Words of encouragement? I dont have any!

I had my TAH with vertical incision on August 1, 2012... im 4the days post-op an all I have to say is REALLY?? I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy! I cant imagine anyone going through this. An this might sound crazy but I apologize to EVERY woman in the world who has went through this... I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. I am hurting so bad.. an the pain pump was a joke! I just stopped using the darn thing cause no matter what my pain was always a 10!! Walking, sitting, moving all hurts! I would rather keep my fibroids an bleed to death before I go through abdominal surgery again. All I can say is wow! They can send a man to the moon but cant figure out how to remove a uterus without butchering someone. Wow.