can't get there fast enough

I am scheduled for TVH, A&P repairs with enterocelle, and poss. BSO on Sept 2. Pre-op appointment on July 30. The time seems to be dragging on at first I thought "Cool....2 weeks today and it will have happened......... then I realized it is 2 weeks from tomorrow not today. I am so tired of waiting and will have 1 more period before surgery.
I am building up to the last period now just 9 days since my most recent but usually don't make it 2 weeks in between and my back is killing me. I closed my office door today at work and layed on the floor to ease the back pain, but it is so oncredible tonight. I just NEED this over with. I have read a few posts here whee women have had thier surgeries delayed for various reasons and truly believe that I will go insane if that happens to me. I had actually gone on the internet last spring desperate for a hysterectomy looking for a black market hysterectomy site and have gone into "hysterical" moments where I wanted to just rip the ****ed thing out myself. My uterus has ruled my life for to many years and kept me imprisoned with ungodly gushing and clots the size of Beef liver that feel like a vaginal BM when they come out. My "old GYN" (finally got the strength to fire her last spring had been telling me for 6 years now that I was "just getting older" I think she is passive agressive to make me suffer like that. I live in a rural area with just 1 GYN office so I am seeing a "partner" of hers who was a bit surprised that I had all this prolapse "out of the blue"............Out of the blue my "___", I have been dealing with this for a very long time!
Anyway, just needed to vent,
must be pre-op jitters / anger / anger / anger!

Hello Wishy,
I suffered for years before I fired my ob/gyn of 12 years. His comment was quit smoking and we will treat you. Bull!!! Iknow I need to quit and am working on my first 24hrs. Just 3 to go.
After seeing this Dr I was thrilled when he said hyst in June but august seemed sooooo far away. now it is only 7 days and aunt flo came to visit last week. and was in pain for 5 days. Then caught a cold on sat. I'm getting better and hope and pray it will be enough to go forward with the hyst. Just wanted you to know I'm with you on this and your not alone. I agree enough is enough lets go!!!
Best of luck wishy
Debbie