Hi Missie and welcome to the Jungle
This surely can be a challenging journey.
It's a lot to deal with physically, hormonally and emotionally, and takes time to heal and find balance again.
Here is a link that might be helpful to read as it provides some excellent menopause information, including a menopause symptom list, hormone/no hormone choices, supplements, etc.
Regarding the emotional aspects that you are experiencing, it's very normal. There is a finality that comes with this surgery, and with that a grieving process. You might also want to check out the Aching Hearts
forum where you will find discussions and support from other HysterSisters who are experiencing similar feelings.
Let us know what you and your doctor decide re: hormone replacement, and if you have further questions.
I am sending healing