no sex drive at all

OK, i posted here before about being scared to have intercourse and everyone gave me some good advice and I thank you. I was released at 2 months (Nov4) to have sex...still scared so we waited about 1 week. We started and did what we could and when he used his finger it hit me that I am different in there and emotions ran high and I could not go thru with actual intercourse. I ended up crying the whole time and then myself to sleep.
The problem now is I have absolutely no sex drive at all and with that emotions are low as well (intimacy stuff) I don't know what to do DH is getting frustrated and even thought for a bit I was cheating on him. Long story short with a woman not a man (I am bisexual). He knows I miss being with a woman and that is why he thought that ( since he wasn't getting any someone must have) well I told him that no one else was! He believes me but then another issue came up about 2 weeks later that he thinks i am masterbating without being honest and telling him. I tried to tell him that I am not even doing that. He believes me now.
My libido is dead...i feel dead inside and that makes me sad and confused. Don't know what to do or where to go from here.

I would contact my Dr. and see if there is something they can give you. It may be your hormones aren't working right yet. It is uncomfortable the first few times and maybe you are scared it's going to hurt so you are stressing on it to much. Have you and dh tried just outer stuff first? That may relax you enough to try other things to bring back your feelings. Hope this helps some. Take care and call your dr. for there opinion.

We have tried other things, but he HAS to initiate it because I am feeling nothing to even initiate it. The problem is even while doing things i still feel nothing. Nothing seems to really spark it up and i still feel dead. I am waiting for the doc's office to call me back regarding this.