back for the doctor again

well my hysterectomy was 6-3-03 and rectocele, and enterocele surgery was four weeks ago ........and now the doctor tells me that i am to be on light duty for another three months........that means not being able to hold my two grandbabies that are a year old and dont understand.......just breaks my heart and i am just upset and seem to be at a stand still with all this surgery and seem to cry all the time now.......yes i have family but it is like i just dont understand why this has to happen to me ........i had a second job lined up to start just before i had the rectocele, and enterocele surgery and now i have to tell them sorry and let some bills go on top of that.........i guess what i am asking has anyone out there had this happen to them? also no sleep ........doctor is putting me on a sleeping pills starting tonight for a month she said after all i have been through that i need some good sleep and i am just a wreak at this point.........any advice? oh yeah i went to work just five days after this last surgery ...........money is tight .........

I understand how you feel. It is really hard to deal with illness or recovery when it becomes a chronic situation. It feels like you are not making any progress and somehow you think you should have better control of the situation. When I have been faced on many occasions with long term illness and slow recovery I have often wondered, Why me? I have had to tell myself that I didn't ask for this and that I will have to settle down and give my body the time it needs. The more upset I become the worse I feel and the longer it takes to recover. The word resiliant no longer exists in my vocablulary. I have to admit that I am different than most people when it comes to health and accept that it is only one part of my life, although it seems to consume so much of my energy. I have to count my many other blessings and realize that this too shall pass. I am sorry that you are facing more recovery time. I am also on sleeping pills. (Restoril) They have made life bareable. I am getting a good nights rest and this makes a big difference in my overall emotional well being. Hopefully you will find that with rest you will feel less overwhelmed. Good luck and let your body do what it needs to for your complete recovery.

I'm sorry things aren't going well for you. Your body does need rest and that will make everything seem worse when one is tired. It does take time to heal from these surgeries and we all heal differently.

I hope you rest and heal properly so you can do the things that are so important to you and your family.