I am starting to feel better

Hello sisters
I am finally starting to feel more normal, than previous months. Going off of the zoloft cold turkey made me feel all moody and depressed again. I have been on the lexapro for 10 days now and those headaches from the withdrawal are finally about gone. I do not recommend any of you on antidepressants to ever just quit taking them. I have learnt my lesson.I need to quit being so stubborn.
Since being back to work from my gallbladder surgery I am finally feeling more like my old self. I am having a good time(except for the hemorrhoid issue) and enjoying being around my friends again. I really have missed them this summer.I feel like I can put the bad feelings about the hyst. behind me now. I didn't get any choices about it, but I realize my dr. had to act quickly and didn't thinik about asking me about how I felt about losing my cervix. I could have kept it, because it was in good shape. This has made me mad for a long time, but am ok with it now. It isn't like I can grow a new one. I still think the world of my dr., because he saved my life!He really is the best dr. I ever had.
I have taken the advice of my dr. and his asst. to heart. I have been talking to a psychologist at work about my issues. It has helped alot. I am ready to move on as soon as I get this hiney thing taken care of. Three surgeries in 6 months or less is just a little too much to have to go through!
I am finally posting a positive thread. That is a step forward for me.

take care all of my sisters
Peggy

Hi Peggy,
I am so glad to hear you are feeling better. That is wonderful!! Your new life has officially begun and it can only go up. I will be praying for peaceful days for you, and happiness, all the happiness you deserve!! I am sending you the biggest cyber hugs, and much love....Take care!!
Kat

mtdewpeg,
Its hard to move forward. I've had 3 surgies in one year, two were only a month apart. Its SO HARD to feel like yourself again. and you have angry feelings. I know I've been there and still there a little bit. I want to put all this behind me to and get my life back. You get so mad at your body for all this happening- you think is my body every going to work right, not one more problem!
But tell yourself that it WILL.
Talked to a nurse midwife who was just *awful*. She said that HORMONES DON'T CONTROL US AND YOU NEED COUNSELING" Apparently the surgies,my last injury of pulled ligamnets plus perimenpause should have no bearing on how I should be feeling according to her.
You have to put people like her behind you. I still need to feel better with the ligaments. Pulled ligaments hurt worser than pulled muscles . It willtake 4-6 months. I read a post from a KIm M. that it can take months to balance your hormones. I think that will be my case.
I should be feeling good but I am working at it. First step change the attitude. You have the ability to pull yourself up.

You've taken the first step. I've taken a baby first step.
I said that I would start subbing again to get my mind off of my body. I will limit the days and hopefully meet with success. I 've got to move on if you know what I mean. Hope my body catches up with my mind soon. I pray that nurse midwife gains some compassion in her life.

Amar
I really don't understand why some people choose to work in the medical field. I've met a few in my lifetime who don't know how to show compassion and give support. They must only be in it for the money. Where did your midwife get the idea that hormones don't play into it? What rock did she come out from under?
I have been fortunate to have a very good gyn and his asst., Vicky, has always been so nice. They tried to give me suggestions on how to get my life back, but until I was ready to do it for myself there suggestions seemed unreal to me. I didn't want to accept the fact that I was still depressed and needed to be back on anti"s and needed some counseling too. My GP even suggested counseling last week when I was in his office. I decided to do it for me and talked to Dr. D at work. He is so nice and made me feel worthy again. He pointed out all of my good characteristics and made me feel better about myself. I never realized how much I meant to my mentally impaired clients and to the staff. I decided to count my blessings and try to get on with my new life.I am in real good health(except the hemmies! Ha Ha) and can now do things that I wasn't able to for so long. I need to take advantage of my health and start enjoying life again. I think I almost forgot how!
I hope you feel better soon. Isn't it hard to allow yourself to feel better when you've had several surgeries so close together and fear something else will go wrong? that is how I have been feeling. I hadn't had any surgery in the last 13 years and that was my last c section. I went so long with terrible periods that it wore me down physically and emotionally. I plan on taking care of my health for now on.

take care and good luck
Peggy

Hi Peggy,

It's your country neighbor down the road...I've been wondering how you have been doing. You have been through SO much! It is good to hear that things are getting better for you!

Smiles and good wishes-
Deb

Dear Peggy,
I'm so glad you are feeling so much better..you deserve to feel better after all that you have been thru! I will always keep you close to heart and in my prayers...
s
Debbie