I can't believe the pain is back

I'm sitting here typing this crying and feeling so defeated. I'm 10 days post-op and up until tonight I have felt pretty good, minimal pain just really tired. I listened to the Dr, haven't lifted anything and pretty much have been in bed, my last surgeries taught me that lesson. my kids are even staying at their grandparents so I can heal properly this time.

I drove for the first time tonight, went to visit the kiddos and while sitting down I had that ALL TOO FAMILIAR stabbing pain in my left side right above my bikini line incision. I had the pain before and the Dr. thought it was cysts. Understandable BUT, he JUST went in there and cleaned everything out including cysts (I kept my ovaries).

I feel,like I should have just made him take my ovaries, he knew I was terrified of menopause so unless anything looked cancerous he was going to clean them up, and leave them in as long as we could.

Now, I have to call his office tomorrow and PRAY that his incompetent staff can actually get a message to him to see what's going on, I called for a refill Friday for a milder pain med that I had before because the percosets were too much for me even cutting them in half and they claim the pharmacy didn't send it. I know my pharmacist very well (unfortunately) and when I asked him he just laughed and said what do you think?

I just don't know what to do. I really like my Dr., he's been
awarded Top Dr. In our city several times but I'm getting frustrated, to be in constant pain is something that no one can understand unles they have been through it. having to call for med refills and feeling like they think you're a junkie or something it kills me. I'm scared to take my last 3 pain meds because what if I can't get the refill of the weaker med then I will have nothing. I have prescription strength ibuprofen but that won't even touch THIS particular pain.

I'm so sorry this went on so long, I feel better getting it out, I'm scared to tell my husband because I know he will feel defeated also and we are back to square one.

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Originally Posted by saintsfanatic I'm sitting here typing this crying and feeling so defeated. I'm 10 days post-op and up until tonight I have felt pretty good, minimal pain just really tired. I listened to the Dr, haven't lifted anything and pretty much have been in bed, my last surgeries taught me that lesson. my kids are even staying at their grandparents so I can heal properly this time. I drove for the first time tonight, went to visit the kiddos and while sitting down I had that ALL TOO FAMILIAR stabbing pain in my left side right above my bikini line incision. I had the pain before and the Dr. thought it was cysts. Understandable BUT, he JUST went in there and cleaned everything out including cysts (I kept my ovaries). I feel,like I should have just made him take my ovaries, he knew I was terrified of menopause so unless anything looked cancerous he was going to clean them up, and leave them in as long as we could. Now, I have to call his office tomorrow and PRAY that his incompetent staff can actually get a message to him to see what's going on, I called for a refill Friday for a milder pain med that I had before because the percosets were too much for me even cutting them in half and they claim the pharmacy didn't send it. I know my pharmacist very well (unfortunately) and when I asked him he just laughed and said what do you think? I just don't know what to do. I really like my Dr., he's been awarded Top Dr. In our city several times but I'm getting frustrated, to be in constant pain is something that no one can understand unles they have been through it. having to call for med refills and feeling like they think you're a junkie or something it kills me. I'm scared to take my last 3 pain meds because what if I can't get the refill of the weaker med then I will have nothing. I have prescription strength ibuprofen but that won't even touch THIS particular pain. I'm so sorry this went on so long, I feel better getting it out, I'm scared to tell my husband because I know he will feel defeated also and we are back to square one.

I feel your pain, literally!! I am 5 weeks post op and have already asked the surgeon to open me back up. They removed a ton of scar tissue and I can tell its back already. And everyone thinks I just need more time to recover. I was doing great until 2 weeks ago. I know asking for surgery now is insane but I also know scar tissue will only get worse. I wish I could help. Maybe it helps to know you aren't alone. I've been defeated 7 times now and it sucks. ((Hugs))

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Originally Posted by scrlet528 I feel your pain, literally!! I am 5 weeks post op and have already asked the surgeon to open me back up. They removed a ton of scar tissue and I can tell its back already. And everyone thinks I just need more time to recover. I was doing great until 2 weeks ago. I know asking for surgery now is insane but I also know scar tissue will only get worse. I wish I could help. Maybe it helps to know you aren't alone. I've been defeated 7 times now and it sucks. ((Hugs))

I'm sorry you're going through it too, I know the pain of scar tissue also and it hurts! I don't think you're crazy at all, you know you're body and you're wanting to not go through that pain again, and it is so painful for some. Mine grew right through that "protective" mesh and wrapped its evil way around everything.

I wish we could all find Drs that have actually lived with chronic pain, scar tissue pain, endo pain etc.

What did they say about your surgery SCRLET528? I know if my Dr. Said come in now I'm taking your ovaries out I'd be there within the hour. I know it takes time to heal but I'm not sure if what we are going through is the healing process or a sign of things to come that will need fixing.

My saving grace thru all this has been my mother. She went thru this exact thing. She had horrible scar tissue as well. The pain burns and pulls on my right side where my ovary was. I have had the mesh used on me before but I think it worked (so many surgeries)that time. The surgeon didnt mention it this time. It took him 30 minutes just to clear out scar tissue before he started removing organs. I sit here and truly doubt myself but I know what this feels like. I doubted myself before the 8/30 surgery and that thing took 2+ hours. This was my EIGHTH lap. I know what this crap feels like!

A little more about my recent history: 2008 they took just my uterus and I was great for 4 years. This surgery took both ovaries, my cervix, several areas of endo and all the scar tissue.

I was PETRIFIED about my ovaries coming out also. I have found a good balance now on my hormones and I am OK. They had to double what I was started on. Then I started to feel like me again.

I have an appt on Wednesday to see the surgeon again. I guess I will be making my case then. I also work FT and NEED to get back to work ASAP. They are letting me work from home but that won't last much longer.

Well my Dr. Called and after explaining everything he said it is cysts again, ALREADY! Apparently the surgery has sent my ovaries into overdrive so I will be put on some type of hormone soon to "calm them down". I am so upset.