anyone else on an emotional/physical rollercoaster?

I just got off the phone with my boss who last week told me he did not think they would have any work for me to return to and so my mind has been dealing with that possibility and I really don't feel up to returning yet anyway so was a bit relieved. Well today he says he has more work than he can handle and can't wait for me to come back! I go to the doctor on Friday for my 6 week check up and I'm 99% sure he will release me to return to work on June 13th. I get tired so easily the past week or so, so I'm going to request I only go back 1/2 days for the first week. Also, my eyes don't seem to be what they were prior to surgery, they get tired easily and my job involves drawing on a computer, I'm an engineer.

Anyone else go through these ups and down prior to going back to work? is it all just in my head, fears of returning? I find myself just spacing out the past few days, kind of like I'm in a fog or something? I almost feel emotionally numb some of the time.

Any thoughts and/or experience would be greatly appreciated.

I think it's normal to have all those strange feelings. Our bodies have been through a major ordeal and we are healing both emotionally and physically. Try to think positive and your body will definitely let you know if your are overdoing. Take it easy when you return to work and continue to take care of yourself! You will feel better every week. I am 14 wks post op, and I feel soooo much better than I did last week. Good luck!

I am almost 2 weeks post-op (gosh it has flown by so far) and I just started the emotional roller coaster a few days ago. I was sleeping great and now I can't sleep at all. I have some things going on at home too making my problems worse. Last night I was up at midnight crying my eyes out. My husband isn't supportive at all. My kids are loving but little leaches. lol (I wouldn't change having them for the world. I do love with a lot) I am also so tired but yet all of a sudden I can't sleep. I feel like running away and screaming.

Thanks Jackie, it is nice to know this is normal! I told my boss that I would be coming back part time for the first week or so, 1/2 days and he did not have a problem with this. I will be sure to tell my DH that I will need his help more than ever when returning to work.

In the past week or so all my support has kind of disappeared. It seems that everyone thinks once you do something normal, like cook, laundry, etc. everyone thinks your fine and don't need them anymore; they have all just disappeared. Guess I need to get on the phone and ask for help again.

jersey032971, my goodness I can't remember much at 2 weeks, I was still taking Darvocet and doing a lot of sleeping. I have recently found that I'm so tired and yet when I lay down to sleep I can't go to sleep, insomnia. My DH decided once I started doing things again around the house he no longer needed to. How old are your kids? can they help you out at all? sounds like you have a lot going on and this is a great place to talk about it!

Thanks Ladies! s

Just would like to add that I think the sleep patterns are also a normal reaction. I had the exact same problem for quite awhile. In fact, up until I returned to work at 7 1/2 wks. I was sleeping very little. Once I went back to work and got on somewhat of a schedule again, my sleep habits did improve. I have found that even now I have problems with sleep sometimes (not very often, though). Hang in there ya'll. Things do get better with time, and you always have support here on this site. Take care!

I am already wishing I had all summer off instead of just 6 or 7 weeks, I am loving my time off!!
I agree also once you start looking normal and resuming some activities, people tend to think you are fine and don't need help. My husband has continued to help me though. His family was calling me every day right after and I showed up at the memorial day picnic 1 and a half weeks post of and everyone said how good I looked, and my mom in law called me the other day and asked if I was all back to normal now. I haven't heard from the other people much. My friends are still calling to see how I am though.
Hang in there and don't forget to ask for help when you need it. Try explaining that you are NOT back to normal and still need help because you are definetly still healing. Tiffany

I am on a rollercoaster too. I had my surgery on 5/25 and I have some sleepness nights and crying fits as well. I have lots going on at home which hasn't made my recovery so pleasant. However, I would rather be here than at work. I have a boss who is not understanding of anything.

I feel like all of my anxieties and depression are related to the status of my life as well as the post-op stuff.

I don't know what to do some days!

I know, I feel the same way. I will be 6 wks this Fri. I'm going back to work tomarrow and i'm scared.
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