I know I am doing the right thing for me by having a tvh but...
I do not know how I am going to feel when I see the best wishes pop up.
The last 5 days I have been in excruciating pain (had to call DR for pain meds because noting OTC was even touching the pain)and have been very PMS'y. So far I have kept my fears at bay and my sanity intact.
I am just afraid I am going to forget to do something that needs done before hand. When my surgery was a month away - it seemed so far. Now I know it is right around the corner and I am getting very nervous.
At times I don't feel like eating, I get very quiet (very unusual for me
) and don't want anyone around (even DH and 2 DS). When I and like this, when I get home at night from work, I don't want to fix dinner - I just want to lay down by myself and relax without any interruptions. I know my DH @ DS's don't understand but I don't know how to stop. I am afraid at these times that if I stay out in the other room with them, I am just going to break down at times and cry for no reason at all and scare the bejeves out of my kids.
But then other times I just feel like doing a happy dance because I only have a few more days!
Anyone else feeling like this or am I just being silly?
Sorry this is so long!!! Just needed to get it off of my chest I guess and see if this is normal or just my confused self showing her bad side!