thursday LSH-ahhh help!!

well my nerves are getting the better of me!! very scarred! i have cleaned and reorganized my whole house and i am driving my hubby crazy!! he never knows what to expect when he comes thru the door every day! I have always known that it would come. i have almost died numerous times from all the bleeding. DnC's and all the crazy things i let the docs do to me, pelts in my belly and drilling my ovaries!( that did work though) i did an iud for the last 3 years and the thing kept coming out!! and boy did that hurt! ugh! but it did stop the bleeding! so after the last time it came out the doc tells me either that or the LSH, so after the nasty stuff i have read about the iud i was using, my other choice is it. soo i am really nervous but i know it is the right thing . so now my back is out! from scrubbing my tile floors in the dining room! lol! i am at a lost as to what to do! i have read on here but i find i can not even pray about it!! i pray about everything! i feel like if i do i have to admit it is going to happen, or something. i know it is but i just don't want to think about it too much! lol i have not really had time by myself either. my doc wants to do this before i bleed again so i dont bleed out again. so thursday!
so thanks for listening to my rambling! i hope you can make some sense out of it.
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OK, great, now I know I'm not crazy! You're feeling the same way I've been! I've been very scared and nervous. Not knowing how to relate to my hubby, either. He's having trouble understanding my apprehension. Have had trouble sleeping and focusing. Can't seem to quite settle down -- not me at all since I'm generally low key. Know medically this is the best option for me, but I can't shake the anxiety! I'll be thinking of you on Thursday!

You both sound normal to me.
I was an emotional mess while waiting for my hyst. It can be a really scary time, IMO. The unknown can really get to me. Staying busy helped me get through the days and sleep a little at night

Surprisingly though, I was calm the day of surgery. Maybe because the waiting was over. I hope that you can be too.

Best wishes.

Hi to you both.

I know exactly how you feel. I was extremely apprehensive before my surgery. I had never had major surgery before, either. I was fine the actual day of surgery, but all the nights and days in-between, I was a mess. This had an impact because I am a night, tooth grinder with a mouth guard and I did serious damage to one tooth through this time period that I now have to have repaired!

I was totally angry and conflicted that I was being “victimized” by my own body. I’ve come to believe that these feelings are common for anyone whose body betrays them. Many will not have the outcome we are likely to have, which is good health, a good life and recovery.

For me the pre-op and surgery, the doctors and the care were great. They all did their best to make me feel less apprehensive. Try to relax and trust that having been there, we do understand and all will be well.

I too was a mess prior to my LSH. I am a constant planner and always need a few back-up plans so I won't be surprised. I wanted everything in its place and I also wanted to know everything that was and could possibly happen before, during and after my surgery. I thought and talked about it constantly with my family and friends.

After going thru this for a few days, something just snapped and I told myself and everyone that I want to be in the "now". I want to be a participant in my daily life and not talk about the future plans (surgery). I didn't want one more person to say to me, "Next week this time you will be...." It didn't help me and I was just sick and tired of talking about it.

My best advice is to relax and enjoy each day as it comes now and after your procedure. If cleaning and preparing gets your mind off of it then do that but if it's making you think more and more about your surgery then go have drinks with friends, organize that stack of photos or do something that will take your mind off your surgery.

By the way, your surgery will be a success and the recovery will be speedy.

I am so grateful for this site! I feel as though my emotions have captured my body and taken it hostage! I read, and read about the procedure, scaring myself silly - as each day goes by I keep thinking - maybe I'll cancel it, maybe I don't really need this, maybe I'll regret this major decision!

BUT, I need relief from pain from large fibroids, anemia from extreme periods, and 4 suspicious pap smears in two years! Still, doesn't stop you wondering does it?

Much love and good luck to you,

RavenHeart

I had a huge anxiety attack before my surgery. There were times when I wanted my Dh close by and there were times when I wanted him as far away from me as possible, poor guy. It is very natural to be scared. When you get to the other side you will be wondering what the heck you where so scared of. That is what happenned to me. I was telling jokes with my family and trying not to laugh so hard. I was relieved. There is always some anxiety involved when their is surgery, but trust me its no big deal, you will be fine.

thank you !! all of you!! thanks. it really does help!! just to know i am not alone!! i think i need sleep but i can't sleep. i have had alot of surgerys. i don't know maybe i am just remembering the last one i had. it was on my shoulder, it was the worst one ever!! hurt bad ! cuff ugh . i was very, very sick to my stomach! i think it is that i have not had it too bad the last few years. so maybe it is just know how needed i am now! but thanks so much!!
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Thanks so much for your feedback. Now, I realize I've been feeling pretty normal. My doctor has done a superb job in being patient and answering questions, but it helps to have the perspective of those that have gone through it. I thought this site was a little hokey at first and I resisted, but I've really come to see that it's been really quite helpful. Thanks again for helping me out. I think I'll be able to sleep tonight!