testosterone disappointed with how I feel.

I started using Testogel about 5 weeks ago, and without proper guidance from my doctor, I very quickly overdosed and felt very aggressive and anxious.
It did bring back sensation and I did have a couple of orgasms but after that I was in such a state I didnt want to have sex anyway. I thought that sex felt different too. I did not have the loving feeling I was used to.
I was advised to give the Testogel a break and it took 10 days for my anxiety and aggression to settle down.
I am not in any hurry to start it again because I am afraid of the anxiety returning. I was going to wait a month.
I am now in a situation where I do have plenty of sensation in all the appropriate places but I do not feel any loving emotion, and so it all seems pointless.
The last couple of times we have tried to have sex I have just felt flat and we had to stop. I dont like the way I feel at all.
I dont know what is going on now. I feel so disappointed that things arent the way they should be.
Do I need to use the testogel again, or is is that I still have too much in my system? I am not using any other HRT as I had endo cancer 18 months ago and so had a hyst and BSO.
Can anyone with experience of testosterone therapy shed any light please?

testosterone didn't sit well with me either. My pharmist told me to keep trying it for a few weeks. I was angry, and more quick of temper on it. I threw A phone book at my husband one day. I have tried it twice, each for 3-4 days at a time and couldn't stand it anymore. did absolutely nothing for my sex drive which they were trying to fix. I just felt like i was doing the " road rage" feeling while on it for those short days

Hi Ann
Thanks for that. I know exactly how you felt. I could have committed murder!
I have just been told by my doctor that I was so overdosed that I was mentally drained out-hence lack of any emotion.
I have been told to wait a month and then use a tiny amount twice a week.
I dont want to give up on it yet. I will give it another try. The everyday dose was just too much for me.
uk lady

dear uk lady: I had my hyst. 3 years ago and my dr finally started me on testosterone in March of this year. He sent me to a compound pharmicist and they started me on a cream of 1mg/ml cream 0.5ml rubbed into my skin daily. At first I had some strange reactions and felt anxious myself. After hanging in and trying it I have to say, it has given me back my mind clarity and sex drive. Not what it use to be but at least I look forward to the intimacy with my dh. I didn't mention but I am also on a climara patch 0.1mg and progestrone (from compound phar) of 100 slow release. It seems to me that I on the right direction finally after three year. I guess it is trial and error and unfortunately we are the ones who suffer. My dr. has been patient and trying different things but it is a very slow and tedicious process. My suggestion is maybe a compound phar, for your testosterone, they cater to your needs individually. I had a saliva test to determine where my deficiencies were. Good luck just don't give up and continue searching until you feel better. Hugs Donna

I live in the UK and the doctors here are much more conservative in the aftercare of endo cancer. They don't say never to HRT but they like to wait for 2 years in case of recurrence.
I will be able to have it in November if I want it but I am actually doing really well now without it. I was in hell when I first had my ovaries removed because my body was overloaded with estrogen before-thats what caused my cancer. I thought was going to hell in a handcart and it was only acupuncture that saved me.
I have doggedly worked through the worst of it and now I just use soy which helps.
I see taking estrogen now as a retrograde step-I never want to go through that withdrawal hell again and they wont let me stay on estrogen forever!
I just wonder if my huge overdose of testosterone hasnt cleared out of my system yet. My doctor was very naughty-she gave me 5g sachets of Testogel for men and just told me to rub it in. She didnt give me any warning about how little to use and I was putting on a quarter of a sachet daily until I almost went berserk!
I left it alone for a month but during that time mentally I was all over the place. Having tried a much smaller amount for 2 days this week I began to get depressed again.
So I think I am going to wait a bit longer.
I still have plenty of sensation there so I probably dont need to rush back to it.
Its good to hear that you have found what works for you-it gives me hope so thank you
uk lady

I would think using testosterone without any other hormones to balance it WOULD cause problems.