Hello

I'm new here. My surgery was originally scheduled for the coming Spring, but saw dr on Monday and he moved it up to the 19th of this month. I'm all flustered and frantic, where before I was resigned and ready ;(

So much for Christmas.

The hysterectomy was decided upon after many years of suffering with ovarian cysts, fibroids, and endometriosis. I'm only 38. I've had a miscarriage, but no living children. Then my second pap in three years came back suspicious, twice. And rather than doing a cervical cone biopsy - dr just moved up the surgery to get rid of the 'whole shebang'.

My bio. grandmother and aunt both died of cancer of their female organs. That's one 'game' I don't wanna play. But of course, who does?

Anyway, I'm scared now. I know I can get through anything. I have a wonderful husband. It's just that it was more than enough to grieve the finality of never being mother - And now there's this gnawing terror of something potentially fatal added. Hmmff! When it rains it pours. That's fer darn sure~

Hi JavaKat! Well, it sounds like you have a good attitude about surgery, even though you are grieving. Know that you can rely on your dh is comforting, I know, as I had the same.

I can relate about the grief to. I was 36 and just wasn't prepared for the whole 'finality' of the surger, but sooooo ready for the physical pain to end!

I wish you all the best. You'll be surprised at how much better you'll be feeling very soon!

Prayers are with you.

HI, I just wanted to add my I understand your grief and im so sorry your having to go through this, but it sounds like you have a great DH, hold onto that, because sometimes thats hard to find. I also wanted to let you know the surgery was the best thing ive done in years I feel great and have had know problems, I think you`ll be surprise on the way you feel afterwards, and as far as babies their is adoption, or seragant mothers, I do have one child but I always wanted more and for some reason it never happened, and it really hurts me at times when I think about it, but I married a man that has 3 girls so I really dont think I need anymore, we have a full house. my prayers are with you, and hope you feel better soon.

Bev

(((((JavaKat)))))

Welcome to Hyster Sisters.

I am very sorry that you are facing surgery, and so much sooner than you had expected. I am sure that you are scared, and you may want to also visit our cancer concerns forum https://www.hystersisters.com/vb2/sho...threadid=67109 where you'll find some extra love and support from ladies who have faced the uncertainty that you are facing right now.

You will find many resources here on HS to help you prepare for your surgery and recuperation. Please be sure to read the pre-op and post-op hints that are found toward the bottom of the main page (click onto the Princess logo at top left), and come back to post any questions you may have.

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers for a successful and uneventful surgery.

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Karen

This is a 'good' attitude??? Boy, I sure would hate to know what a bad one feels like! LOL

In a way, I feel so betrayed already by those parts of me 'down there' - that it might feel justified to divorce them finally and for good. Nothing but pain and failure from those nether regions. Maybe now instead of feeling constantly at odds with my body - I can find a way to accept what remains - and thus, the whole of me.

Who knows???

Could be a path to healing I never anticipated.

Thanks for your support. It means alot.

Hi JavaKat!

I can relate to your predicament.... One day I was whistling a happy tune, minding my own business, going to the DR for my annual(?....ok, not so annual) routine well-woman exam, when BAM! Next thing I know, I'm scheduled for hysterectomy a week later because of an atypical ovarian tumor.

Askeered? Um...... yes; outta my wits!
Freaked? uh.... that, too.
Felt like I just got a bucket of ice water thrown on me? Ya, that would be the one.

I never experienced the joy of giving birth, either.

It turned out that not having to wait any longer for my surgery was a good thing. I had very little time to 'clear the decks' for my life as a recovering princess, very little time to wring my hands and panic too, too much.

And it turned out that it was a good thing we found the tumor when we did, as it was atypical, precancer, and the surgeon left no trace of it behind.

So, I can relate to being scared, anxious, nervous, freaked, petrified...... the whole spectrum of 'askeeredness'. After an experience like this, little things like - how to get Christmas shopping done, etc. became soooooo not important.

