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06-19-2003, 12:44 PM
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Hyster Sister
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Hysterectomy: July 30th, 2003
Surgery Type: SAH
Ovaries: Removed both
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Feeling Hopeless
Just got off the phone with the message center for my doctors office. I am feeling like I am never going to have a date and this will go on forever. When I talked to the doctor on Monday Night he was all gung ho about getting me scheduled asap, just had to see which hospital he could get me into the fastest. I called late Tuesday and the nurse I talked to was rude, never asking my name or medical record number to see if any note had been made in my chart as to this. So now two more days have passed and I call to talk to someone and Dr left the office for the day at 11am this morning and is gone till the 27th of June. I left a message for the nurse to call me and to see if he was able to schedule. I have so much to do once the date has been set, Arrangements have to be made for my 3 yr old and my husband has to request his vacation time and all the other pre-op things that have to be done. I am feeling hopeless and so depressed that this is dragging on and on. Always something else, another delay, I am just so tired of the uncertainty of all this. Some months bleeding like there is no tomorrow, flooding if I move an inch and then so far this month nothing I'm 5 days past due, all the pain and emotions that go with it just no bleeding( not since the endometrial biopsy). I dont know what to expect, I could all of a sudden flood out of nowhere. I am tired all the time and just want to be "normal" and feel good again. Goodness here I go with the tears, what is wrong with me? I know I have a good doctor but this waiting is killing me, does that sound stupid? I just want to be able to enjoy my life again. Grumble groan, the doctors office just called, he left her a note that said he is out of town till next friday, that he will let her know what date then. I'll be a wreck by then. I am sorry, I guess, hormones and lack of sleep are getting the best of me.
Thanks for being here for me to vent to.
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