tentaive hospital date - 11 FEB. 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks to all your help and support, I am with Dr. 4 now who has agreed to give me an hysterectomy!!!!!!!!!! I am still so overjoyed - I cannot believe it! But, I cannot quite enjoy it either as I do not know what procedure wil be done and how. At first he said if does an hysterectomy, he only does the whole thing. I expressed deep concern overing losing ovaries at 34 years old and we have agreed that he will leave the ovaries barring any gross pathology (endometriosis, tumors, cysts). I trust him and know he will use good judgement while he is in there (he has operated on me in the past). But it does not change the fact that I do not how to prepare, physically or mentally... And my husband is really worried...
I have a "Pre-surgical consult"appointment with Dr. 4 on wednesday, at which time I am hoping they will confirm my tentative hospital date - 11 FEB. 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - My husband will come with me to this appt. and I will even request that the Dr. 4 spend a few minutes alone with him so DH can freely adress his concerns. I am sure we will arrive at some more solid conclusions about the surgery so I can prepare. I have read this site all day, for one!
The concerns are: My husbands mother had TAH/BSO and he claims that she was never the same afterward (but will not specify, also complaining about her before surgery but not describing the difference... which is making me cancel out out this concern altogether and chalk it up to familial dysfunction). So, he is scared that the "same" (undescribed) thing will happen to me.
I have accepted the fact that Dr. 4 might have to remove the ovaries because I know he will only do so if it is medically warranted. That said, I am deathly afraid of HRT! I have had so many problems all my life with this gyn thing and if the ovaries go - it will just be the beginning of an whole new gyn thing! And not the triumphant end to the reign of terror I have dreamed of.
Does my m-i-l need to come up and help me? The hospital is an hour and half away (in Baltimore) - if it TAH rather than LAVH that will make a big ifference... and how long will I be in the hospital? becasue my husband wil have to commute everyday that I am in there... I suppose I wil have more of an idea on wednesday.
Also, cervix or not? I sort of relish the idea of never having a pap smear again... but this question of sex and orgasm is weighing on my mind. Not only am I 34 year old newlywed (only four months) but my husband just turned 27! We are both very converned about this - we have not even had a honeymoon yet!
I tend to agree with Dr. 4 - why not make the whole thing worth it and just get rid of every last crummy bit? But I am from the ain't-broke-don't-fix-it school.. but I am also from the why-do-it-over-when-you-can-get-it-right-once school, too.
I had such difficulty with BCP (birth control pills) and medroxyprogesterone did nothing for me - I am so worried I will be a top contender for the most posts on Hormone Jungle! Does that history mean I will have difficulty with HRT?
I did not know that I have PMS - but after reading the description, I DO! So, removing the ovaries will really help. Would removing one and keeping the other help?
And then what if I do wake up and I have the ovaries? Then I still have my period without blood to deal with - which I think is enough help for me - but the PMS is getting worse... Maybe ovaries in and progesterone therapy after supracervical hyster?
I have no idea, I am so confused now. I am looking forward to talking to Dr. 4 on wednesday but I thought I would just get this out there for you all who have been there to help me... Thanks!
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