Do my parts know they are on the way out?

I got my period five days early (which means this might not be my last period, afterall). Now the real Q: do I hope this period is horrific and painful and makes me want to die? If it isn't, I'm afraid I might wuss out of a hyst :confuse:

Grrr.... an update...

I am bleeding like there is no tomorrow (hey, with this rate, there might not be :P)... but the pain is hardly noticable. So I think packing up all my foster kittens and heading down to my dads (who is allergic to the kittens) has been in vain as I haven't taken a percocet in almost 12 hours and am just fine.

GRRRRRRRR!!!!

And as soon as I cancel the surgery (if I do), the pain will return. But I don't want to go through with it if Im not in pain, as I am really hesitant already and really do not want a hyst.

:being a grumpy, grumpy gus:

You can't wuss out, or I will want to wuss out and I can't.

I have to have this done, I have to... stay with me, please?

lol

I do find out in the next few days if I truly have adenomyosis or not... they just did an MRI yesterday.

On a positive note, my back is absolutely killing me!! :P

How are you doing today?

Well, some better actually.

My period has decided to behave itself.

I still can't believe this is my "last period", it's hard to wrap my head around that.

I have already taken a Xanax and it's only 9:18am here... so yeah, I am stressed.

I am getting ready to call the Insurance Company because I am fretting that they will leave me with the bill...

I am a constant worrier... before this is over I will have everyone exhausted from my anxiety level.

I paid for membership this morning... that was a positive step.

I want all the woman that can't afford to donate to have a safe place to come and talk.

(((HUGS)))