Hang in there, sweetie; we will be here with you every step of the way.

s and Best Wishes as you begin your journey!

Y'all are so nice to me. Thank you! I really need that right now.

I'm having an epidural instead of general anesthesia and they will continue the meds that route for the next couple of days after surgery. I am allergic to demerol, morphine and codeine - all the good stuff. So once they discontinue the epidural I'll be sweatin' out the pain the hard way ;(

Anybody else done this surgery via epidural???

I haven't had surgery yet, I'm scheduled for the 17! YIKES! I'm getting more and more anxious by the hour. I'm trying to keep busy though and it's helping a little.

I'm having mine with an epidural and possibly a mild sedative (although I do not want Versed!) I have a problem with medically-induced amnesia (mentally of course) I want to remember what happened. Huge control freak here! I'm also keeping it in for post-op pain, too. However, I'm NOT having a narcotic added to the epidural. Some people say narcotics delivered via the epidural will not cause nausea/vomiting, (It isn't AS common this route) but it still happens fairly frequently. I'm a nurse and I've seen it many times. I've often compared the two just for my personal observation and every anesthiologist I've questioned about it says it is common to have N/V with a narcotic epidural. That "blood/brain barrier" concept is not totally correct. So, anyway I'll only have the anesthetic in mine, Marcaine I think. Anesthesiologist says after surgery she'll reduce the amount so that I can recover some movement in my legs because I'll need to walk as soon as possible, but the abdomen/low back area will remain numb. Thank goodness! Now, if she'll only agree to let me have the surgery with NO sedative! She said it depends on how bad I'm freaking after I get there. Hmmm, that probably means I'll get some sedation Cuz I feel I will be freaking!

We'll soon be princesses!

And welcome to Hystersisters!

I'm sorry to hear that new issues have come up for you! Just when you think you know what's going to happen..........

I had my TAH due to cervical carcinoma-in-situ, and excuse me for butting in here, but this seems somewhat irregular to me. Do you have any more information than "suspicious"? I realize that you are planning to have the hysterectomy in the next few months anyway, but an abnormal PAP can be indicative of many things. In the majority of cases that I have heard about, when a PAP comes back repeatedly abnormal (more than once) there is usually a colposcopy/biopsy done and then sometimes a cone biopsy or LEEP depending upon the biopsy results. These tests are done for your safety, with the primary reason being that it's important to know exactly what the docs are dealing with. If for some reason you would happen to have cervical cancer (which is probably not the case, but could be possible with an abnormal PAP), then your surgical procedure would look different than it would if you had say mild cervical dysplasia. It might be a good idea to contact your doctor and find out exactly what your PAP results were and why he doesn't think it's necessary to do the cone or LEEP. And I would also like to highly recommend that you go to get a second opinion. You might like to see a gynecologic oncologist which is a specialist in the treatment of female cancers. They know all about this kind of stuff--they are the experts in the various treatment options and surgical techniques. If you are concerned about cancer, well, they are the docs to see.

This response is not meant to frighten you in anyway, only to encourage you to get all of the information before you go into the surgery. I know of a couple of women who had to go back in to surgery a second time because they found out after the surgery was completed that there was cancer. I'm certain that it is a very rare occurence, but I wouldn't want to see that happen to you.

Please come over and see us on Cancer Concerns. You'll find lots of women there who have had their surgeries due to abnormal PAPs and cervical dysplasia/cancer, and I know they'd love to share their stories and support with you.

Good luck! Please let us know how you are getting along.

Hi JavaKat,

I also had my hyst because of dysplasia and had the colposcopy and Cone done prior to the surgery. Did your dr tell you what the pathology report showed? I agree with Jeanine that you should consider getting a second opinion from a Gyn/Oncologist.

I had mine under a General, so can't comment on the epidural but if you do a keyword search here for "epidural" you'll find a lot of threads about it.

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