Winner, you are not alone. I don't think I've gone through as much as you have. Seems like every woman is different in her healing. I know that I took much longer to heal than I was led to believe I'd need -- and when I overdid the slightest (and I mean by the teeniest tiny-est bit), I had more swelly belly, gas, discomfort, fatigue, brain fog, very limited ability to concentrate with impaired memory, and overall body malaise. And crying at the drop of the hat. [Even though I had started on bio-identical transdermal estradiol months before the surgery.] Needless to say, I did not have stamina: none, zippo, zilch. I'm a Psych Nurse Practitioner -- and sitting was the absolute worst position for me. Of course, sitting and counseling clients is my job. I did not go back to work as planned....instead, I ended up almost obsessively attending to every little symptom of overdoing, and then laying down with my knees and feet elevated about 6" from my bottom until the discomfort symptoms went away. When I did this routinely, I finally started to really heal -- after a while! Maybe it tookk so long because I was 56 years old when I had the surgery. Who knows?
I also had some strange urinary symptoms: I didn't feel the need to urinate. So, I kept track of the time, and when I figured I probably "should" need to go, I would try and -- voila! I'd pee. I also had an odd discomfort/sensation/pain. My GYN said later that I probably had a low-grade infection that my body kicked over after a period of time. I now have a body sensation about when my bladder is full -- but it is different. My theory is that I don't have a uterus to also tell me that my bladder is full.
I was on antidepressants and transdermal bio-identical estradiol before going in for surgery. However, about 3-4 weeks after surgery (when my ovaries were also removed), I "hit a wall" and started having all sorts of symptoms: depression, sadness, bleak-feeling, no zest, no motivation to do anything, no joy, crying -- oh, the list could go on (but no hot flashes, thank goodness!
). I had done a lot of research prior to surgery, so I pushed my GYN to prescribe a compounded bio-identical testosterone cream. That helped a lot, but I could still tell something was missing. So then we added progesterone cream. And I've remained on a relatively high dose of the transdermal estradiol. I'm not yet stablized -- but I'm much, much better. And I can function again!
I sure hope this helps you in some way. And I hope you are feeling better already. I did NOT enjoy the long recovery time and during the recovery time I did NOT get the "sedentary" tasks done because I couldn't sit. Now I very much do enjoy feeling so much better. Please let all of us know how you're doing. And don't give up. Keep reaching out for support so you can heal. Best to you, winner!