Question? About how we feel....

I read how you guys are all worried about your surgery. With 2 c-sections under my belt the surgery is not what worries me. What worries me is the pain I am in now. And how I can't clean my house because even on the goods days I still hurt. My worries are that I will not stop hurting afterward. Or maybe that the surgery will show the cancer is farther along than thought. Or that radiation is in my future. I mean that I really can't get past that. The glandular cervical cancer is hard to dx. Dr own words. I hope that I can get past this. Thanx for the ears.......

I don't have cancer but as far as cleaning the house goes, I understand. I work full-time is an office. My house has been neglected. Last Friday was my last day at work. Surgery is on Wednesday. People wanted to know why I was not working on Monday or Tuesday. The urge to slap them upside the head was great. I basicly feel that morning time was the best for me. Work got that everyday except Saturday. Sunday, church has got the best of me. I have these 2 extra days off for my family and house cleaning/laundry. People outside my family who cannot understand that need to get a grip on their own lives and leave mine alone. My house will always get dirty. There will always be laundry. I will go at my own pace and do what I can to help my family. Most of all, I go at a pace that will not hurt my life. Now is my time to focus on me and my well being. I am a giving person. I love my Sunday School class. I love my friends. But my hyster will only happen once in my life. I plan to heal right and live a long life. Laundry, dishes, friends, and work can all wait. My family will have to pick up the slack. I'm no good to anyone if I don't take care of me. This is my approach to my surgery--with just about 30 plus hours to go. Hard to believe it will almost be over.

((((Taylea))))
Although I don't have cancer, I do have alot of issues that do cause me a great deal of pain on a daily basis.

My fear is probably similar to what you are feeling. The whole idea of the hyst doesn't really scare me too much. What scares me most is that I won't be rid of the constant pain which has become such a part of my life.

I am afraid that I will not be able to do the things I want to do, and be the person I want to be.

I am putting my fate in my Prince Charming, and hope that he will be able to make me feel better.

I'm sending you a

Tam

Hi,

I have not been told they found cancer I haven't got the reports yet, but I do know the waiting is the worst for me the worrying and the what if's of surgery where horrible.
I am 6 days post op and the pain is slight really, I feel like my muscles are confused on where to go what to do, like I over excersied, which my dear would never happen!!! :-) I am tierd but am so glad I did it!!!! There are bladder and bowel things trying to figure out what to do also, but not bad pain.

I tried so hard to get organized I had 6 days and a little dd to help and a 10 hour a day job, no days off I spent my time here, this place helped so much, I got the important chores done but I felt like crap and most of it is still here waiting for me to clean it. Oh the day after the surgery we had a heck of a dust storm, dirt everywhere (I live in the desert) well figures I had dusted before the castle!!!LOL

Murphy's law,

Hugs girls and let us know how your are where thinking of you!
M

gothair2dye

I understand about the desert. I use to live in one. Those dust devils were something else. Not to mention the sand fleas.

Tomorrow is my day. I am doing pretty good. I have a lot that I want to do today. Hope I can get it all done.

Glad to hear that you are doing alright!

Right now I feel so bad that I would rather have my hyster done at this very moment. If I"m not crampy, I feel sick to my stomach. Dear old AUNTIE FLO is doing the Stomp right now along with the Alien. I just want to . As my date gets closer I welcome the day of my surgery. : I know the pain that I have now will be nothing like the pain I possiblity might after my surgery. It's going to be a welcome relief. As for the cancer issue, I feel for you. Both of my adoptive parents have had (mom breast cancer survior) Father, Colon cancer now. It's a hard road. I will keep you in my ers.



jane
8 more days

that I'm having right now is unbearable!

Tat2rose....I am feeling just like you at this very moment!

Auntie Flo (the witch) has reared her ugly head in my house for the last time!! I think that this one is my worst ever. She must want to go out with a big bang, cuz she is doin' a number on me.

While I have fears, I am coming to terms with it. Knowing I'll never have a day like this day make the surgery pain worth it all! I have had 3 sections, so I know what to expect. My true fear is always cleaning the house on a daily basis.

As for you girls with cancer...my heart goes out to you. You have so much more to deal with mentally and emotionally than I. I almost feel guilty complaining. I pray your DR gives you a clean bill of health and you recover swiftly. I'll be saying an extra prayer for you.

Off to take another pain pill!! Have a good day girls!

Good luck to you sisters about to go to the castle, as for flo...
well I killed her last week Is that a sin??? LOL I am so happy about it, I think she is extra mean just before she gets taken out!
AH she has no idea what your about to do to her he ehehe !!!!!

Good luck and hugs to ya
M

Hi Ladies!!!

Thanks to Taylea for starting this thread...it's what I was worrying about recently!! Like most of you, I'm also not afraid of the surgery or pain from it.......I am afraid that I won't wake up tho. But I'm MOST afraid of not having all the pain that I feel now, go away. I've read so many good stories here that have given me hope but there's always this little voice in my head saying "this isn't going to happen to you!"

Me & my husband have been arguing more in the past year or so than any other times in our marriage and most of the things have to do with the fact that I don't feel well. He says he understands but honestly, I don't feel he does or else these things wouldn't be an issue, right? I think that if I could have sex with him everday, we wouldn't be arguing so much. He couldn't possibly understand how it feels to have your uterus, bladder & rectum falling out or to be so constipated that you can't even get a fart out even when you can feel it gurgling inside!! I also am betting that I have a huge fibroid in there and we'll see if I'm right after my surgery. I just don't understand the reason for the size of my belly!!!! I hardly eat.

So, I am praying that this surgery will do wonders for me & my marriage. Otherwise I will be a single mom and have to get on long acting pain meds cuz my short acting ones aren't cutting it anymore.

I also feel so bad for those of you with the possibility of cancer. I pray that you will get a clean bill of health also! Please everyone, come back & post your surgery outcomes cuz I want to follow these stories.

Take care everyone and I wish you all & myself...good luck with getting everything we hope for!

Lovely

I feel so tired lately. I have two girls that I chase after all day. And like I said I don't even feel like cleaning. My hubby does understand. He tells me not to do anything. But I have ones of those independent girls. It is hard to deal with the fact that I can't look after my-self let alone clean the house and take care of the kids. I despise the way my house looks. You can't walk through my bedroom and the floor never stays clean. But thanx for the ears..........