freaking out again!

I am sooooo freaked out today! I have not slept in two days now and I am hurting and bleeding and I just DONT feel good! I feel like such a big baby! I want to sit down and just cry! Mybe I would feel better if I did? I am so scared too much to do and not enough time or energy to do it I cant clean house I start hurting and bleeding and bills WOW! Im a single mom and its going to just kill me to have to be off work that long I have a wonderful BF who said no matter what he would make sure I had nothing to worry about financially but I cant help it I hate to think of him payng bills for me.. Anyone else here in the same boat?? Plus Im afraid of being alone when I get home. Everyone will have to work and kids will be at school HELP!!!!!!!!! Nervous breakdown here I come! lol if its not already here!
well Im gonna try to lay down maybe I will fall asleep if not I will be back to cry and whine some more! Im being such a baby!

lucybear,
I am sorry that you feel like you're being a baby......you are not! You are going through a very difficult time right now, this type of surgery is nothing to . We all are having a hard time dealing with this, but we can always lean on each other. I am glad your BF is there for you emtionally (and financially), I would not want you to have to deal with this alone especially since you have kids to handle as well.
Cry when you need to...and please know that we cry with you as well. No matter how long some of us have waited for the pain to end or how short the wait is for others; we all hurt emotionally from this decision....but we all come here. And please know that it will all be over soon and I'll be praying for you.

Huuuuuuuuuugs u little darling. This is a really scary time for us so we're allowed to cry and grieve and feel sorry for ourselves. I do daily!!! Thank God u have an understanding BF. If he volunteers to help financially, let him please! Kids? How old are they? They may NOT understand as they're used to their mum being strong and healthy, so it may be extra hard on them : ( which will be hard on u darling. Do u have a phone near your bed or a mobile you can wear around your neck so it's with u constantly? So if u get really worried u can phone someone or even just arrange to text someone a message 3 times a day to say u're ok - that's what I did last year when I broke my ankle, it helped. In Australia if u ask the dr for Acute Care for when u get home from hospital they arrange (low cost) visits from nurses etc. I had a free cleaner last year when I broke my ankle for 6 weeks! Ask around, check with community care groups etc and see what's available and ask your dr. We will be invalids and we DO have to take it easy after the op. Though, we will recover and be stronger than ever!!!! No more pain and gigantic periods. I cry often at the thought of my op approaching - u r not alone - huuuuuugs. My loving thoughts and prayers are for u and your loved ones. When my time comes I will be thinking of all the lovely ladies who are going through what I will be going through. Thank God for this site!

Thank you so much for understanding. I just grrrrrrrr guess I am way overtired I wish I could stay home today and sleep! I have to run to the dr this morning then off to work another 9 hour day if I make it Hope you all have a wonderful day
hugzz
melissa

Hang in there! You are not being a baby, you are going through alot. You let that BF of yours help, what a guy! Sending you lots of hugs and prayers!