Asking for Prayers~possible cancer

My mind is going 100 miles per hour so please bear with me. I am asking for prayers for my health. I had a hysterectomy in Feb 2008 and the removal of my right ovary. The doctor told me that she couldn't find my left ovary and left it there. I had serious health issues which made the hysterctomy my only choice. I had a mass on my left ovary prior to surgery so I was quite surprised when she told me she couldn't find it. I know she was concerned b/c I had a total coloctomy (large intestine removed) and have an ilea anal J pouch (small intestine attached to rectum in the form of a J~~which was placed in backwards I've been informed~she was afraid of knicking my intestine or pouch and causing me to live with an ileostomy again. In May of 2008 I was having severe pain on my left side near my ovary, I went for ultra sounds and MRI's. The tests showed the mass has grown considerably in a matter of three weeks and the type of mass it is has a high probability of having cancer in the walls. I was scheduled for surgery at my local hospital Friday, Jan, 30th. I spoke with my new gyno and he referred me to Sloan-Kettering Cancer hospital for a third opinion. I have a consult with them on Jan. 29th. I sent them all my records (which is important to keep a copy of all operative reports, MRI's, pahtology reports) I request copies everytime I have something done. I am terrified now thinking the what if's. What if it is cancer? I had cervical cancer years ago and recovered from it fine. I am asking that you say a prayer for me, I believe in th power of prayer. I have over come so much and I feel my inner strength has diminished to the point that surgery terrifies me this time around. I have been on mporphine for my pain for atleast 5 years. I was just starting to wean off of it and I got hit with this. I am terribly depressed and find it hard to get out of bed. I am usually the smiling, bright, optomistic friend that cheers up everyone, and now I need some cheering up. I am frightened but afraid to let my family know how frightened I am. I always puton the brave front that I will be fine no matter what. I ask that you pray for me to regain my inner strength and see me through this trying time. Thank each of you that takes a moment to say a prayer. May God Bless each of you and may you surround yourself with the white light.
Light & blessings,
fallenangel

Dearest Angel,

My prayers and thoughts are with you. You are a survivor and will continue to fight the battle placed in your path. Do all you can to find the strength you found before to fight. May the good Lord continue to bless you and keep you.. We are all here for you....

Love, hugs and prayers....

I will pray for you; I too am in limbo and waiting for a laproscopic procedure
(had TAH 12/3/08) to r/o ca. This is terrible; but we can sure help each other. Good for you for reaching out.........this is my first post.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Thank you...things look good; only 95% chance it is.
I really appreciate your reply.
Janice

Your procedure was on my birthday... I think that's a great sign from God!