Feeling very emotional right now

I'm sorry if I am going to sound so depressed on this thread, but I am feeling very hormonal right now. I leave for the East coast next week for a 2 week vacation and it's supposed to be a fun event, and believe me, I was all excited about going for the longest time. Today, everything just feels as if my world is falling apart and I can't explain it! Since I do still have my ovaries, I wonder if it's what's causing me to be so emotional. I want to cry at the smallest things, and I feel so nostalgic. I had a doctor's appointment this week which I intentionally missed on purpose, because I didn't feel up to seeing him. I know he's the most caring doctor I've ever met, but I didn't feel like listening to him either, whatever he had to say, lol. Sometimes I feel like what he tells me, he says it to all of his other patients and therefore, I feel like "just one of them."

Then the Holidays are coming and I don't seem to know how to "feel" at a time like this. Having your uterus taken out, being childless, plus the fact that I am single right now.. it's beginning to take a toll on me. I know I should be grateful for my successful recovery, but heck.. It is frustrating to feel this hormonal. I feel like I'm going through my monthly cycle again. I just want to feel happy, not on a roller coaster type of emotional thing. As I'm typing this, I swear, my tears are just about to flood over. ... *Sigh*

Anyone else feel this way?

Hi there......
I am soooo sorry you are feeling this way right now. The ironic thing is that I have been in my room for the last 2 hours wheeping for no reason!! I also kept my overies and cannot understand this. I am getting hot flashes through out the day then cold chills?????? I know a few sisters have shared with me that your homones go through shock after surgery but goodness do they have to be so mad! Smile....I am boo hooing right now, that is why I jumped online to see if there are any other post out there with these same feelings and here you are! Gosh, I want to feel good again like before! I had to have this done also because of heavy bleeding and 21 day periods......fibroids and weekness. You would think we should be "filled with joy" as my friends and family tell me......But, I am sorry to here your down, I can honestly say, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! and mean it!
Hugs to you!
Sonia

Yup, I've been emotional also. I've felt like crying, but have been able to resist the urge. I don't have my ovaries anymore, but I'm post menopausal -- so I really don't miss them. So, I can't blame my "feelings" on losing my ovaries.

I think what some of us are going through is the grieving process. We've lost a part of us that defined who were were and how we lived through our entire adult lives. When you think about it, our lives revolved around our uterus, cervix, and ovaries. We were either premenstrual, postmenstrual, having our period, or ovulating since we were 12 years old (or there abouts). We were either trying to get pregnant, doing everything we could NOT to get pregnant, and worrying about if we were or weren't pregnant. And, for those of you who are still young enough to be fertile, that is yet another loss -- knowing that you will not have life inside you again or ever. I know if I was a younger woman, I would be feeling more loss over my own hysterectomy.

So, this is a loss we are all going through. A significant loss. I remember when I quit smoking -- I knew that I would never be able to have another cigarette again. I felt like my best friend had died. Having a hysterectomy means an end to one stage of our life. Hopefully, new opportunities will come into all our lives to make up for any losses we may feel.

Thank You! You have put it in a nutshell- I am going to print that!
Still Blubbering.................
Sonia

Thank you so much for both of your very thoughtful and mindful words. When I need inspiration at times like these, all I do is log onto this wonderful website and access and read my replies and comments from others.

If you know that someone truly listens and replies from experience it makes a world of difference.