Scared but excited to se the best wishes for 9/29

I know I am doing the right thing for me by having a tvh but...

I do not know how I am going to feel when I see the best wishes pop up.

The last 5 days I have been in excruciating pain (had to call DR for pain meds because noting OTC was even touching the pain)and have been very PMS'y. So far I have kept my fears at bay and my sanity intact.

I am just afraid I am going to forget to do something that needs done before hand. When my surgery was a month away - it seemed so far. Now I know it is right around the corner and I am getting very nervous.

At times I don't feel like eating, I get very quiet (very unusual for me ) and don't want anyone around (even DH and 2 DS). When I and like this, when I get home at night from work, I don't want to fix dinner - I just want to lay down by myself and relax without any interruptions. I know my DH @ DS's don't understand but I don't know how to stop. I am afraid at these times that if I stay out in the other room with them, I am just going to break down at times and cry for no reason at all and scare the bejeves out of my kids.

But then other times I just feel like doing a happy dance because I only have a few more days!

Anyone else feeling like this or am I just being silly?

Sorry this is so long!!! Just needed to get it off of my chest I guess and see if this is normal or just my confused self showing her bad side!

i think that any way you feel before surgery is NORMAL! my LAVH is 3 wks from today and i'm ecstatic, terrified, weepy, on and on. just let it flow, girl. let those feelings out wherever and whenever they happy. the kids will adjust! best of luck, hugs and prayers are being sent your way!