Oh boy, I have to get through tomorrow and then it's my BIG DAY. I'll be done with work at 11am tomorrow the I go to the State Fair. when I get home I start my bowl prep. I'm assuming that will keep me hopping for the rest of the evening. Up at 4am and then on the way to the castle.

Today is the last day for me to go shopping for anything I might need. Maybe I need new sweatpants to wear to the castle.

I had my pre-op appointment today. It's a TAH for sure. I am going to the MInnesota State Fair on Tuesday, my surgery is on Wednesday . .. I have to stop eating at noon on Tuesday and do a bowl prep starting at 3pm. What a bummer. I wont be able to eat much of the wonderful State Fair food. I wouldn't go at all this year but I'm a volunteer. I'll have to go early and pig out before noon ). Now that I'm in the last few days of the ocunt down I'm "nesting' at home. I'm cleaning everything, buying lots of food. I painted the bathroom. Keeping busy. I hope my DH will step up and take good care of me when I get home from the Castle. I guess if he doesn't step up I'll ahve my Mother come and stay LOL. I did write a letter to my DH today. I explained who to call and what our bank account numbers are in case something goes very wrong. It did make me cry. I hope he never has to open the envelope. I have instructed a friend to log into this site and tell you all what happened to me . . if something does go wrong. You ladies have been so great to me. Helped me so very much.

Well my last period of my lifetime is almost over. I gave it some thought and realized that I've been dealing with it every month for the last 35 years. That's along time to pretend you feel ok. Pretend that you just don't feel like it. Take Advil. Be bloated, be crabby, eat like a horse LOL. I wont miss it at all. I'm starting to feel like this will be the start of the second half of my like. A life without the hassle factor. This being the last time I have been eating chocolate without guilt ). I'm happy and I can't wait for August 27th !!!

I must tell you that I had no idea what Sisters could write to me from my journal entries. It's nice to know that friends are out there reading my journal. It's very comforting to know that I have friends. You all are such a blessing. I have a DH but he has no idea what I'm thinking about. I have tried to tell him but he can't listen. His way of helping me in times like this is to book a cruise for us. Bless his heart he did it again this time. I love the cruises, don't get me wrong but what I would give to have him sit next to me, put his arm around me and have him ask me how I am feeling and if there is anything he can do to help. He just doesn't know how. When he is sick he wants to be left alone. I want him to fuss over me. Maybe he'll step up when I get home from the castle. I'm having TAH on August 27th. He thinks we can go on a 4 hour car ride on Saturday of Labor day weekend. I don't even know if I'll be home yet. I've tried to tell him that I wont feel up to the trip. He says "you'll be fine". He's going to have to go alone I'm afraid.

I told a coworker about this site today. She just got back from a medical leave, she had a hyster about a month ago. She had no idea you wonderful ladies were out there to help her.

I've been reading alot on this site today. For many ladies their Hyster was or will be their only surgery. August 27 will be my 16th surgery. 16 Wow, sounds like I'm a sickly person but I'm not. I'm not scared or worried. I've been through this so many times, I'm ready and know what I'm in for.

I wasn't ever able to have children. I did try for years and years. I wonder what I was put on this earth for. It wasn't to be a Mother. I'm not doing anything great with my life. Will anyone ever bother to buy a stone for my grave?

I'm not sure why I'm so sad today.

I hope the next 22 days go by fast. I'm feeling more and more uncomfy - either the tumors are growing or it's just in my head. I bought myself new PJs, the swelly belly band and I got our Chillow out and ready to go. Now, what do I want to eat while recovering. People are saying to stay away from anyting made from white flour. Thanks going to be hard. I took the quiz today - got 95% right. I wonder which one I got wrong. What a great way to get the Sisters to research and learn more of what is here to help us. Thanks Hyster Sister gang !!

I found out a couple of weeks ago that I needed a Hyster. I have 12 golf ball size tumors rolling around inside. Yesterday I got a plastic bag and put 12 real golf balls inside. That's alot of extra stuff to be dealing with. No wonder I have to go to the bathroom all the time, my back hurts, my legs hurt. I'm in pain when I stand up from sitting a long time. I knew somthing was wrong back in Octobor of 2008. I waited to see if it would get better on it's own. Why I waited I don' t know. I guess I didn't think it was a big deal. I am looking forward to my operation. I know I'll feel so much better in a month or so after. I ordered the Swelly Belly Band, it's all ready to go. I plan on buying some new PJs and slippers. I'm very glad this web site is available to me. All the girls have been so nice and helpful, not to mention funny. So far I'm not worried at all that the tumors might be Cancer. I only bring it up now because there is a slim chance .. .I'm hoping for the best.