5 weeks post-op emotional breakdown

I had total hysterectomy 5/19/09. I also had bladder sling inserted. That went wrong and my right uretor (bladder to kidney line) kinked and cause a third surgery that day. So the doctor told me I would have more pain than normal. Through great amount of prayer and effort I left the hospital without a catheter. I was determined to pee on my own once I was home. Since I ended having 6 abdominal incisions instead of the original 3 because of the 3rd surgery my first belly button entry has been infected. I am 42 with 2 grown kids and I a truly had no emotional attachment to my uterus or so I thought. I am single with one child at home to help me, but since I came home my house has been falling apart things that I would fix myself, my frig stopped working, my pool has a motor leak and a hole in the liner, my new TV is defective in my room and my daughter left the country with me overseeing her apartment with someone in it refusing to pay. At a time I need the rest the most I can not seem to get peace around me. I have become a very angry and emotionally unstable, but I don't emotional feel right. I feel like I am going crazy I would love to break down and cry yet I can not and that feels very strange. I continue to have some pain with the abdominal areas plus problems with the bladder pressure and sometimes peeing. If I could step out of this body until it heals I would. Last year I had a cervical (neck) spinal fusion and still have 3 herniated disc from a car wreck in 06. The extended time on the surgical table caused my neck and lower back kick up causing me additional disability and pain. I feel like a wreck both physically and emotional. Too much going on when I should be at ease and healing. I knew going in my spine would be a problem; I did not count on my house falling apart, or the emotions that I am feeling is completely surprising. Even though I have a bum left ovary the doctor left both my ovaries. My question is does the uterus supply any amount of hormones to your system? I feel emotional and depressed. Is this normal after this surgery or has life heaped too much stress on me while I was healing? I am sensitive to little things and sad. Should I speak to the doctor about hormonal issues even though I kept my ovaries am I still unbalanced? Everyone told me how much better I would feel after surgery and their stories where wonderful even two weeks out and mine has not been that way.

Oh, I hear you, and am sorry for all of the stress.
You are still healing, and with all that's going on, you most certainly have reason to fall apart.
Keep leaning on your sisters.
We're here to listen.
Colleen

Hello BumUterus2009!!

Whew - are you a poster child for if it can go wrong it will?? From your post I think you are very overwhelmed and sounds like you do not have a good support system to rely on. Good news - you can vent here to people who have similiar situations and can offer kind words and maybe some relief from your stressful situation. First off, it is okay to feel what you are feeling. Allow yourself a quiet moment with a cup of tea and a good book and try to relax. Do not try to take on things that are out of your control (the non-paying free-loader in your daughters apt)!! I am not sure about the uterus and hormones, if you still have ovaries I would think your hormones should still be working, but that does not mean they are working right. If you can not get some emotional peace your body is not going to heal properly. You may need to seek medical advice from your doctor. Call a good friend who is a good listener or better yet make a lunch date!! I so hope you get to feeling better. Sometimes life seems to dump things on us all at once. Do what you can, one issue at a time. Prayer always helps me!! May you have a blessed day my friend!! Try to pamper the !!

Kim
LAVH 6-18-09

Thanks so much for the supportive words! It is so hard for me to take a deep breath and time for myself. I will some how find a way. Getting upset causes me to tense and the stabbing pain rolls in. I am so happy I found this site. I feel like I am not all alone out there. Nothing is beyond prayer and I have forgotten that along this path.

Bum...,my heart goes to you. I understand that feeling of helplessness (I'm a perfectionist and neat freak) with things falling apart in the house. I'm a single mum with a teen son and you know teens don't really like doing much besides playing video games or listening to music. My home has been in a slight disarray too but I keep telling myself to LET GO of the mess. It's temporary. Instead of listing all the things that are wrong, make a list of the things that are RIGHT. Number one is you are still alive and that's excellent. The mess can go to hell for all you care. LOL. Have you considered paying for someone to come and help fix what really must be fixed? I pray you will see a rainbow shine on you soon. Darkness can only last for a short time, and in the morning comes SUNSHINE. HUGS!

Yikes...I would have a break down! I had a TLH/BSO and my 5 week mark is tomorrow. My DH was a peach the 1st 48 hours I was home then I was on my own. I am a neat freak also and DH has tried but the house certainly isn't the way I like it. I finally gave in and let a couple of my girlfriends come in and clean for me last weekend as they knew I was losing my mind. I have an adult, early 20's, daughter also who hasn't lifted one finger to help out. If you have friends or church family that can come help ask them and let them. We just can't do what needs to be done while healing!

Too much on your plate at one time! So sorry. Are you on anti-depressants or would that be an option? In reading some of the posts on this site it has been said the ovaries don't always wake up right away, maybe a hormone patch? Remember this is temporary and hang in there. Best wishes!