Oh my goodness, have I missed you all! I am leaving today for a vacation at Sea Ranch. It's on the northern coast of CA, and we're renting a house for 3 or 4 days. I'm hoping that some quiet time together on the beach, with no phones, homework, comptuters, etc. will help to establish the equalibrium my family needs. My kids are still
acting out from my surgery, and we all just need to chill together! So, I won't be posting again until next weekend.
I've read many of your recent posts. There is so much going on! I wish I had time to respond to my girls...
. Please know that I am thinking about you all.
I haven't posted for a while....My body is doing just great. No pain or complications--just tons of fatigue still. But, I had a very unfortunate experience with my therapist of 10 years. We had a phone session last week, as I was too tired to drive the 45 minutes of winding roads to get there. She said some things that really hurt my feelings and then was a real jerk about it. I'd decided that we'd really gone as far as we can go together (10 years is pretty unheard of!), and talked to her about it in our session in person this past Friday. It was really awful! She let it slip that she thought that all of my physical problems stemmed from unresolved conflicts ( that I have Conversion Disorder), and had been waiting for me to agree with her about it all this time.
I'm really more shocked and confused, than I am devastated or angry. Still, it's hard to stop thinking about it
as we've had such a long, caring relationship and she's helped me in so many ways. There is no way to make sense of it and it driving me crazy! I feel like I'm in the twilight zone, and am truly worried about her.
I hope I can let go of this during my vacation! My DH has been a doll, and as we are both in the mental health field, he's been very helpful in trying to figure out what happened to her. And, most importantly, to reassure me that she's gone around the bend, and is completely wrong about me!
OK, my family is awaiting me!
I love you all, and feel so lucky to have you!