I'll be on the table in a few hours

I have to be at the hospital at 5:30AM. I cannot sleep, feel nautious due to only clear liquids today and I'm sure nerves. My bag is packed & after tomorrow I will never be the same again.

I have been hoping the overwhelming sadness would lighten up, but it hasn't. I hoped that I could find some peace, but I have not. I have looked for the silver lining, but can't find it. I am not a whiny person, but so feel like I have become one. I am not comfortable in my own skin right now.

I am trying my best to get through this with poise and grace, but I fear I am not doing the best job. I feel like I need to apologize for being sad and uncomfortable. I really tried to find an excuse to cancel, I tried very hard.

I truly feel for everyone here now, those that have been here before, and those that will be here. Betrayal by your own body is just wrong on so many levels. My journey has just begun and the road looks very long. I stand in faith knowing I am where I need to be and there is a purpose for the events of today.

Peace, love, and happiness to all.

Good

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Originally Posted by DeniseUSF I have to be at the hospital at 5:30AM. I cannot sleep, feel nautious due to only clear liquids today and I'm sure nerves. My bag is packed & after tomorrow I will never be the same again. I have been hoping the overwhelming sadness would lighten up, but it hasn't. I hoped that I could find some peace, but I have not. I have looked for the silver lining, but can't find it. I am not a whiny person, but so feel like I have become one. I am not comfortable in my own skin right now. I am trying my best to get through this with poise and grace, but I fear I am not doing the best job. I feel like I need to apologize for being sad and uncomfortable. I really tried to find an excuse to cancel, I tried very hard. I truly feel for everyone here now, those that have been here before, and those that will be here. Betrayal by your own body is just wrong on so many levels. My journey has just begun and the road looks very long. I stand in faith knowing I am where I need to be and there is a purpose for the events of today. Peace, love, and happiness to all. Good

I wish you good luck and hope all goes well. I haven't been able to sleep and Im just worried about having to schedule My surgery tomorrow; i can only imagine how you feel. Just remember, You're not alone and eventhough our situations are different, as a woman i can understand your pain and Im here for you to talk to. Take care.

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Originally Posted by DeniseUSF I have to be at the hospital at 5:30AM. I cannot sleep, feel nautious due to only clear liquids today and I'm sure nerves. My bag is packed & after tomorrow I will never be the same again. I have been hoping the overwhelming sadness would lighten up, but it hasn't. I hoped that I could find some peace, but I have not. I have looked for the silver lining, but can't find it. I am not a whiny person, but so feel like I have become one. I am not comfortable in my own skin right now. I am trying my best to get through this with poise and grace, but I fear I am not doing the best job. I feel like I need to apologize for being sad and uncomfortable. I really tried to find an excuse to cancel, I tried very hard. I truly feel for everyone here now, those that have been here before, and those that will be here. Betrayal by your own body is just wrong on so many levels. My journey has just begun and the road looks very long. I stand in faith knowing I am where I need to be and there is a purpose for the events of today. Peace, love, and happiness to all. Good

Sending prayers and peace your way

Sending prayers your way.

DeniseUSF,
I hope you did well during your surgery today. My prayers and best wishes are with you. My you feel little pain and have a speedy recovery. God be with you and let us know how you are doing.
Hugs,
Over the Moon