Date changed, emotional, and feeling sorry for myself

I have read several posts below and, although I am sad and sorry that others are feeling this way, I am glad to know that I am not the ONLY one who is. I have been very emotional for a couple of weeks now. Probably because I am in day 11 of a bad, bad period and hurting constantly. My friends know what is going on with me but I try not to say too much or complain to them too much because sometimes I think they look at me like, "Oh, come on. It can't be THAT bad!" when I am hurting so bad I can hardly breathe. Then, I end up feeling alone and even more emotional.

Yesterday, my emotions hit a wall when my nurse called to tell me that my Dr was going to be out of state speaking at a seminar on the date that my surgery was scheduled. I know my Dr goes all over the country giving lectures at med schools, seminars, etc, but I was still upset. I was only postponed three days but after I hung up the phone, I burst into tears and was fighting them all day long. I finally decided that I would rather have Dr "In-demand" than Dr "My-Schedule-Is-Wide-Open-All-The-Time" doing surgery on me. After considering everything, this date actually works out better for me and my Pillow-Patrol anyway.

I am typing this long post because I feel like this is the only place where someone really understands what I feel, how I hurt, why I am so emotional, and why this is almost all I can think about right now. I never knew this kind of thing could feel like such a lonesome journey out here in the real world. I am thankful that I DO have so many loving friends and I am thankful for Hyster-Sisters.
Thanks for 'listening,'
Key

Hey KeyLime,

I am sorry you are felling so bad. About the only thing I keep holding on to is that after this is all said and done and I have recovered I will feel better. No more pain and no more bleeding!
My surgery is tomorrow and I am getting knots in my tummy. But, I know this has to be done.

You hang in there!

Love, WendyThePooh

Wendy, good luck to you tomorrow and I will be thinking and praying about you.
Key, I know what you mean. My date was set for the 21st. I went to my doc's office on Monday for her pre-op and she told me that she was going to have to reschedule it due to a death in her family. I started tearing up. I thought that I wanted more time since it had gotten so close but now I just want it over with so I can be recuperating and get back to work. I've been off from work since 3-23. Started out with flu like symptons then I had no energy to walk through house. Never found out what that was but that was how they found all these things living in my uterus... I knew my periods hurt me , they have done that since I have had them. I didn't have any idea that one reason I have felt so bad for the past year is due to fibroids. I will be glad to have them taken care of. And YAY!!! NO MORE PERIODS!!. I will, however, go through sudden menopause and have to be on hormones for awhile. Every good thing has a bad one attached to it I suppose. Good luck on your surgery and may God be with all of us LIW's.....
Have a blessed day.

Keylime:

I have to agree with your statement that Dr. in demand is better. Hang in there. It will be over soon.

Trish

Keylime,
I too know exactly how you feel! My surgery was suppose to be March 21st and I had an infection and it got canceled. I was not given a new date because my doctor who is also in great demand went on vacation. I still don't have a new date. I was so dispondent for several days that I could bearly talk to anyone but slowly I came out of it and resigned myself to the fact that it will happen it just won't be when I orignially thought. I also agree with you that having a doctor in demand is a good thing. I am suppose to see my surgeon on May 2 and I hope to get a new surgery date then

I hope everything goes well with you !
Debbie