I am not well

Cararay, sorry you are feeling depressed and sad...I am pretty sure it hits us all at different points in our health. I think what you might need is a little pampering, how about a pedicure...that might just make you relaxed and that might help relieve some of the stress. I also just this past weekend had a girlfriend come over and we shoped and laugh, then watched 3 tear-jerking movies....that helped get out a lot of the mixed feelings that we start going through as our date gets closer. Mine is Oct. 28th and today is my last day at work....I am taking time off work to get my head out of the office and onto me (finally).

Good luck and I really, truely hope all turns out well for you.

Mugs

This may seem odd but I too have had conversations with my uterus as one of the other women posted mostly appoligising to her for putting her through so much and asking her to forgive me lol almost sort of asking her to just stop bleeding and hurting so I would not have to go through this stress or surgery anymore lol But to answer your question YES I d*****atly have stress so bad to where I don't feel like doing anythign but staying in bed and crying and sleeping I go through this constantly, But the only thing you can do is talk to someone have a good support system I know I have a great one here I come on here and sometimes I don't even post I just read and read and I get alot of my answers faith and hope off just reading some of the other posts here I'm so greatful for this site I have no idea what I would have done without it But I just want to tell you seeing a therapist may not be such a bad idea I see one and for a whole hour I get to be selfish and just talk about me and my worries it helps alot I'm just telling you woman that even tho sometimes you feel like it you are not alone and you need to use the people who love you and this site it does help !! I hope you get to feeling better lots of xoxoxoxoxo to you

Cararay,
My surgery is six days after yours and I'm feeling the same way as you. There are days that I don't know if I can get to work without crying, I have an 18 mile drive to get my head in order. I try to think positive most of the time. I try to pray, and ask others to pray. This Sunday I hope to be able to get a prayer request in church. I have to be able to hold back crying long enough to get it out. Scriptures are coming to mind Isa 41:10 - fear not for I am with thee -- also one that I taught my child, "what time I am afraid I will trust in thee". What fears me the most is not coming out of the operation, or not being "right" after ... Dr's do make mistakes, although mine told me he never has. Today I realized part of my fear stems from the fact that I don't HAVE to have this surgery. It's not like a bypass or something where I would die without it. I can live with this constant bleeding, horrible pain, and all the rest, it won't kill me. Anyway, despite feelings of panic as the day gets closer, I will go through with it, and hopefully as everyone says I will feel so much better.
Sapphira

Cararay:

Did you have your iron levels checked? There are two tests for this, Hematocrit and Hemoglobin. Hematocrit measures the percent of red blood cells of your total cells, and should be around 40%. Hemoglobin is a measure of the iron in your blood, and should have a value about 13. If you haven't, this may be the reason that you are feeling so tired, as you won't have any energy if you have depleted your stores of iron, and you may have done so if you had heavy bleeding earlier this summer.

If you've had that checked and that's not it- you may want to see a psychiatrist rather than a psyscologist or therapist, because a psychiatrist is able to prescribe medication- an antidepressant medication like Celexa, Lexapro, Zoloft, or Prozac might be helpful depending on what the psychiatrist thinks. It really is important to try to figure out what is wrong- either an iron deficiency or a depression, because you need to have the energy to make all the preparations for your surgery, and you won't be able to do that without any energy.

Good luck. Let us know how you are so at least you can get support here from the other Hystersisters.

-Torrie

Maybe I shouldn't say this in that it might make you
feel worse, but do you have a choice in having this
surgery? If there is anything else you could do, I would
consider it. I am one of those that had a choice, and
had my surgery and all I can say is that I wish I could
go back to that day, and make a different decision,
and I won't go into all the details. And if you don't have
any choice and you have had you second opinions, then
just stop worrying and accept what you are about to
do, but remember you can't go back and change it
afterwards. I know this may make you feel worse to
hear this, but I feel that I should say it, make sure you
have done your research, and looked at all your options.
Good luck, and hope all is well with you.

Hi Ladies,

I rally don't have a choice regarding my surgery. I have cervical dysplasia. My doctor will not freeze it. I have a history of heavy bleeding, but have NOT had a period since my D & C in August.
I told my doctor about this in a phone conversation, and she said she was going to check my hormone levels when I went to my pre-op this friday.
I could have a cone biopsy, but That would not take care of the bleeding problem, should that happen again.
I have been anemic. I had a blood transfusion 2 years ago from heavy bleeding.
my doctor said Iost ALOT of blood during my D & C.
Guess I will find out about that at my pre-op too.

I'll post after my pre-op, Thank you all again,
Cara

Hi Cara and any others about to have their surgery,
I just had my pre-op appointment yesterday. I felt very good after that these people had my best interests at heart. Everyone I met from the nurses who took, blood, ECGs, prep for hosptial stay to the anesthesiologist were professional, thorough, considerate and caring.

I have specific issues like I am known to faint and have a seizure when the IV is put in (has happened a few times, I think because of a traumatic hospitalization when I was 2). The anesthesiologist was very understanding and made specific notes, for example - the IV will go in in the operating room, I'll get Ativan prior for nerves and I will have self administerd drugs afterwards for pain. Also he was very thorough (went over my myomectomy notes from 1991), looked up specific new concerns because of my new liver disease etc... The nurses were amazing too and I felt very assured by the end of it that I will be in good hands. A few of them also said my gynecologist is very experienced and they've never heard anything negative about him.

I hope everyone has a similar experience. Today I'm feeling nervous again, but that's OK and to be expected.
I wish you all well.
Kathryn

Hi Cararay,
I'm sorry you are so worried. I am worried, too. I have 6 large fibroids, heavy bleeding, etc. My hyst is Nov. 28 so I have 5 weeks to try to keep it together. I feel like I'm going to unravel but I'm lucky because I have 2 children and a husband that keep me focused and busy.

When I feel like I need to be alone I take a long hot bath and close my eyes. I give myself permission to cry and try to destress. Sometimes when I feel really down I think of others whose lives are alot worse than mine. Like people who are dealing with loved ones who are dying or hurricane katrina victims, etc.

If I can get through this I know you can too. I feel so miserable physically I cannot wait to get relief! We can do this, Cararay.

Love and prayers,
Sister#3

Kathryn (and others),

So nice to hear that someone else clears their Chakras and uses vision and guidance to hear the "right" answers. I am also telling my body, as many times in the day that I can, that I will heal and recover quickly and with ease. I know it will be difficult, regardless, but if I repeat it enough then my body will believe it and react accordingly. Atlhough today is a good day, I think this has helped me more than anything, especially to draw me out of a depression or even those times when I'm sobbing uncontrollably.

I too, have never had a child and wished I did. I have to trust the Universe that I am exactly where I need to be and let it go from there (Note: while I understand this intellectually its still difficult to accept.) I have an identical twin, who had a TAH two years ago, so I'm doubly blessed (pardon the atrocious pun) in that I have her to lean on and you all.

My pre-op is on Friday this week, (surgery scheduled the 28th) and you raised a few good points. I will keep a few things in mind while I meet with the anesthesiologist and others.

Thanks for the pointers and good luck with your surgery and recovery.

<Envisioning thoughts of universal healing, energetic, white light and unconditional love to all>

Carol

Hi again Ladies,

I have a history of panic attacks and anxiety. I had a very traumatic experience when I was 18 years old, and since then I have very negative thinking. The only thing that has kept me going is Praying and trusting in my God.

I need to be more postive as the time is drawing near.
I'm glad that you are doing what works best for you. I'm trying very hard !!

'S Cara