post-op blues

I had a partial hysterectomy about 8 weeks ago due to a 7 1/2 lb fybroid tumer. I had to also have 1 ovary removed unexpectedly as well due to endametriosis. 2 weeks after my surgery I woke up and my right side was covered in blood. I was terrified! I completely freaked. I called my neighbor and she rushed me to my doctor. I thought my incision had busted open. Not at all. My incision had gotten infected and had a large abcess (sp?) That had burst which left me with a hole in my incision a little over 7 cm deep. I started off going back to the doctor every other day to havethe packing removed a cathader inserted and drained and then repacked. Extremely painful. I'm now down to twice a week and its about 2cm. I still can't drive,sleep in my bed, bend over, or walk very well. And I can't sleep at night from wondering what I did wrong. I followed the doctors orders to a T. And the first week I was home luckily my best friend was with me b/c I past out cold going upstairs. Anyone else out there have such an extremely tough and painful recovery with any advice?

wow, what an ordeal, i have had nothing like yours but developed interstitial cystitis after my surgery, probably had it mildly before but now have it moderately, painful urinating before and after, abdominal pain, still trying to figure out my bowels too, depressed is what i am, almost 3 months out and not too happy, surround yourself with supportive people, pray, i am reading through the bible as i began at job one especially bad day and decided to start from the beginning