Frustration,sadness and everything inbetween

I just need to vent a little....

I am just so down today. I am happy that I had this done, that has never been an issue- I'm not missing my uterus at all. My dr. and I discussed this surgery at many many dr. visits beforehand. She thought it was soooooo important to keep the cervix in place even though it bled easily( she said I needed all of the extra pelvic support I could get, since when she went to repair the bladder tissues, they were paper thin). Also, she knew I had PCOS before, but insisted I needed to keep the ovaries, saying the benefits outweighed the PCOS, ( my age, hormones, etc... blah-blah-blah...) I don't want any of those organs anymore. She had said that I would possibly have mini periods. Well. I am so frustrated right now. I feel like I had this major surgery, made it thru 6 wks. of recovery, only to be left with problems now. Last week I had a cyst rupture, she did an ultrasound and found both ovaries have cysts. Then this weekend I am bleeding. It kind of started out like a period normally would, and now when I had a BM- it dripped bright red. I am crying alot lately. I thought all of this would be done. I completely trusted my dr., since she believes in looking at my life down the road also instead of just a quick fix, but now I am miserable. I see her on Wed. for my post op and to discuss the blood test results. I kind of just want her to take everything else out right now. Isn't that just ridiculous to think of now? I can't even imagine going thru that surgery again so soon.
I'm sorry for rambling.... I am just so "UGH" today! My DH is no help either. He just says things will get better eventually.

Redhead 75,

So sorry that you're having problems. I'll be thinking of you and hope things work out for you. This is a good place to vent.

Vent away sister. I have done my fair share of venting here. I am so tired of people saying it will get better eventually. I just had my right ovary removed 16 weeks after my TAH. I really wanted everything out at the time of my surgery, my doctor also felt like I was too young, hormones, etc........ After he went back in to remove the ovary, he said, yeah it should have been removed the first time, but usually people don't have problems after ovarian drilling. But, this is me and nothing has gone as expected. I was tired of living for the future and needed relief now! Good luck at your doctor appointment.

Sorry you are feeling bad redhead. I also wanted to keep at least one ovary and thought that was going to happen. Unfortunately when I woke from surgery I was told they had to take it also. I was soooo upset and cried for days... I would even tell myself, it's a freakin ovary , get over it. My doctor said it was bad and would of had to go back within a year to get it if he would of left it. You would of thought that your doc would of seen something on the ovary when they were in there. I hope it goes good and I am so sorry you have to be dealing with this now. I couldnt imagine.

My dr's plan was to drill them while in there, but she said I started bleeding too much, the ovaries looked ok, and once you start touching the ovaries, they tend to bleed too much to the point where you will have to remove them anyway. I guess she was afraid of that happening??? I don't know... at this point I am tired of bleeding, tired of my ovaries... tired of seeing how easy men have it, you know?
I kind of hope I am still bleeding on Wed. for my dr. appt. so she can see it for herself. UGh.

Aw, sweetie. I'm sending lots of your way. What you're going through sounds so upsetting. I think you are entitled to a . Have you thought about calling your doctor's office first thing in the morning? Maybe she could see you tomorrow so you could know what you're dealing with sooner. You know, if you do have another surgery, it won't be the same surgery as you just had. It may be less complicated with a very different recovery process. I hope you stop bleeding soon (but not until after the sees it).

I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. Keep us posted on what you find out, okay? I wish you in deciding what your next step is.