19 Days post-op-feelings & questions

Hi Everyone,
I want to thank you all for this great place to come and learn and ease my fears before my operation and to find kindship afterwards.
I had a TAH w/removal of left ovary, on 4/16. I was in the hospital for 2 days. The first week was the worst since I had headaches (that sometimes turned to migraines) most of that time and had alot of pain moving at all (as you all know!). The second week, my boyfriend took the week off from work to be with me and I felt really good. We went out every day, walked alot, went to a baseball game, went out to eat. I would be tired when we got home but I still felt good, just exhausted.
Now, I am home alone as he is back at work and lives 40 miles away. I know that I probably overdid it last week, plus I know that my inside stitches are probably healing so that is why I am having a little pain this week. I am also quite depressed this week. I know it has to do with the trauma of the surgery, plus the loss that this surgery results in. It is also being alone day in and out with my mind left to dwell on things, like the children that I never had and never will have. And Mother's Day is everywhere on the tv in ads.
I lost both of my cats last year after having them with me for 13 years. I am feeling their loss all over again now.
I find myself crying uncontrollably at the drop of a hat (or less).
Is this because my hormones are adjusting and/or because of the surgery? I wonder how long I will feel this way and if I'll ever feel "normal" again. I expected to be back at work this week, at least part time, but now am wondering if I'll be able to go back before the 6 week mark.
I also get an "anxious" feeling once in a while, sometimes like my skin is crawling, other times just a jumpy, can't sit still feeling. Is the hormones and how long will THIS last? My doctor said that my right ovary is healthy so there are "plenty of hormones", so is it just the right one adjusting after the surgery?
My doctor said "nothing in the vagina" for 6 weeks, but my next appt isn't until the 7th week. Can I have sex at 6 weeks or does he have to "check me out" first?
Thanks again ladies and I apologize for this somewhat disjointed post, but I am not thinking too clearly these days!

Sybil;
I don't know whether or not I can help, but will try. I had the same kind of surgery as you, (TAH, LSO for endo ) at the end of January. I am in my late 40's so I am older than you, but some of the things we have experienced may be similar.
It is a good idea to wait until your 6 week appointment to have intercourse, as sometimes the Dr. wants you to wait an extra week or two, if they don't feel you are fully healed. I was seen at 7 weeks, and still had some stitches visible, which my Dr. thought might have been a sign of granulation ( unhealed tissue in the vaginal cuff). He asked me to wait an extra week, and we actually waited 2 more, just to be on the safe side.
I was feeling really anxious like you, as it did take a while for my one ovary to "kick in" again, and I did suffer from some depression early on (as well as sleeplessness, and other things).The depression was worse when I was left alone, and I couldn't get out much on my own. I felt better when family was around, and once I could get out of the house on my own.
I feel badly for you about the Mother's Day Media hype. It must be really difficult, and our society does need some immediate sensitivity training in this area. I can't totally relate to what you are going through, but I have endured a different kind of anguish the first several years after losing my Mom to cancer ( 5 Mother's Days without her now, and I still miss her terribly). I know it's not the same thing, but it has been painful to get through the first few years. There is a heading at the top of the post op page, asking to change the name to Daughter's and Sisters' Day. What a great idea!
I do hope that you feel better; it does get better when you can get out, or have people in to see you. In the meantime, I am sending many s your way.
Take care,


Aurora