Have done so well waiting but now am scared

I've stayed busy cleaning and cooking and cleaning some more. Now, nothing left to do but wait til Friday to go to the castle. Now, the worries have kicked in. I'm so ready to have this done and behind me, I know I'm doing the right thing. Tonight though, I suddenly started with the fear of not waking up, or something being cut that shouldn't be....just nerves in general getting the best of me. Add to it, I just want to cry my eyes out and can't even put into words why I feel that way. I suppose it is just the general stress of everything, all the months of heavy bleeding and pain, the lack of sleep lately due to pain, and the surgery in general. I should really be a sufficient basket case by Friday.

hello i too was in ur shoes as i am just 5 days post op and i can tell you the waiting is the hardest part just relax and take it easy till friday before you know it you will be on the other side and we will all be here to welcome you with open arms and remember to pamper the

Shanika -

I'm so sorry for your stress, but it sounds normal to me. I almost think it would be weird NOT to be anxious - we fear what we don't know. You've had your uterus your whole life, and soon you won't. That's a big deal. But your doctors know it's a big deal and they're very highly trained professionals.

Remember, stress gets worse when you're not sleeping due to pain. I keep finding myself tossing and turning from pain and discomfort lately - then rather than falling to sleep I think of the surgery and BAM I'm wide awake with my brain worrying about one thing or another.

What I keep telling myself is that come surgery day I will have more pain, but it will be healing pain. That pain will eventually produce something good - - we will get so much of our lives back.

Good luck and many blessings to you. Will send prayers out for your and your surgeon on Friday.

HMM

I know exactly how you feel. My date is the 6th also and although I'm glad it's about to happen, I've scared myself into a nervous wreck. I said I'd either have an asthma attack or heart attack before I'm even wheeled into the OR. It's like someone else said we're scared of the unknown and not only that our imagination can take us over the top. At first I was afraid of not waking up, then something would go wrong and now I'm terrified thinking of the pain afterward. Tonight I started on the cleanse and thusfar all that's happen is I have a headache and feel sick to the stomach, if that's not enough I've started to bleed again, 3 day reprieve! So now I'm telling self that at least that will all be over Friday! We'll get through this and Friday evening we'll be wondering why we were so worried! Pray for me as I will pray for you. See you on the other side!

You most definitely are not alone I am scheduled for surgery monday morning on the 9th. I have not slept in 3 days I have gone on a cleaning blitz I've even done up my will. I have this nagging fear that something is going to go wrong. My husband just keeps telling me everything will be fine. Thank god for this website it is the only thing keeping me sane at the moment. Good luck to you.

Sending you much love and good wishes tonight here from Australia-Downunder. Your post could have described me on 14th June the day before I had my operation-I was also scared, fearful and afraid as I had never had surgery before. Hang in there it will be all fine, will be thinking of you tomorrow, sending lots of healing energy
Love Catte

just think of the freedom from pain once its all done. lots of luck and healing hugs to all you sisters waiting to be free. xxx

Sending hugs and thanks out to so many that have replied here. I did actually get a decent sleep last night, that has helped some. I'm going to just lay low today and relax as much as possible. Yes, I would definitely be more upset if I couldn't have the surgery so will just have to go with the unknown and try to embrace it as much as possible. Sending out warm wishes to everyone getting ready to head to the castle, and those still recovering. This site has been a life saver.

Morning shanika, we're less than 24 hours away!! I'm nervous and scared as all get out too and am driving myself nuts!! I'm working today trying to get all these last minute loose ends tied up and I just can't seem to stay focused on anything other than tomorrow!! All is going to be well though and we will see each other soon on the other side!!

dmhill33, I just got the call for 8:30 am in the morning. I'm actually starting to look forward to it more as my stomach growls, can't eat, clear liquid diet, and already thinking about meals tomorrow. LOLOL My husband is home from work today and just being super quiet, which is beyond unusual for him! Yes, we will definitely be seeing each other on the other side very soon. Will go into surgery thinking of you also