Bettyboop1972,
you have been through alot.
Being scared is part of coming to terms to have a hysterectomy.
The bad news about having a hysterectomy for endo is that it isn't a guarantee that your endo won't come back.
Most doctors that remove ovaries for ladies with endo it is because they are trying to make sure you don't produce the estrogen which causes the endo to grow.
Taking hrt can also cause endo to grow as well. But there are ladies that do quite well on estrogen.
I had my ovaries removed last year when I had my tah/bso.
For me my orgams etc are better than before because I don't have the pain that I did before my hyster. It is different, but better.
I haven't had any pms.
My doctor gave me a patch after surgery, but all doctors are different. Some doctors believe you should wait to start estrogen so the remaining endo dies off. It is something you should ask your doctor prior to surgery so you can prepare.
Personally I didn't do well on estrogen. I tried the patch and pills. But, I did find what worked best for me and I have been using it for a year now.
Feel free to ask questions here we are here 24/7.
there is a forum for endo
Endo Forum