Ugh!!! I feel like I am losing my mind

The past week has been bad crying over the stupidest things and work is insane I have a very physical job lifting 50# bags all night 3rd shift and now five hours into my shift my body quits I can't stay awake even if am moving its like my body and mind has stopped functioning is this normal I can't deal with this much longer my surgery is schuedled for 3/26/12 TAH BOS don't know what too do any advice please help me I am losing it

i work 3rd shift also and am scheduled for the 26th, am also on 12 hour shifts, i had 1 night last week that i honestly thought i could not go anymore and was gonna have a nervous breakdown but have been fine ever since, i think i was really just exhausted so it mad my emotions kick into overdrive, dont know if i can offer much advice other than try to get more rest, i try but it just does not work, not nearly enough hours in the day and know that u are not alone, hope it gets better for you, i have started counting down the days and am getting a little ansty, so ready to get thus over with and move on!

SS, I know how you feel every time i write the date i think in my head oh dang another day closer its always on my mind and resting is like a joke cant sleep but yet i am excusted. my emotions are all over my poor DH has been so wonderful about it but i feel that its not fair too him to have to deal with it. he has so much going on in his own life and i feel i am just adding to his burden. i would love to keep in contact with you as we will both be going to the castle on the same day maybe provide the much needed support we will be sure too need if you dont mind sharing what type are they doing on you thanks for listening to me rant lol hope to here back from you good luck will keep you in my prayers

i am having ralh, taking cervix and uterus, hoping to keep my ovaries but will have to wait and c once they get in there, i currently have a cyst on each ovary but dont seem to think its anything to worry about

I have already had one overy removed because the cyst was so big that it twisted ugh I hope everything goes ok and you can keep that would be great

I hear you, Dreamer - I work a very demanding physical and mental job (pharma - I make drugs, basically) and my hours are all over the place. I work anywhere from 10-15 hours/day and this last couple of weeks I am a mess. Sleeping as much as possible, but even then, brain fog due to pain and extreme fatigue along with constant bleeding...and cramps. And you know there are so many men where I work that they can't really relate and roll the eyes, you know, it's just a girl thing to them. By the end of the night, I can't formulate a coherent thought and I used to be the one wanting to stay all night and get it done, you know? Now, I just want OUT. Of course, comments have been made about my performance, which is completely unfair because they know about my condition and they know I'm having major surgery next week...blah...and they just keep piling it on, hoping I can train a person in one week to do what has taken me years to learn. Really?! Ha! I don't trust myself at all and that scares me even more. And frankly, my employer simply doesn't care. Real nice. So much for long-term employee commitment, huhM It's amazing how quickly they forget how I stepped up over and over in the past 5 years just because for the last couple of weeks I am really sick and they need to meet their fiscal year-end quotas...guess I at least know how undervalued I am, if nothing else.

Okay...so...my advice? Live for YOU. Forget them. Do what YOU need to do and the rest will fall into place. Remember that when YOU need something, don't count on them. And get some rest and count down the days to a newer and healthier you. And hey! Maybe you'll feel SO much better about yourself that you'll decide that YOU don't need THEM...and you'll feel confident enough to move on. After all, they shouldn't be expecting so much from you when you are so obviously tired and in pain.

Wish you only the best. You will get through this. So will I. We MUST. Peace.

I totally understand where you are coming from. I work 2 jobs so I work 6 days a week/15 hrs daily. The last couple of weeks before my surgery I was not sure if I was going to make it to surgery. I was just so exhausted. I think it's kind of common. It's like you've been strong so long and you can see an end in sight so you just kind of go into slow motion.
I am a week past my surgery and I feel loads better. There is hope on the other side.