can't stop crying

I've been waiting for two months now for a date and the surgical nurse called me yestreday at my work. The doctor who a ok the surgery has change she mind and she now wants me to do injections again. I told her when I first saw her that I already be through that a can't stomach it again. I've been working of and with many doctors for over 14 years now I done all the hormones. I didn't come to the County hospital fo another opinion. I didn't ask for my work to cancel my ins. and have to go to medi-cal. I don't know what to do anymore.The bleeding started again this morning and I been using Provera to control the flow but I only have two pills left. My boyfriend is leaving town and I don't have a car. It's been in the shop for almost a month now. I might get it back today some time i hope. I don't know what to tell the doctors any more it doesn't seem like they care at all. Does anyone have any suggestions? The drugs give me severe migraines, vomiting, fevers, and do nothing to help with the pain. I am so scared to that the iv'e run out of options. Dawn

Dawn I am so sorry that you are going through so much.

Get in a cab or a bus and go see the doctor again. Did they really call you with the information and not have you come into the office to discuss why they dont want to do the surgery. Remember it is your body. I have never heard of such a thing.

I really feel for you. Try to calm down and relax. I know that is hard.

Cath

dear dawn hang in there girl! Please remember doctors work for you make them answer your questions don't be afraid to be your best advocate. I know its tuff when you feel bad but try and channel your frustration into a positive louid and clear voice.......best wishes

I'm so sorry you are in pain. I hate when people hurt. When I'm feeling bad, I read God's Word. It really soothes my emotions. Read Psalms 91. I always do when I;m scared.

Scully

Thank you all for the support. I don't really understand why they didn't call me in to tell me this it doesn't make any sense. The bleeding started today and i'm not sure what to expect. I can't see the doctor for two weeks. Eric wants to come with me. He said that he'll make sure that they hear me this time. I'm not sure what to do though. I have church tommorrow and I don't even want to go. I do want to have to answer the questions and deal with any remarks. Today at work they treated me as if I had a the plague. People don't understand. They think that this must be the lords will or that I have done some terrible sin that I deserve all this. Is this true? If I don't get well I'll lose more than my job, I'll lose my children. I have to work a full time job in order to keep them. I tried to break up with Eric last night too but you can't fight with a pastor.This is wway to much for him. Ontop of all this my car has major electical problems and has been in the shop for three weeks. They just told us today that it would be better for me to buy a new one than to put money on this one. How can I go to church and tell them all this?? They think that their pastor is dating trouble. I don't understand all this. Dawn

You poor thing! You have so much going on and you need their support.
You have medical conditions that require that your doctor work for you to obtain the desired outcome from treatment or surgery, whichever you prefer. You really need to put it to the doctor to tell you why she changed her mind about surgery. Does she think it's better for you to bleed so much, to have headaches and such? Does she have a different alternative this time?
Try to separate out all the different issues that you are dealing with right now. The kids, the car, the people at work, your boyfriend. What are your priorities? Handle them one at a time and don't let others get in the way of your life priorities.
Good luck to you,

You did nothing wrong to deserve this. It is not sin or God's will for you to suffer. I don't have the answers and don't know why God allows certain things. I;m still confused about it myself but I just know He will get you through the hard times. When I feel awful, I don't feel like Church myself and that is ok because you don't have to go. The Lord is with you at home. Sorry for the rambling but I know how people can get about sin and It must be God's will. They are not in your shoes and do not know how you feel.


Do what you feel is right!!


SCully

Maybe you should try getting a second opinion.......just a suggestion. Goog luck!