Surgery Monday, Never so scared in my life !!!!!!

Hello, I am scheduled for surgery Monday. This will be my only other hospital visit besides the birth of my only child in 1984. I have never felt so helpless and scared before in my life. I will be having a total abdominal / BSO. I can't sleep or eat, i have so many thought about being knocked out and not waking up. All my pre op test came out fine, I lost both parents at early ages to heart attacks mother was 58 and father was 62, and can't get that thought out of my mind. I do not mean to frighten anyone, but i am just sick with worry about strokes and things like that. The only support i have is my husband, and bless his heart he just does not understand what i am worried about. He really tries to comfort me, but maybe i just worry to much. Maybe i just need to vent a little. Any encouraging thoughts will be greatly appreciated.

Dear Pealsare,

I don't believe there is an emotion your going through or a thought running through your head that hasn't gone through all, or most of ours...I understand all your feeling. I know that doesn't help to make you feel better, but I wanted to let you know your not alone. Can you talk to your gyno or your PCP about how scared you are? Maybe they can help. Just a thought.

luv, hugs & prayers,

Mich

I promise you are not alone with your feelings, I have the same story as you. I am 34, high BP, insulin res., I lost my dad at 58 and my mom at 54(last nov.) from heart problems. I am so scared that something will happen to me. My BP keeps getting really high, cuz of the stress. I can't eat or sleep. I am a bundle of nerves. I can not relax no matter what. I will say a for you. I am here if you need to talk. I totally understand about the fear of not waking up, that is my biggest fear of the whole process.
Kim

Just take it easy and just know GOD will be watching over you in your time of need. I am trying to take it easy, because I do not know when the surgery will be.
Take Care,
Jeanette

Hey pealsare,
You are far from alone, hon. It is completely normal to be experiencing the things that you are. I am having my SAH the same day as you, and I am freaking out becuase this is my first major surgey and first overnight stay in the hospital. My BP is climbing so high they are thinking of canceling my surgery.

I had general anesthesia once for a day surgery on my knee three years ago and I was having the exact same fears as you are now. I came out of it OK (obviously since I am here talking to you), and the odds are definitely on your side in a massive way that you will too.

What I want you to hear is that from the research I have done, it is VERY RARE that serious, life threatening things happen during this kind of surgery. Tel your doctor and anesthesiologist about your fears. They may be able to give you some info that will make you feel better about the surgery and anesthesia process.

If you need to vent, we are here for you. Feel free to PM me anytime if you need support. Take care and I will be thinking of you.

Many hugs,
Angela

Dear Pealsare My thoughts are with you and I am sure you will be just fine. As you said your preop tests were all good. I will keep you in my prayers but know all will be well. Callie 46

Hi Pealsare,
I too have had many worries about the surgery. I am sure we all have worries, and probably different ones. I worry more about the after, than the during. I have had a few surgeries and made it through all like a trooper. I worry about my family, and how they will cope while I am not home, and how I will cope when I am!!

Funny little story, had my preop, my dr is so wonderful. Told him I was doing the panic thing, didnt get a chance to explain and he said "There have not been any young, healthy people die here on the table in the 4 and a half years I have been here. You will be fine!" Not my worry, but it made me feel really good. However, that concerns me abit, cuz for some reason I like to defy the odds....

Take care, do something for YOU, and you alone, use imagery, meditation, and know that it is normal for you to feel this way. Take care....
Kat

Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers. I does make me feel a little better knowing i am not alone in these feelings i am having. God Bless.

Hi Pearlsare-
You are NOT alone. I am 2 weeks post-op and I felt the same way. I was so scared that I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, stayed sick to my stomach, was EXTREMELY snappy. After I accepted the surgery part, I realized I was terrified of the anesthesia. I just KNEW that they would put me to sleep and I wouldn't wake up. Well, obviously this was not the case.

Think about all the people who have surgery on any given day. And then think of all of us here, who have gone before. If it were that bad, the dr.s would be picking us off right and left LOL!
Seriously- I know it's hard to lose the fear. I was scared right up untl they gave me the "happy drugs" to relax me before they took me in. Then I went to sleep because I hadn't slept the night before. So I made their job easier LOL.

You will be FINE. All of you will. If you'd like, you can pm me to talk. I wish you all the best and i hope you can come to some peace of mind.

Blessings-
Amber

Hi Pearlsare
I know what your going through, my surgery is this Friday and I'm scared to death also. I just talked to the anesthesoligist yesterday and I know it's their job to tell you the risk but it dosen't help calm you down. Just remember there are chances with everything but we can't let it rule our lives. You will be fine as I will be fine. I think my husband is just about as nervous as I am so I'm trying to stay tough for him so he dosen't see how nervous I am. I'll be looking forward to reading your castle story.
Mitzylew