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Originally Posted by soraya I have also thought about whether or not I will miss the period I dread. I guess each day will bring new things to conquer. I am so looking forward to not feeling drained and being so uncomfortable. To be able to sleep on my stomach, to lean against the sink and not feel the pressure. To sneeze and not worry about wetting myself. To have my granchildren climb up on my knee and have them sit on my lap instead of my fibroid. So much to look forward to, too much to mention. When is your hysterectomy?

Chris It's funny you mention missing you period. I was just telling my Husband the other day that i found it odd that even though it would be nice to not have my period and that was one major relieve there was a part of me that would miss it. Isn't that funny? LoL! I guess after having it for 30 years it will be odd not having it. I too look forward to every single thing you mentioned.

I have not yet schedueled it. There is a small glitch in our insurance we have to work out. Then I have to have the three test and unfortunatly our insurance will not let me have them on the same day. Dumb! They say the insurance issue should be fixed soon and i am now on my period so the wait is ok. Anyway as soon as my period and the insurance issue are cleard up we will make appointments for three consecutive days. Once that is done i think we can then schedual the hysterectomy. I don't thin we will have to wait for the results to sahedual it. I hope not.

I am happy with the Dr. I have found at last. A part of me is relieved that it will all be over. Another part of me is sad and like Mandy for some odd reason i am petrified.

Mandy, I know you are scared. We all are. You have to think of the good things and not the bad. It will all be as it should. No more pain, no more bleeding. What a relieve. Don't give up and do not cancel. You can do it your as strong as any of us. We will all be with you in thought.

Farieanne,

I read your note carefully and i am wondering did you receive any councelling for the loss of your baby.Sometimes the pain of lossing a baby can pay havoc with our bodys if its not addressed, as i noticed your trouble being after your miscarraige.If you did grieve the loss with your family and received plenty of help to get you through this very hard time ,then i think as you stated you dont want anymore children.You should get as much info from drs as you need so you can make an imformed decision.

Best of luck

Apple 100

Hi Apple 100,
To be honest after I lost my son I did see a Dr. for awhile, He was a medical Dr. though not a theripist. I ended up having a D & C a month to the day after my son was born, that was not fun and an awful reminder. I got very depresed and was put on antidepresants, not for the first time. I spent two years after I lost him only leaving my room and my bed when I had too. It was a horrible time. The baby's father and I have since divorced and I have gotten remarried. We just could not pull it together after that. He has PTSD from being in Iraq and he didn't deal with it much and when he did it was ugly. I was just depressed and didn't care. I have come to terms with it now and I no longer take the antidepresants. I still miss him and cry from time to time. We celabrate and honor my son ~Zen~ every year on his birthday. I will never forget or not love him but I have found my peace with the loss.

My problems though started much sooner in life than after the loss of my son. After I had intercoruse the first time I bled for 10 days and almost went to the hospital. I had to have a D & C at 15 for heavy bleeding. Again after my oldest daughter was born, when she was 2 weeks old, I had to have a D & C for hemoraging. I had to have another D & C once, maybe twice, between the birth of my youngest daughter in '87' and '97'. In 2003 I had gastric bypass surgery which went well with no problems and I lost 150 pounds. I began to have heavy periods again and my Dr. Felt i might have endo. so he sent me to a specialist. I hated that Dr. and left before he could examin me. I had a out of state trip planned and decided to wait till I returned from the trip to deal with the possible endo. Well my period was late. I thought because of stress from the trip. However it ended up I was PG. At 5 week PG i was dx with a sub choreonic hemorage and then partial placinta previa. I was on bed rest for 11 weeks. I went in to preterm labor at 16.5 weeks but i was in denial and waited to long to seek help. One month later I had to have a D & C for the bleeding. For a month or two my periods were ok but have slowly increased untill I am now worse than where i was before i had my son. I have never had an abnormal pap and i have never been told i had palups or fibroids before, though i had been told my Uterus was tilted at my pelvic exam last year. It was this years yearly I was told I have a polup on my cervix and that He believed I had fibroids and my uterus is the size of 3month pg. They did the u/s thing and sure enough i have multiple fibroids the larges being 4cm but touching the endo wall. I also have polups that 'did not reflect like fibroids' whatever that means.
Anyway, it looks like my insurance snag is going to take a couple months to clear up so it will be after the holidays before anything is done. The DR. though is working with us because He wants to do two other test to test for high risk HPV? and also a biopsy of the uterin lining or endo. He wants that done soon just in case so He is going to do them for only like $120 so we can pay out of pocket and get them done soon. Probebly friday. Not looking forward to the test but i guess it will be good to have done.