It is time to ask for something....I am a wreck

Two weeks away...that's it. On the 28th I head to the castle and come out snorfleed. LOL

I have a group project (midterm) due that week, and I am already freaking out over how I be able to complete my part of the project or lose all points--yes even at my age my GPA means a lot to me. Don't ask I am taking two classes again this term and one Professor is great, the other $%$#*

My house needs cleaned, but I have so much work to finish up at the office and prep my assistant with all the things she will be responsible for, plus...would you not figure, corporate is flying in to spend three days with me prior to my castle trip.

Then there is my total building and underlying fear--CANCER. Sure, only 1% of all fibroids turn into something else. I just can't get my doctor's vague, but worrisome comments out of my head and the closer it gets to D-Day, the more flipped out I become.

I can't seem to think about anything else.
Time for anxiety meds...Prozac?

I think Prozac is more of a long term thing....maybe Xanax? or Vistaril is another one but makes you reaaaally sleepy. At least it did me when I had it. I tried those when I was going thru my dad's cancer a few years back. The Xanax was probably a little better because you seem to have other things to deal with and shouldn't just conk out!!

You'll be ok!! I have faith in you!!

Cremebrulee,

I know that Prozac is a really long-term usage. It was more of an inside joke associated with Parenthood. LOL Know what I mean.

Anyhow, I am just swamped at work, school, home and ticked off because the timing is so bad, gave up a chance for a promotion.

Then there is my irrational fear running through my head that maybe my luck has finally run out.

Aside from that, at least I know that we have created the perfect husband clone.

Thanks for having faith.

I know how you feel. I go for mine on the 28th too. So much to do, as I am in school too. Everything will be ok, im worried and freaked out i just have to keep telling myself life will be better. Best of luck!

School. I flunked my math class (a summer 2010 course to finish my degree) - I blame it on the fact that I had a terrible professor and found out that I needed a TLH all at the same time. I hate putting the blame on it because I feel I should have been stronger and passed that course. The stupid professor at the time took my Dr.'s note but didn't excuse me from his 2 limit makeup exam. Then, he gave me a totally different final from the practice final. All the while, during all of the hours put into studying, all I wanted to do was RESEARCH MY MEDICAL PROBLEM THAT I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT but I couldn't. So, I had that in the back of my mind. Guess I couldn't deal with the pressure.

My heart goes out to all of you who are in school and trying to do this thing for a better quality of life. For me, I hope to register at another college, a can transfer my credits and start for the higher degree too, I just won't have the first one. I am learning to live with this for the sake of my health. Good Luck to everyone.

Hey, I've been in school for so long I guess school and work are just a norm for me. I've taken two classes each term and finish my BS then end of December. Then sometime after the first of the year start on my Masters.

Tetter3plr, the 28th is looming fast. I decided today that I am taking the Friday and Monday prior to surgery off. One: to clean my house and get it ready for me. Two: I have a midterm paper and group project to get a jump on and I will not being doing anything after the 28th. Are you taking classes online? Where? I am attending Herzing Online this time, but I work for the university so it is a no brainer. LOL

Today was a little better, not quite as stressed. I think I've calmed down a bit, especially since I decided to give myself two days off. I also spent the afternoon covering details with my assistant and arranging goto meetings!

(yes, I am trying to control my life right now)

rhncasi419, Math has never been my favorite subject, and I've continued to take classes through all of this. You don't have to pass with an A; you just have to pass. Remember, that when you take it again.

I've managed to maintain A and B with an occassional C (math) but I will graduate. Classes help me keep my mind on track and the end is in sight...nothing will keep me from the end goal, not even a TAH/BSO or worse.

cremebrulee, I am looking for our newly created "Clone DH" as mine has fallen off the wagon again, and have threaten to trade him for a new one.

I am thinking of all of you. See you later. Thanks for the hugs