Here it comes... Am I doing the right thing?

Ms. Second Guess Here.

O.k., TAH is scheduled for Tuesday. I am trying not to think about it, and have been successful so far, but now it's hitting me.

After 5 months of seeing SO MANY doctors of every aspect, I am still second guessing, what is up with that?

I saw....
Four gynecologists
Three oncologists
Two biopsies..
AND The PARTRIDGE IN A PEAR TREE........A D&C

Oh Man! Shut me up!! I can't find anything to rhyme with "in vitro fertilization specialist", and I promise not to break into "All I want for Christmas is just two eggs free."

What will happen when I get morphine... I am going to be so embarassed.

Anyway, I originally was going to get the TAH for atypical complex hyperplasia and a big fibroid (from a family of five,
ON Dancer, on Prancer..etc). I was scared to death I would develop cancer.

I talked to the gynecology oncology doctor today who actually read my slides, and he said the first determination was all wrong, that he doesn't think I have cancer, etc, and the decision to do this is in the gray area, up to me.

I hate gray.... I wanted to have kids, yet they told me I'm probably too old (only a 5% chance).

The fibroids are making me miserable, yet the finality of all of this is just shaken me to the core. I can't wait any longer to decide, this has gone on since May.

I even talked to a counselor and she was like 'You already told me all your reasons for doing this last week", so why am I feeling this way? Is this normal?

It's now or never, I can't keep going in circles like this. And you know, even if it's not cancer, and I hope not, I have this feeling that something is amiss in there, and if I don't do it now, I will be in for a bunch of trouble down the road.

Any good thoughts to calm me would be greatly appreciated!

jgtalk,

Everyone 2nd guesses this decision I'm sure. I'm 10 days post-op from my TAH. I can say that I rethought this decision many times, but then asked myself this......how many women had I heard say "I wish I'd never had a TAH"? The answer is NONE. How many women had I heard say "My TAH was the best decision I ever made". The answer is thousands! I based my decision on that. I knew it had to be a good choice for me to get all this nasty stuff out of my body so I can reclaim my life. Yes, the first 5 days were not fun, had to have DH get me out of bed, put on my pants, put on my socks, but that passes. Now at Day 10, I feel great and am forgetting I have to still be careful. Remember, it's a small price to pay to feel better and be healthier.

jgtalk,

All you can do is make an informed decision to the best of your knowledge.
Sounds like you are VERY informed, have tried everything else, and like you indeed may be facing serious problems right now OR down the road.
It's better to err on the side of caution...

My goes out to you!! tw

I have been struggling with the same thing for the last year and the complex hyperplasia still shows it ugly head after all the hormones I had been taken. At one point they made everything go away, even the atypia. My hysterectomy is scheduled for Dec 28 but need to reschedule it for middle of January when I will have more help. I also waited so long just in case I have that final pregnancy... which never happened. It is hard to make that permanent decision but sometimes our uterus makes the decision for us. I too have heard positive feedback post hysterectomy and I send you best wishes.