strong person and people know that I do not takeoffense easily. But really, how could anybody who knows what is going on with me say anything about being pregnant.

I guess it is all really starting to hit home. I know it will be ok. But, people are seriously gonna need to learn some sensitivity or I will probably kill them after the surgery.

On a positive note. I am so lucky to be meeting some great people on here. I am still learning to navigate the site. But it is coming.

I guess tomorrow I will be back on the phone trying to get my pre-op scheduled!

:woot:Good day, just finished up my last period... EVER! :woot:
Went to the pool again today to swim and work on my tan... I want to be super tan for my surgery...my theory is "Tan Cellulite is Pretty Cellulite!" Haha
I am wondering how long I will have to wait before I can get back to swimming after the surgery.

I am really happy to start meeting people on this site. I am sure it will be a great things.

Next weekend I will start the deep cleaning and I have to go buy some night shirts and maxi dresses to wear during the day.

Who would have thought that I could last 10 years. 10 years ago I started the constant hemorrhage for 6 months straight. I saw 3 different ob/gyns and they all had different theories of why I was bleeding. One thought it was my thyroid and two thought it was because I was overweight. Now yes, I am overweight, I am 5'10 and 210 pounds. So, I gave up and thought it was how my life was suppose to be.
Finally due to my insurance changing I had to find a new ob group. During that exam the doctor looked at me and said how long have you had this fibroid, it's the size of a grapefruit. He scheduled for that week and removed it.
During the surgery he also found endo all over my intestines so I was cut from my belly button down leaving me a scar that made my belly look like a butt! (ha ha) . After that was all removed and I did my first course of Lupron. During the Lupron, I developed cysts on both ovaries and had surgery number 2. Where he removed the cyst and repaired the ovaries with some "mesh" material.
About 5 years went by and my now ex husband and I decided to try seeing an infertility doctor who did a laproscopic procedure to clean up as much of the fibroids as possible and then I did another round of Lupron. Tried IVF, that don't work... another surgery for fibroid removal...then I got divorced. Then everything seemed ok. No pain, no issues. Ultrasounds were looking clear so I decided it was time to get myself looking better and I did a tummy tuck and breast reduction. Which was definitely the best thing I ever did. That was a little over 3 years ago. 2 months later I met my now husband Cris. Cris is wonderful. He is from Ecuador and is a complete gentlemen. We were married in November of 2007. Last summer(2008) My cramping started back up and my periods started getting much heavier and longer, so my Dr ordered another Ultrasound. This time I didn't have a large fibroid, I had hundreds of little ones. I started calling them my little aliens. So course 3 of Lupron! Woohoo. Yeah right!
The cramps have become so frequent and intense like someone is stabbing me that the Dr has put me on pain meds. This has been going on for 8 months. I get 20 pills that I ration to last 2 months. The rest of the time I live 24/7 on Advil 4 at a time every 4 hours. Lord knows if I died and they autopsied me it would say Advil across my Liver!
The last month I went through 20 pills in 3 weeks. That is when my Dr said it was time. He still hates doing it since I am so young. What was he said... oh yeah..." He hates to snorfledoodle a woman who is in her early 30's" I was like nice ...who the hell uses the word snorfledoodle... you snorfledoodle a bull or a child molester you don;t snorfledoodle a woman!.
Ugh!!!
So here I am 18 days out from surgery. I was doing really good about it until I went to a class at the hospital about hysterectomies. I thought knowledge would help me get prepared. Well, first it depressed me because everyone else in the class was 50 +. Then they were all keeping their ovaries. Then the nurse teaching just freaked me out. She contradicted everything my Dr has said. My pre-op visit is not until July 7th, I don't have my anesthesia appointment yet. I wish I did. So I can get everything together.
The only good thing about the class is I got to see where our rooms are. This hospital has a special ward for woman having hysters. They are all private rooms with TVs,DVD players and wireless Internet and family can stay there, They all have another extra bed or pull out couch! I thought that was cool.


I have almost everything at work prepared and my parents are going to come down from NY to help me for the first week.

I just found this site yesterday and I am rather excited about it! To be able to be supported and help support others going through this. It is such a great thing...It has become my new Facebook!ha ha

I can't for this all to be over so I can review this journal and see my progress!