I think I'm losing it

Hello..My name is Sandy..I am 8 days pre-op..Had some pre-op testing yesterday,more on the 12th..I am having total hys,bladder to be put back up,walls repaired..Just found out I may need to have cathader when I come home if I'm to swollen to pee..(Hope not)I am just scared to death..I think I may die or I may have more problems than they know and I will wake up with more missing parts like my colon or something.>I really am not usually crazy..Hubby tries to understand what I am feeling but have been keeping quiet because he looks at me funny(maybe I am nuts??)I'm a big baby about needles now I have to do this??Has anyone had the cathader through thier stomach??I may have to..My house is not getting done,seems like I go in circles..I have read so much on these websites and love you all..Please can you help me to calm down some before I really do go mad??Seems I was'nt to bad till now..Thanks..........Sandy

All these feelings and worries are normal. It is hard facing major surgery. There have been many, including me, who thought they might die. We didn't!!! That is why they repeat the saying here that waiting is the hardest part.

Many have had that kind of catheter, too. Soon someone will be along to share their positive experience and give understanding.

If your house doesn't get done, it will be o.k. Make a list and prioritize things. Do first what you need done for YOU that no one else can do.

Will dh and friends help with house and kids, etc. while you recover? It is important to have a support system going. I would work on that first. Houses will wait.

Ask your dr. if they can give you something to help you cope.

I could not sleep pre-op with all these things going through my mind. The dr. cheerfully prescribed Ambien so I would not be an exhausted zombie when I got to the hospital.

Keep us updated on how you do.

OK Sweety here is the first thing: take a deep breath, good now repeat I am going to do something that is going to make me a new woman. I will be healthy, feel good and leave all my cares behind me. Now next thing is you are never alone. I have heard a lot of the ladies talk about bladder repair so I am sure someone will be along in a minute to give you their details. Now you must remember that each woman is different, but there are very similar details in each surgery. AS for needles I have always hated them. My Dad who was a school teacher use to have to hold me when they gave me shots. But they made me so comfortable at the castle that even the pain I had wasn't much. So take another deep breath. Hope this helps you feel a little better. God bless.