Sad, in pain, and depressed

Ok, so here it is....I feel like I have something inside my vagina, and I have pain inside my vagina. The spot on my right side I wrote about earlier is not easing up at all. It is killing me...and to make matters worse....Im so sad about not being able to have more kids. I had my tubes tied knowing that could be reversed, but I guess I wasn't quite as ready for the TAH as I though I was. I'm watching a movie where the couple found out they were pregnant and it all of a sudden hit me....I can't have another baby! I have 2 little girls and they are my world, but I have always wanted a little boy, and now my chances are gone. I don't know what to do. I would love to adopt but I hear that is incrediably expensive, and even though my DH has a good job, we can't afford alot of money on adoption. I'm sorry, I know I sound like a little whiny baby, but I can't help it. I hurt and I'm depressed, and I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry that you are going through such a rough time right now. Don't worry about sounding whiny...when you've had major surgery, lost your childbearing abilities and are in pain, you are more than allowed!

I too at 2 weeks felt pain inside my vagina. It left sometime in the last week or so, so hang in there or call your doc if you are still concerned. I still have pain on my right side, but less so now than earlier. It seems to flare up at the end of a "good day" when I've been sitting up and walking more than usual.

Just a thought, but before you write-off adoption as being too expensive, you might want to check into it some more. I know that the first nearly $11,000 can be deducted from your income on your taxes. It may not be much, but maybe enough to help.

Brandy--
Sorry to hear you are having a hard time. I also have a pain on my rt side---I posted a thread a few days ago. The Dr. suggested I try to wrap it it may have to do with the ab muscles & it seems to be helping. I did go to see him. I am also having bleeding issues. I go back again on Thurs. It is normal to be depressed--you had major surgery; a shock to your system & hormones that are going crazy. Give yourself a chance to heal!
hugs
Ali

I'm right there with ya. I've got my wonderful kiddos but yet..... Also a heads up, Steven Curtis Chapman - the singer- has a foundation to help with cost. I'm thinking it's the Stevie Joy foundation, but I'm also having a bad case of brain fog. Try SCC.com, my dh thinks that's it.
Good luck, and hug your babies!!
amy lou
TAH, delux edition, append, bladder repair 9/11/06

I am also having pressure/pain in my vagina and also pain on my right side. Seems to be worse the more I do. Glad to know that there are others out there experiencing the same pains. So, I guess it is normal.

I also understand about the depression. It has hit me that I will not be able to have another child. My dauther is 12 and I am only 32. Thought I would be remarried by now with another kid on the way. Slight change in plans.

I am just ready for this pain on my right side to go away and for things to get back to normal. Hurting is very emotionally draining.

Hang in there and remember you are not alone.

(((HUGS))))

I can do relate completely. My DH and I went threw w/an adoption that turned bad. Long story I will not get into here. Then we had 2 bio children. DH had a vasectomy. But again there was always that thought in the back of my (our) mind that 'we could always reverse it'.

The reality of this hold thing has hit me much harder than I ever expected. When I've talked to people (psychiatrist) re: today I felt as if I was barking up the wrong tree. She didn't quite get it. I think she did. She knows me VERY VERY well. She has btdt as I have.

It is a ton to deal with. More than I ever thought it would be.

As for the pain in your vagina. Don't really know what to tell you. I've had similiar pains. More so a severe scratching = as if someone was scratching me with a scouring pad. When I talked to my surgeons office on friday I was told that it was "sign of healing". Whatever that may be. --- anything that feels that and is healing is scray to me.

Regardless...you are not in this boat alone. Hang in there.

(HUGS))

Went to doc today, incision opened up a little, and with everything else I finally decided to call. He said pain in right side might be where he stitched my nerves into my tissue and to give it another week to see if the stitches dissolving help, if not....then he may have to go back in and see what's going on. He said he doesn't want to have to go back for surgery, but he will if it's a much. The vagina pain is where he sewed up my vaginal cuff, he said it would get better. He also gave me some sleeping pills as I have not slept hardly at all since surgery.....so here's hoping. Thanks to everyone for their help and support, and thanks for the adoption information.

Ohh man I am so right there with ya Brandi. I may have 5 beautiful girls, but only 1 I share with my now DH..he is so awesome, and so understanding, and only wants me to be better, but I cant help feel I took something away from him. We wanted one more baby together a boy, and I cant give it to him. *sighs* I really wish you would give adoption more of a thought, never give up sweets. As far as the right side pain, wow, we all seem to have it..what is it? There has to be more of an answer as to what causes it? And the vaginal pain more and likely what someone else said the vaginal cuff...I have been expiriencing it more and more.
I really wish you well hun, BUt as you see, you are not alone. Gaw I wish I could hug you, because it seems like we prolly need one grat big sister hug, to just let out the pain. But remember your truly blessed with your babies now.
~~Mil~~

Halfling,
So sorry that you are in so much pain. Isn't there something that you can take to releave it.
Ladies please be happy that at least you have kids, I had a TAJ on September 7 and I don't have a single child. The painful part was that after surgery I had to listen to newborn babies cry just doors away from my room...
Please be thankful for what you have.

Petal