I want another child!!!

Hey Ladies,
I have been really depressed this last week. I think everything is just really piling up on me and it's just time for me to have a pity party. I am 29 it's been almost 5 years since my TAH. I've started experienceing pains and extremem bloating in my stomach like I used to feel before my TAH. The dr. says its IBS I think he is full of it.
My baby girl is turning 5 in September and her birthday is a remembrance of the day I am not going to have the chance to have another child. I don't know if it's the fact that she is getting so independent or the fact that my other daughter is 6. I feel a sense of loss. I just want to be able to hold them in my arms and rock them like babies. I had a miscarriage before my oldest daughter was born and I have always wondered if that was my little boy. I wasn't that far along but, it was still the fact that I was pregnant and this was a little person inside of me that didn't even get the chance to live. Is it weird to think about it? My husband and I have always wanted a boy and now that I have my two girls I desperately want a son. We are thinking about possibly adopting one day. He wants to wait a couple of years but, me I want one now. All of my friends are having babies and I am around them constantly. When they cry I want to cry. I have been reading a lot of these posts and I see that I am not the only one who feels this way. What can I do to stop this hurting that I feel right now? It's funny, I always said I don't want anymore than 2 kids but, when someone takes that ability away from you it's a whole different story.

Dear Momie,
Out there somewhere, there is a little child longing for a mommie.. look into adoption. If you can not get adoption, how about a foster child.. a little child with a rough start in life, who simply is longing to be loved
Cat

I am so sorry that you are not feeling well. I have three kids 2 girls and then my last one was a boy. My husband and I knew that would be our last baby boy or girl I just couldn't have anymore. Way too hard on my body. I to lost a baby before my second child was born. I feel for you for your loss as this was a baby. I was not very far along when I miscarried. I was very upset at the time and still get upset because I wanted to have four kids. But then when I think about it I realize that I might never of had my second child who I love so dearly. I very much believe that mother nature has a way of knowing when something is wrong I also know that we are lucky to have biological children as so many of the women on this site have too many problems to be given the chance to experience bringing another life into this world. I think adoption is a wonderful idea. I myself was adopted when I was two years old. I love my parents and my siblings that they already had. They adopted my brother as well with me. Adoption is such a wonderful thing and gives a chance for a child to have something that they probably would never have........... LOVE.
I know that many adoptions are from unwed mothers and teenage pregnancies and this is just as good. My brother and myself came from a home that was filled with abuse. I am so blessed that God gave my brother and I another chance at a Happy safe and loving life. May god bless you and your family. I will also pray for peace for you.

Thank you all for you encouraging words. It's nice to hear from someone else who can relate to me. I seem to be having a better day today then yesterday. I am very thankful that I was blessed with two wonderful children and a understanding husband. We probably will in the next couple of years try to adopt. Thanks for praying for me peace. It worked. I woke up this morning and felt beter. God bless both of you.