Quick check-in and check out for a few days

Hi everyone!

Oh my goodness, have I missed you all! I am leaving today for a vacation at Sea Ranch. It's on the northern coast of CA, and we're renting a house for 3 or 4 days. I'm hoping that some quiet time together on the beach, with no phones, homework, comptuters, etc. will help to establish the equalibrium my family needs. My kids are still acting out from my surgery, and we all just need to chill together! So, I won't be posting again until next weekend.

I've read many of your recent posts. There is so much going on! I wish I had time to respond to my girls.... Please know that I am thinking about you all.

I haven't posted for a while....My body is doing just great. No pain or complications--just tons of fatigue still. But, I had a very unfortunate experience with my therapist of 10 years. We had a phone session last week, as I was too tired to drive the 45 minutes of winding roads to get there. She said some things that really hurt my feelings and then was a real jerk about it. I'd decided that we'd really gone as far as we can go together (10 years is pretty unheard of!), and talked to her about it in our session in person this past Friday. It was really awful! She let it slip that she thought that all of my physical problems stemmed from unresolved conflicts ( that I have Conversion Disorder), and had been waiting for me to agree with her about it all this time. I'm really more shocked and confused, than I am devastated or angry. Still, it's hard to stop thinking about it as we've had such a long, caring relationship and she's helped me in so many ways. There is no way to make sense of it and it driving me crazy! I feel like I'm in the twilight zone, and am truly worried about her. I hope I can let go of this during my vacation! My DH has been a doll, and as we are both in the mental health field, he's been very helpful in trying to figure out what happened to her. And, most importantly, to reassure me that she's gone around the bend, and is completely wrong about me!
OK, my family is awaiting me!

I love you all, and feel so lucky to have you!

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Hi Margot!!! Was wondering where you had gotten off to. I hope you and your family have a WONDERFUL time. I'm sorry to hear about you and your therapist...I hope things work out for you. Take care and let us know how your vacation goes!!!

Wendy

Margot, have a wonderful time relaxing and reconnecting with your family. The beach is a great place to get away from it all and to help soothe your mind. I agree with DH, though your mind can be a powerful thing I don't think it's capable of causing mesh erosion due to Conversion Disorder. Everything happens for a reason. Ten years is a long time to be with one therapist and maybe a new therapist can help you in ways this one has not. Still, I'm sure you feel hurt and betrayed by someone you must consider to be a friend by now.
Since you're at the beach, think of the good things that came out of your connection with the therapist and bury the bad in the sand. leave it all at the beach and start fresh when you get home. Have fun and remember that we're here for you when you get back.
Michelle

Margot, relax and enjoy the beach! I love the water and find it wonderful to "reconnect". Have fun with the family.

I am sorry to hear about your therapist. That sounds very unprofessional of her. Good luck finding someone else. Enjoy the water and the family!

Wow, now I've heard it all. Mesh erosion, being a physical thing, is one of the things caused by some mental problem?? Sheesh. Wouldn't that have been nice if we could have 'cured' it by some form of behavioral therapy? Wonder how talking about it could have helped that mesh just stop from eroding through our vaginal walls. Hmm...hmm...nope. Can't figure that one out. Plus, pain from an accident also could have been fixed from some form of mental/behavioral therapy: that's another good one.
Hope your family retreat at the beach is divine! It sounds fun. (t's been warm here but is about to get chilly again just in time for Easter--dangit.)

Best of the best to you.....

Margot....we have not seen you for awhile. Are you OK????? You had alot going on when you went off for your getaway. I hope that went well.

Please come back and see us! Kathie

Kathie, I've been thinking about Margot too. You know how we say that once you're feeling better you come to the site less often? Let's hope Margot is doing great and running circles around her DH and kids right now!!
michelle

Yep...think we will ever feel that great again???? I am like you tho and will still come back to help like all of you helped me. Maybe not as much as I would like but I will still hang around here. It saved my life!

I hope that is the case for Margot!!! Now it is your turn!