Emotions gone haywired

Thanks for listening..
The doc put me on stronger HRT. The patch was not working for me. I am so glad you guys are here. I hope work goes well. I will not be able to get back to this web site until sometime next week. I will keep you all updated.
The saddness seems to be subsiding.. I feel stronger today. The HRT works fast, but the doc told me to give it a week.
I do notice personality changes in myself. I am tring to get to know the new me, and mourn for the old.. I believe that will happen in its own time and not sooner.
As my mother use to say..
"You can't push the river" Let go and glide with the current, you get where you want to go alot faster..

Until I can get back on line again..Happy holiday everyone..
God Bless..

Sonarotion:

I am glad you are feeling better, it has helped me so much to go to hystersister's web site and read other women's progress reports. I will miss talking with you. Please let us know how you are doing.
Wowotion: I am glad you shared your mother's wisdom with us. It is a great quote!

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Originally Posted by pdw1208 You are right!!! The first week, my hubby was so nice and now I am at the 4th week and he is so mean. I told him today I was not going to pick him up from work, he was going to stay there. My son has my car and I took him to work to have the truck. He is a little nicer, so far. What is with these men??? I think my hubby is ****** and he is being selfish (oops, did I say that? hope not to offend anyone). Well, that can work both ways. (I am getting so mean). We have been through a lot and could use some sympathy and good attention. My hubby hates to see my cry, so next time when I cry, I am going to show him and not hide like I usually do. He can get upset then. Well I hope we all have a good July 4th weekend. Think I will paint my toes and fingernails. otion:

Hi pdw 1208,
I am going to quote you, "I am getting so mean." Well, good for you!!!! Sometimes , that is what it takes for us to get noticed in this world. Only, I must admit , that I really should get mean more often with certain people, and sometimes I just can't because of extenuating circumstances!!!!! Just keep holding your head up high. Hugs, Reeni

Yes, I think you are right. So many people will take advantage of you, if you let them. And I have let people do that in the past. For example, my hair stylist that I have been going to for years is getting on my nerves. I have finally decided she is not the only one in town and I am going to venture out and try other people.
Thanks.

It's so comforting to hear that I am not alone in how I feel at the moment. Even as I'm typing this all I want to do is crying my heart out and bury myself in a deep hole. Had my op on 14 March 2005 and started to think I was coping well now but since yesterday being on a downward spiral and feeling like I'm losing it! Have started having feelings that I am less than a woman and yesterday had horrible dreams about me not being a real woman. How long do these feelings last? Just made a holy show of myself in the office by crying - think it best I go for a quick walk round the block to calm down.

I understand what you are saying. There are days when I am up and days when I am down. As women, we have to endure a lot. You are NOT less of a woman because of the surgery, as a matter of fact I admire you and any other woman who has the courage to make the decision to have surgery. It is not an easy thing to do. I know I put it off as long as I could. I did not want to have a hysterectomy, but in the long run, I am better off. No more periods!!! I should have bought stock in Kotex, I would be rich now!! I had to buy several boxes a month. That alone is worth the trama of the surgery. I am not in any pain now. I have severe back and pelvic pain, but still didn't want the surgery. It was not until the doc told me she could not do anything else for me that I finally decided to have the surgery. You are still in recovery. I think our hormones replacement therapy has a lot to do with our emotions. Keep a journal about how your feel. Give it to your doc to look at, they may have to make some adjustments to your HRT. I went to the doc yesterday for my 6 weeks check up and she is changing my hormone patch from Combipatch to Veille dot .05. You may need to do the same thing, change your HRT, if you are on it. The one thing about women is our compassion for others. We are the ones that make our nations the great place it is today to live. Without us, our countries would be a boring place. If you need to cry, you just cry, honey. We all do. If you need to take a walk you take it, you will feel better. I think you are doing great for someone who just had her surgery a few months back. Keep your head high. We are going to make it.
I have had the bad dreams too. Get some happy romance stories to read before bed. That helps me. Go get a maicure, you deserve it. Go get some coffee or tea, you deserve. Go to a movie and see a sappy romance story and just have a good cry, you deserve it. You have been through a lot and you need to take care of yourself emotional, spiritual, physical and mentally. No one can really do it for you, you have to do it yourself. Go to the library and get some self help book. Lord knows, I have read them. Go to church and sing and worship your heart out. Get some sun, it is full of Vitimin D and the light helps or go to a tanning solon. Just don't get too much and put on sunscreen. I use light treatment to help me out when I am down in the dumps. You can buy lights just to put your face in and it does help. Take some vitimins. Go shopping and buy a pair of new shoes (on sale of course). Let me know how the rest of your day is.

Big hugs and thanks for responding to my "help" cry. The support you have just shown me has made me feel like crying again but in a good way. My husband suggested that I find a support group yesterday evening when I was telling him how I was feeling. He has been my tower of strength but I know that deep down he finds it hard to understand and he accepts that fact and so he strongly believes that I should find other means of support and then today I find it! I'm not on HRT because I kept my ovaries. My mum has suggested I see my doctor if I keep feeling like this but I'm worried that he will put me on anti-depressants and I definitely don't want to do that. Will look into getting some herbal remedies instead.

Must admit recently and in the very earlier stages did/do wonder if I let myself be rushed into having the op but looking back the pain and suffering that I had been coping with for the previous 8 months and my consultant saying it was the only way to get rid of my problems, I know deep down it was the right thing to do. Also having the full abdominal op showed that I had a cyst on one of my ovaries that did not show on any tests or scans so again proved that it was necessary.

Starting to feel a bit better now - went out for a walk and the sun is shining for a change!

So glad I found you and the other ladies on this website! Keep in touch!

I am glad you are feeling better. When I am at work or home and I get stressed out, I will take a walk, it always helps. The sun makes me feel better too. You don't have much sunshine in your country, do you? We have had hot, humid, and cloudy days with no rain. We have been having a few hours of sunshine here in the states. It is usually shinning strong by now, but not here lately. Take care of yourself and it is a good idea to find a support group. I don't know if we have one here or not, but I think every community needs one. Listen to your mum, she knows what is best. If your don't want an anti-depressant, you can tell them and maybe they may find you something else.
I heard that your country will be supporting the Olympics in 2012. Great!!!

Thanks for keeping in touch. I'm feeling a bit better today and trying to feel positive but it is hard. Might have a word with my practice nurse at the doctors as she is very understanding and she did mention before that she would try to find a support group local to where I live. Told a friend of mine who had the same op in January this year to get on the website because it is such a good site, so I have got someone closeby who understands but sometimes I feel that we could both do with the extra support.

Thanks for the congrats about Olympics in 2012 although with today's events (bombings in London) it has dampen the celebrations considerable!!! I work in London and I'm stuck here without knowing how I will be getting home. Must admit has but my little outburst yesterday into a bit more perspective today!

I am glad you are feeling better today. Please call someone if you need to, there is no shame in it. I am on Lexapro for anxiety and it helps. It does not zonk me out, it is supposed to help with energy and rest.
I am soooo sorry about the bombing in London. Do you think it is because of the Summit Talks or the Olympic announcement? It is storiming here, we are on a watch for tornados. Have to go, but want you to know that I and the United States are praying for your country to recover from this. We know how you feel becasue of 9/11 here. I like what Blair said about not bowing down to these terrioist.
Take care and let me know if you are able to get home.