The Date is Set - All of the sickness and Death around me.....YIKES

Hello....

Well I must say that I am scared. Typically, with surgery (my last one was 1.5 years ago)...I was a little scared but this time is much different. I simply feel I just need to sound off and get this stuff off of my chest and vent.

My date is set for May 25th. for a total hyst. (Sorry I don't know the short terms ladies). Ovarian Cysts, Chocolate Cysts, Endro, Etropic Cervix, Fibroids.

I am scared that I am going to die or something really bad is going to happen. I believe all of this (sometimes intense) fear is due to other events happening in my life. Forgive me if I ramble. Let me give you a run down.

1. My Son went into short term for major Depression...
2. My Cat got extreamly sick and had to have surgery...
3. My Dog got sick and now is on medicine for the rest of his life...
4. My Grandfather had a major Kidney Infection and a stroke which landed him in the hospital for over a week...
5. I have had my 2 prized Angel Fish Die on me...
6. My Father In Law is in the ICU as I type this with conjestive Heart Failure....he is hanging in there...but much stress.
7. I found my husband was having an Emotional Affair with Women on the Classifieds ads. And our Marriage is not very stable right now.
8. My sister's dog had to be put to sleep.

All of this on top of running my own company, three kids, etc....WHOA!!!!....All of this within the last 2 months.

With the time nearing, I want so badly to have some time to relax and not be consumed in this unavoidable position. I feel that I am thinking too much into the above events but don't know how to relax on them. I get depressed. I am now getting massive migraines....I just finished my last period which was extreamly painful and kept me in bed. I blew a cyst this time that landed me in the hospital for 1/2 day.

I simply need perspective.... with all of the grief, worry, etc...I start to worry about the hyst surgery, the recovery and if all this is going to make it worst on me. I am worried about who I will be after the hyst. I worry about hormones... and if I will have a stoke, clots, etc. I am also trying my hardest to stop smoking.

Things I have done is slow my business down.
Rest
Pray
Focus on the good that will come out of the hyst. I have heard great things and bad as well. I am trying to focus on getting through the hyst, wake up and hopefully feel good again about myself. That I won't be sick any more, I won't feel pain all of the time.

I sincerely know that some of those above items are trivial. I know that I a freaking out. It weighs on what I should do....smack myself and snap out of it???? I am an extreamly strong lady. But weak in this moment. I want to feel good about going into surgery....

Sincere thanks for letting me sound off...

Tami

Wow! That is a whole lot. After all of that, the surgery should be a breeze. Think of it as a vacation. Whenever anyone bugs you, you can pull out the "I just had surgery card".
There is no way to tell if any of those post op complications will happen. However, find a good dr. and he/she will not do any surgery unless your body can handle it. Plus, a good dr. will be there to handle post-op complications. With all the female problems you have had, this surgery could end any future problems. I certainly pray that it does.
It won't cure the pet, husband, sick relatives and job stress problems but it will make you feel better physcially, so you can handle of those better.
You need to find several someone's to help you out. For three weeks, at least, give yourself a break. Even if you have to pay several someone's, you deserve a recovery vacation.
Good luck with everything and God bless.
Tam

Tami,
I was so afraid to go in for my surgery! I just knew I would die and who would take care of my DH and DS's. I talked about it with my DH and a BF. It was either hysterectomy or cancer and I really didn't want to face that, but at the same time I was terrified. There were so many people praying for me. I read alot of scripture Psalm 56:3, Psalm 121. Remember" He Who began a good work in me, is faithful to complete it." I heard that in a song on the way to church one morning before my surgery. I also was annointed and prayed for at church. I almost backed out, but my DH reminded that it wasn't an option, I needed to get better after years of pain. I am 10 weeks post-op today and I am doing great. All the pathology tests were negative. I had alot of faith in my DR also. You don't have to face this alone, your hyster-sisters are here for you. I will keep you in my prayers. Please keep us posted how you are doing. I marked your surgery date on my calendar.

(((Tami))) I am sorry that the past two months have been filled with many negative things for you and no doubt they are making you feel more uncomfortable and worried about your surgery. I am glad you are trying to help yourself by slowing down somewhat, praying, and thinking positively re your operation; please keep reminding yourself you are doing this to improve your health. While many women do not have post-op complication, if they occur these too can be treated. You still have time to better educate yourself including re possible HRT if needed.
A very major plus is that you have faith and trust in your doctor. Have you asked your doctor for something for anxiety? I will keep you in my prayers for an easy surgery and recovery and for healing for members of your family, including the furry ones.
s and blessings, peggiesue

hi, i understand the feelings youre going through, but try not to worry, put your trust in god, he will go in the operating room with you.dont be afraid!! i had a hysterectomy march 30 and i was also afraid, but i trusted god and he was right there!!

All of you are so very wonderful - Your great!

I must admit that with all that is surrounding me at this time, my faith is being tested greatly. I know and do believe that God will be there quiding my doctor.

One of the other Ladies asked if I trust my Doctor. I do. He and the hospital did such a wonderful job on my last surgery. LOL...he even said he sucked out as much of that awful GAS that he could.

I do trust him.....HOWEVER.....he did mention that he wanted to keep an ovary if possible. I am not sure if I am settled with keeping it or letting it go even if healthy. I really don't want another surgery. I have read many posts about this and find it to be a personal decision, but if I have them both removed.....then I need HRT? My grandmother had a double masectomy way way back.....and also had cysts etc.

With Breast Cancer, and Strokes which run in my family, is also a hard decision to make. I am going to be 38 this August and feel that if HRT is going to help me feel better and the risks are not that great, I should do this. At the same time, if there is no HRT what are the alternatives.

I so greatly appreciate everyone's kindness, prayers, and helping me out when I do feel alone.

Tami