Emotions running amuck

Hello sisters!
These last few days I have been on quite the emotional rollercoaster.
Mostly though I am unable to release this feeling of "emptiness"
Where my uterus used to be. I feel so empty there anatomically. I am having trouble with walking and I am 5 wks post op. My husband stated today that I am as slow as when I came home from the hospital. Ok...I have spent these last 5 weeks recovering, only to be back to square one? Have I not progressed at all?!?!?
Instead of him being supportive...he says things like this. Men are the most ignorant and clueless creatures.
It makes me angry and sad and I want to just stand in the middle of the room and scream that I give up.
I am trying to cope with the loss of organs and be positive in healing. Yet at the same time I am so angry my uterus is gone. How can I heal in all aspects if I am at war with myself and everyone who says "the wrong thing" ??
Thank you for reading and listening.

I do understand that my hormones are making me hypersensitive right now. And most likely, I am overreacting.
I am also tired of everyone telling me that I should not be feeling sore or in pain anymore! I am still sore and I hate it.

I understand completely.... My thing was that I am tired of everyone telling me what i cant do instead of what i can do. I was told that everything i was experiencing was normal. The loss of my womanhood.

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Originally Posted by Tidkwia I do understand that my hormones are making me hypersensitive right now. And most likely, I am overreacting. I am also tired of everyone telling me that I should not be feeling sore or in pain anymore! I am still sore and I hate it.

I am with you on that!!! I still have pain. This process has started causing problems with my BF. He is tired of pulling all the weight so to speak(2 kids 2.5 and 15 and own business to run and house to keep up) and probably no intamacy and Im mad beacuse he is so uncompassionate and should just shut up, man up and do the work and support me mentally cause I am already down on myself for not being where I think I should be physically or mentally. Can a sister get a break and a little love here. Hes stressed...Im a prisoner in my own body. And everyone I know looks at me like a have something severly wrong with me because I still have some kinks to work out (what I like to call it Sorry if this seems harsh but I cant catch a break here. WOW that felt really good to say. Hope I didnt offend anyone but thanks so much that felt wonderful to get out.

You said it best sister. I do feel like a prisoner in my own body.
It was not harsh in the least. I am not enjoying these feelings of anger. I wish I never did this surgery. I know millions of women have/had no choice, but I am over this. My motto has always been...Quality of life, over quanity.
I feel no quality in mine right now. I know this was harsh, but these are my feelings.
I hate the pelvic floor feelings...all of them.

Tidkwia

I remember crazy emotions for at least 8 weeks after surgery.

As for the anger, loss and grief feelings many women experience these. Part of it can be hormonal sometimes the ovaries go into shock and that causes the emotional storm.

Other times it is the trauma of the surgery and the loss of organs that are so key to some women's sense of femaleness.

I would highly recommend talking to your Dr about all of this. It might be that some temporary hormones might help. Talk to them about the level of pain you are feeling. i had pelvic floor muscles that wouldn't relax and that was not a good sensation at all

Additionally you might want to find a counsellor who can help you deal with the feelings of loss. My counsellor was my best friend in helping me deal with all the emotions.

and hope you get some help for your issues.

Tauruslady, what did you or your doctor do to release the pelvic floor muscles? I am thinking this best describes the sensations I am feeling. If only that would go away, I would feel almost normal again.

I was sent to pelvic floor physical therapy. It is done by specially trained therapists. My therapists did some standard pt along with biofeedback. They also did trigger point release via massage.

One thing your Dr can do to look for overactive muscles via what they call the q-tip test. If the dr touches the vaginal opening with a q-tip they can see the muscles react.

Definitely something to ask about.