I feel trapped on so many levels...like I have no control over my life anymore!

Well, gals, I did it today! Gave notice for next Friday and you know what? My supervisor was totally supportive, though she said she hated to lose me. Implied that they hope I get back to them end of summer and come back. I just might, on a part-time basis.

Anyway, the worst is over and I am finding that a whole lot of people are supportive and certainly understand why I am doing it (most are older that work with me). I feel sort of "enraptured", thinking I might get to finally rest and properly heal.

Yes, I have 2 Bichons! They are my little dogs!

Deb < Things are lookin' up!

I have been gone 2 weeks today from a job that I had for 10 years. My body is just beginning to unwind from the stress. I feel like I have escaped from a prison and that the guards are going to come and take me back...I am having dreams like that...that I have to return there, against my will. Not to dramatize, but I think I actually have a little "mini PTSD", that's how bad it was.

No good-byes, no "good luck", no "we'll miss you". Nothing. Out of curiousity I checked to see if my voicemail had been turned off and it has not. They are still leaving me personal messages for work assignments, as if I am still working there! (that is how chaotic and impersonal it all is there). What a horrible, horrible place. I really can't let my mind go back there to ponder it all...it is too unpleasant!

Girls, I am SO happy! I cannot find words to express how wonderful it feels to be free to face a better future. For the next few months I plan to rest and dream and plan what I want to do next with my life. Right now I just want to rest, play, read, sleep, and have no agendas! (maybe a little golf!)

I have enough to get by for quite a few months...God has been so good...things have opened up and obstacles have fallen away as all this has happened. I am grateful beyond words.

Just wanted to let you all know that I am finally free and totally content...and amazingly, I am not fearful for my future. I believe it will unfold naturally if I continue to follow my heart...

Thanks...and love to you all for your support!

Deb



"wastin' away in Margaritaville...."